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1. i am selfish, i am broken, i am cruel, i am all the things they might’ve said to you (do you ever think of me and my two hands?) by wolfevoid

   Fandoms: Spring Awakening - Sheik/Sater  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   06 Jun 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Hanschen Rilow/Max von Trenk
   • Hanschen Rilow/Ernst Robel
   • Hanschen Rilow
   • Max von Trenk
   • Ernst Robel
   • Past Character Death
   • Fear
   • Self-Hatred
   • In a way
   • hanschen is undiagnosed but there’s something wrong with him
   • technically set in a modern era but it’s not mentioned
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Introspection
   • References to Canon
   • just like one though
   • Ambiguous/Open Ending
   • Kinda?
   • Title From a Crane Wives Song

   Summary

   Hanschen Rilow is not a good person.

   He isn’t even a nice or kind person. He’s cruel and cold and only has his own interests in mind. He’s cocky and overconfident and rude.

   People whisper about him in the school hallways, he’s sure, telling everyone new to stay away from him.

   He’s been told that he isn’t a bad person, just an angry one. A scared one at a push.

   He figures that there’s probably no real difference.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   1,150

   Chapters:

   1/1

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

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