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1. all that i lacked so long and loved so well by nightrose

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   11 Jun 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Shane Hollander
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Hopeful Ending
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Racism
   • Homophobia
   • Autistic Shane Hollander

   Summary

   Because it's good news, right? That no one has told him that Ilya is— There probably would have been headlines. Or a press release. A photo of him in his jersey, smiling, two dates only twenty-eight years apart, a few lines about his career, and no listed survivors. Supportive tweets from a bunch of people in the league. Shane's team would put out a press release about the foundation and probably get a flood of donations. There would be something, if he were—

   But there's nothing. There's just this void. Nothing, nothing, no sign of him. It's like Ilya has disappeared off the face of the earth.

   ***

   Shane's point of view on the events of lonely i came, and i depart alone

   Series

   • Part 2 of a strange door

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   8,373

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