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1. I Wanna Feel That It’s Wrong, I Wanna Know Peace Again by myosotisae

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   01 Jul 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Self-Harm
   • Cutting
   • Self-Deprecation
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Hurt/Comfort

   Summary

   Shane’s head is pounding.

   Not physically, no — not the type of pounding solved with Advil, but the type with thoughts pushing through his brain, with no sign of stopping. Each new thought, each repetition of the same aching need, crowds Shane’s brain with a buzzing sound. Images flash through his mind.

   A razor blade, trickling of blood, a high no fucking drug could ever compare to.

   OR:
   Shane debates whether to relapse or not

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   2,213

   Chapters:

   2/2

   Comments:

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