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1. joy, hard learned by lissa_moon

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   08 Oct 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau
   • boy where do i even start
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • No Major Character Death
   • no character death at all
   • References to Drugs
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Character Study
   • Ilya Rozanov Character Study
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Drinking
   • Drinking to Cope
   • Heavy Drinking
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Hurt
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Injury
   • Painkillers
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • POV Ilya Rozanov
   • POV Shane Hollander
   • Eventual Smut
   • ghosting
   • I Wrote This While Listening to Noah Kahan's Music
   • Inspired by Music
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Healing
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • it might not seem like they're in love in this fic but i promise it'll come
   • No AI Used
   • Fuck AI
   • and no you cannot use this fic to inform or feed AI either
   • Slow Burn

   Summary

   Passing by windows in high apartments, in mirror reflections, behind veils — Ilya sees his mother a hundred times over, for the first time since the last time.

   (or: a year spent apart that should've been spent together)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   37,304

   Chapters:

   6/?

   Comments:

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