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donning the mask of fatherhood (the mask of misery)

Summary:

Asat Pramad has worn countless faces before destroying countless worlds. The face of a father should have been no different. But the lines between mask and face blur, and even he cannot predict how the die will land this time.

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the experience of having a Lord Ravager for a father is both the highest of cruelties and the most grandest of jokes.

or
an analysis on the psychology and emotions of Asat Pramad

Chapter 1: the first fall.

Notes:

Okay so i just got done with the 4.4 Trailblaze Mission and y'all......
When I say that I am OBSESSED with Asat Pramad's character, I MEAN IT.

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ANALYSIS RANT
He is an excellent villain and throughout the story, we get these hints and pieces to what his motivations are and what he truly feels and it is just...delicious.

I started this story because in a small way, I get where he's coming from. When the trailblazer asks him why he chose Destruction and betrayed the Trailblaze, he says he "saw too much and travelled too far". And I GET that. I KNOW what it is like to fall into this, this spiral of seeing hope turn into pain around you, and wait in fear that it happens to you too.

He's an egomaniac. He's a villain. He's a callous sociopath who cares for nothing and no-one and values no ideals except his own. He thinks the values of love and friendship and hope are childish because he thinks himself burnt by it.

Why then would such a being, cosplay relationships? We know that he spends time in the places he destroys (He says himself that he loves, has loved). This is because even while he thinks himself above the notions of positivity, he craves them all the same.
The Paradise before the Fall. The Heaven before the Hell.
He is someone that loves life, in his own twisted way.
It is his Love that drives him.

The Destruction after is both his punishment and his salvation. It is his way of gaining control over the fact that everything ends. He says; even great empires fall due their greed, corruption, etc.
If something good has to end, he would rather do it himself than see it contort itself into destruction. It is a form of fear.

I loved this arc and I loved the dichotomy of him destroying everything and lamenting that Himeko would no longer call him "Father" at the end.

A true portrayal of self-inflicted pain and love.
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Chapter Text

The first thing he noticed was the fire.

Then, the silence.

From this distance, the Astral Express descended without sound, reduced to a mere streak of molten gold carving through the black expanse between stars.

The flames that consumed its hull appeared strangely delicate against the vastness surrounding it. Debris peeled away from its body in glittering fragments that caught the silver moonlight before vanishing into darkness, each piece following its own inevitable course toward oblivion.

He watched without moving.

The destruction had unfolded exactly as he intended.

The child he had saved, the child he had held up using the powers of the Destruction (Graphia, her name was, yes), had betrayed THEM and himself. So in turn, he had waged destruction upon her and watched as it spread everywhere by her touch. The Weathering Curse for her blood and Total Annihilation for the Express she had betrayed him for — that, was the sentence he had bestowed.

Now, he simply watched it come to fruition.

The train did not survive.

For several long moments, nothing happened. Then the clouds swallowed the last of its light.

He remained where he stood looking at the fading trail and unbiddenly a simple word made itself known to his mind — beautiful.

The Express — the everlasting symbol of the Trailblaze — was now conquered by the same Destruction that he knew, was destined for all. He was right. He was right.

He almost smiled.

Below him, Planarcadia waited in uneasy stillness.

His hand rose.

A single gesture would suffice.

The Express had survived the fall, if only barely. He could still feel the faint distortion where its engine struggled against death, stubborn enough to resist annihilation for another heartbeat, perhaps another hour. That persistence was meaningless. It merely delayed the inevitable.

He extended his fingers.

The air around him trembled.

Countless worlds had ended with less effort than this.

Yet...

Nothing happened.

His hand remained suspended over the distant horizon.

He waited.

The hesitation puzzled him more than the train itself.

There was no strategic disadvantage to destroying it now. No unforeseen variable had emerged. No enemy capable of intervening. Leaving the wreck intact accomplished nothing.

His fingers slowly curled into his palm.

Why?

Why?

Why?

He examined himself as he would any anomaly.

Fatigue? Impossible.

Sentiment? Oh, Please.

Curiosity?

Hmm...Perhaps.

There was a tingle, in his fingertips.

Or was it in his head? his heart? his soul? 

It told him that this whim of his would bring more questions than answers and oh...

He did so love questions.

(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

His hand lowered.

The pressure gathering around him dissipated soundlessly, dispersing into the void as though it had never existed.

Far below, hidden beneath smoke and sand and shattered earth, the Astral Express lay broken.

He turned away at last.

For reasons he could not yet name, Asat Pramad remembered exactly where it had fallen.