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1. Louder than bombs by Mellon_Macchiato

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   26 Jul 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • David Hollander & Yuna Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov & Brandon Wiebe
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • David Hollander
   • Brandon Wiebe
   • Anya | Ilya Rozanov's Dog
   • Ottawa Centaurs Team Ensemble (Game Changers)
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide Attempts
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • POV Alternating
   • POV Outsider
   • Depression
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Family
   • Family Feels
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Everyone Needs a Hug
   • Heavy Angst
   • Shane and David spreaking Russian with Ilya
   • Panic
   • Angst with a Hopeful Ending
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence

   Summary

   At one point in Ilya's life he somehow stopped feeling things and decided that not feeling was so much worse than feeling sad and depressed all the time. What followed were hours of panic, uncertainity and the realization of what they all could have lost.

   or: the aftermath of Ilya's suicide attempt including an awful lot of crying, feeling and love

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   17,600

   Chapters:

   4/4

   Comments:

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