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1. Happiness, the Holy Grail by slurpee_gays

   Fandoms: Be More Chill - Iconis/Tracz, Heathers: The Musical - Murphy & O'Keefe  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M, F/M, Gen
   • Work in Progress

   17 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Jason "J. D." Dean/Michael Mell
   • Christine Canigula/Jeremy Heere (Background)
   • Jason "J. D." Dean & Michael Mell
   • Jeremy Heere/Michael Mell (One Sided)
   • Jeremy Heere & Michael Mell
   • Michael Mell & Michael Mell's Mothers
   • Christine Canigula & Michael Mell
   • Michael Mell
   • Michael Mell's Mothers
   • Jeremy Heere
   • Christine Canigula
   • Jason "J. D." Dean
   • Bud Dean (Heathers)
   • Squip Squad Members (Be More Chill)
   • Original Background Characters
   • Post-Squips (Be More Chill)
   • Canon Divergence
   • JD Never Goes to Ohio
   • JD goes to New Jersey instead of Ohio
   • No Heathers
   • No Marthas
   • Senior year
   • Everyones about the same age
   • Alternate Universe
   • But not what you think!
   • JD is a 'monster' but not a tradional one
   • you'll see - Freeform
   • Not Vampires or Werewolves
   • Michael Mell needs therapy
   • jason dean needs therapy
   • Michael journals
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Self-Harm
   • Self-Hatred
   • Self-Worth Issues
   • both of them honestly
   • i dont want to spoil too
   • much - Freeform
   • who needs beta readers
   • adding more tags as we go along probably
   • Bullying
   • Harassment
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • (Not Michael)
   • Gay Michael Mell
   • Pining
   • Depression
   • Michael Mell Needs a Hug
   • Slow Burn
   • i am heavily projecting onto michael fr
   • Recreational Drug Use
   • Weed
   • the year is 2016
   • wow a decade ago
   • sorry LMAOOO
   • Angst
   • Murder
   • It is Heathers after all
   • Slushies
   • Fluff
   • Michael's Warcraft buddies make an appearance

   Summary

   Happiness, the Holy Grail
   A quest to keep 'til old and frail.
   You're all that I've ever known.
   Running out of time,
   to make this right.
   My whole life, for you,
   Trying to break through,
   Played my hand,
   Just to understand.

   In other words, Michael Mell is tired of his one-sided love for Jeremy Heere. Trying to move on is hard, but it's made easy with the distraction that is Jason Dean, a tall dark and handsome boy. Mysterious, too. What is with that new kid anyways?

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   25,179

   Chapters:

   8/?

   Comments:

   15

   Kudos:

   24

   Hits:

   198