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1. When I die which I must do by Stahrrleight

   Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games)  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   10 Aug 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • John "Soap" MacTavish/Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • John "Soap" MacTavish & Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Kyle "Gaz" Garrick/John Price
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Kyle "Gaz" Garrick
   • John Price (Call of Duty)
   • Just stating that i have no idea what to tag
   • Soap is already dead in this one
   • Sorry Not Sorry
   • Implied Kyle "Gaz" Garrick/John Price
   • Graphic Description of Corpses
   • Original Female Character - Freeform
   • Original Male Character - Freeform
   • maybe depictions of panic attacks
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide Attempts
   • The authors mind is kinda fucked up
   • Intrusive Thoughts
   • It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better
   • Unexplained Magic
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley Loves John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Heavy Angst
   • probably really ooc
   • Self-Hatred
   • Author has only played 2009 mw
   • implied 2009 ghost backstory
   • 2022 call of duty
   • yes i know their stories are different
   • The universe has free will
   • and was like damn he needs a hug
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley Needs a Hug
   • Get this man to a psychiatrist immediately
   • or at least a grief counselor
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • actually beta read

   Summary

   When soap dies ghost tries to move on and get back to work but he’s not coping well so when he’s forced to take a holiday it honestly makes it worse and being alone in a cabin with the darkest thoughts in his mind day in and day out, he feels stuck and depressed but one night the universe decides to give this specter of a man exactly what he needs, closure… and maybe an indulgent night or two.

   Inspiration from the song My love is mine all mine by Mitski

   Language:

   English

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