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1. this is gonna kill me…(wait) by lynchsstorrie

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   29 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Hayden Pike & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • David Hollander & Shane Hollander & Yuna Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander/Hayden Pike
   • David Hollander & Yuna Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov & Irina Rozanova
   • Hayden Pike & Ilya Rozanov
   • Yuna Hollander & Svetlana Vetrova
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov & Svetlana Vetrova
   • Ilya Rozanov & Svetlana Vetrova
   • David Hollander & Yuna Hollander
   • Galina Molchalina & Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov & Original Female Character(s)
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Ottawa Centaurs Team Ensemble (Game Changers)
   • Irina Rozanova
   • Galina Molchalina
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Self-Hatred
   • Self-Worth Issues
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov Has PTSD
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs Therapy
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Calls Ilya Rozanov "Baby"
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Heavy Angst
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Cuddling & Snuggling
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Emotional Intimacy
   • Vulnerable Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Gets A Hug
   • Sad Ilya Rozanov
   • Sad with a Happy Ending
   • Sad Shane Hollander
   • Soft Ilya Rozanov
   • Soft Shane Hollander
   • Panic Attacks
   • Running Away
   • Religious Guilt
   • Bad Parent Grigori Rozanov
   • Good Friend Hayden Pike
   • Good Friend Svetlana Vetrova
   • No Beta
   • Shane Hollander Leaves the Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros
   • Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros Being Assholes (Game Changers)
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse

   Summary

   Ilya knew deep down that the secret of their relationship was killing him. Every lost touch, every flinch from Shane when Ilya's hand just grazed his. He knew the risks of course he did, but he was so tired.

    

   The Boxing Day fight reimagined in The Long Game.

   Ilya and Shane fight.

   Shane needs space.

   Ilya…well he runs.

   Language:

   English

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   Chapters:

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