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What’s Your Name?
It’s been a month since leaving New York and Jean Elaine Grey has never felt more miserable in her entire freaking life.
She expected that once she left the city and traveled up North, maybe things would start to simmer down. Maybe she could start fresh up North and leave the terrible past behind, leave what she did to the city behind, leave him and his ridiculously ardent heart and soul behind before she folded and quite possibly collapse at his bedside.
Her entire view of how she saw Peter Benjamin Parker had changed during the days she had known him.
At first, he was an obstacle she had to face in order for her to get answers from both the DODC and Metzger to find Sara.
Second, he was an adversary standing in her way from getting those answers, or a bug that needed to be squashed when it didn’t back down.
Third, he became a lost soul trying his best to reach her equally broken soul in an attempt to stop her from doing something she would regret. To herself and to the world at large. When he said, “You have me.” She swore her heart skipped a beat, the moment she locked eyes with his, she was lost in them, she was drowning in them, she never wanted to leave them. The sincerity in his reply made her pause and wonder if he meant it, but the look in his eyes made all those doubts dispel in beautiful white smoke.
Lastly, he either became a hero or the world's most charming idiot when he deliberately took the bullet meant for her, the menace that currently took control and froze the city through a mile radius. He saved her when she thought she didn’t deserve to be saved. He still saved her anyways and paid the price for it.
So, she took control of his body, kept breathing for him, kept him alive, kept him on this plane of existence. Because God damn it, she was not about to lose him too.
She had fought through the static of his fading pulse, anchoring his mind to her own with every ounce of telepathic power she possessed until the paramedics finally took over. But standing in the doorway of his hospital room, watching the steady, rhythmic rise and fall of his chest under the harsh fluorescent lights, Jean had realized the terrifying truth: the real danger wasn’t the DODC, Metzger, or the fallout from her unleashed power.
The real danger was how easily Peter Parker had dismantled her walls.
Now, sitting on the edge of a sagging mattress in a run-down motel miles outside of Burlington, Vermont, the silence in her head was deafening. Up North had offered cold air and dense trees, but zero peace. Every time she closed her eyes, she didn't hear the roar of the new power that was rushing through her veins or the screeching tires of New York traffic. She heard his voice, soft and resolute against the backdrop of chaos.
You have me.
Jean buried her face in her hands, her thumbs pressing against her temples to stifle the ache. Her telepathy was quiet for the first time in months, but her memory was a persistent haunt. She had run because staying meant risking him further. She was a liability, a walking storm of raw, unchecked potential that burned everything it touched. Peter was light, sacrifice, and stubborn, unyielding good. Bringing him into her orbit again felt like dragging a lantern into a hurricane.
In her hands was a phone, not an iPhone or some new model of Samsung or anything, just a simple burner phone that would not allow anyone to trace who the caller was nor where they were transmitting the call.
She knew his number, the time she spent in his mind allowed her to get it. She hadn’t thought much about it, she was too focused in keeping him alive to do so, but she moved it to a place in her mind for future purposes.
She tapped the cracked screen, her fingertips hovering over the worn plastic keypad for a long, agonizing minute. The digits were burned into her brain, etched alongside the cadence of his breath and the frantic, beautiful rhythm of a heart that refused to stop beating.
Just to hear him, she lied to herself. Just to know he’s awake.
With a sharp exhale, Jean dialed the ten digits, pressed the phone against her ear, and waited.
The line rang once. Twice. Three times. Each tone sounded like a countdown to something irreversible. On the fifth ring, the call picked up with a faint crackle of static.
"Hello?"
His voice was hoarse, missing the usual quick-witted cadence she had grown accustomed to during their chaotic days in the city. It was quieter now, burdened by the physical toll of a bullet and the cold aftermath of a frozen Manhattan. But beneath the exhaustion, that steady, unyielding warmth remained, a beacon cutting straight through the frost in her chest.
Jean forgot how to breathe. The words she had rehearsed in her head instantly disintegrated into ash. She sat frozen on the edge of the sagging mattress, her hand shaking so violently the phone clacked softly against her earring.
"Hello?" Peter repeated, a subtle shift entering his tone. The silence on the other end wasn't the silence of a wrong number; it had a weight to it, an unmistakable gravity. "Is... is someone there?"
Jean squeezed her eyes shut, battling the sudden urge to reach out telepathically just to feel the familiar hum of his mind again. She couldn't. The moment she touched his thoughts, he would know it was her. He’d trace the sensation, figure out where she was, or worse, try to come find her in the state he was in.
"Peter," she whispered, the sound barely more than a breath, carrying all the grief, gratitude, and desperate longing she’d tried so hard to bury.
The line went dead silent on his end. The faint sound of bedsheets rustling carried through the speaker, followed by the sharp intake of his breath.
"Jean?" His voice cracked, the word rushed and raw with sudden, breathless recognition. "Jean, is that you? Where are you? Are you okay?"
Hearing him say her name with so much unearned care broke the final dam holding her back. Tears welled in her eyes, spilling over to trace warm lines down her cold cheeks. He wasn't angry. He wasn't demanding answers about why she fled or why she left him in that hospital room. His first instinct, even after everything she had put him through, was still to ask if she was okay.
"I'm fine," she lied softly, wiping her cheek with the back of her hand. "I just... I needed to know you were alive." What a horrible excuse, of course she knew he was alive, she kept him alive and let go of his consciousness once she knew he could do it on his own. A horrible excuse, but a necessary one in this case.
"I'm alive, Jean. Thanks to you," Peter said, his voice dropping to a gentle, steady murmur that seemed to fill the quiet motel room. He seemed to pause, maybe he was thinking, she didn’t know.
"You don't have to hide. You don't have to do this alone. Just tell me where you are."
Jean looked out the frosted window toward the dark, endless line of pine trees stretching into the Vermont night. The storm inside her was still brewing, still unpredictable and dangerous. But for the first time in a month, the deafening silence didn't feel quite so heavy.
"I can't tell you that, Peter," she said, though a soft, tearful smile touched her lips. "Not yet."
More silence.
She started to hate the silence.
"Then promise me you'll call again," he pleaded quietly. "Don't vanish on me."
"I promise," Jean whispered.
Jean hung up before her resolve could crumble entirely. The plastic casing of the burner phone felt hot against her palm, radiating the phantom warmth of a connection she had no right to claim. She stared at the blank, cracked screen for a long, quiet moment before pulling out the battery, snapping the SIM card in two, and tossing the pieces into the metal trash can by the squeaking nightstand.
Outside, the Vermont wind howled through the pines, rattling the thin, single-pane glass of the motel room. The air was frigid, biting through her denim jacket, but Jean didn't shiver. If anything, the cold felt distant, overshadowed by the faint, persistent ember burning deep within her chest. It wasn't the volatile power that had torn through Manhattan. It was the echo of his voice.
You don't have to do this alone.
She pulled her knees up to her chest, resting her chin on her worn jeans, and stared at the dark reflection in the window. For weeks, she had viewed herself strictly as a catastrophe in human form, a wandering weapon waiting to detonate. But Peter had looked at the exact same wreckage and seen someone worth taking a bullet for.
He was an idiot. A brave, stubborn, impossibly good idiot.
A quiet, breathless laugh escaped her lips, the first genuine sound of relief she’d made since crossing the state line. The path ahead was still completely shrouded in shadow. She still needed to figure out what was happening to her abilities, how to control the raging fire beneath her skin, and how to keep the DODC from hunting her down. The world was still broken, and so was she.
But as Jean pulled the thin motel blanket around her shoulders and listened to the steady rhythm of her own heartbeat, the deafening silence in her mind finally began to give way. She wasn't free, and she certainly wasn't cured.
Yet, for the first time in a month, Jean Grey wasn't entirely lost, either.
It was another month before she got the courage to call Peter again. She traveled all the way to neighboring state of New Jersey, bouncing from one bus to another, the closest she could get to him without risking going to New York and any rogue DODC agents that could locate her.
She was touring the city, or that was her excuse anyway.
In truth, New Jersey was a mistake. The faint smell of asbestos was pungent throughout every nook and cranny of the city as if one breath you take would get you instant cancer. Every brick building, every distant glimpse of the skyline across the Hudson, practically screamed his name. Standing near the waterfront in Hoboken, looking at the hazy silhouette of Manhattan glowing like a cluster of fallen stars in the dusk, Jean felt the tether pull taut.
She bought another burner at a shady bodega three blocks back. Cash only, no questions asked, the exact same drill.
Her fingers were steady this time as she punched in the ten digits. The anxiety hadn't vanished, but the crippling fear of breaking him had settled into a quiet, resigned acceptance. She stepped into the shadow of a closed diner’s awning, pulling her hood up against the damp, salty breeze blowing off the river.
The phone didn't even finish its second ring.
"Jean?"
He hadn't answered with a generic hello. He’d just known somehow, she didn’t question it. The sound of his voice carried the faint background noise of wind rustling through a mic, punctuated by the rhythmic, distant thrum of city traffic. He wasn't in a hospital bed anymore. He was out there. Being him.
"You answered fast," she murmured, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of her mouth despite herself.
"I’ve been carrying this phone around for thirty days, Jean. I wasn't about to miss the call," Peter replied, his breath hitched, though there was a noticeable strength in his tone that hadn't been there a month ago. He was healing. "Where are you? Are you safe?"
"Safer than I was," Jean said, leaning back against the cold brick wall. She looked down at her free hand, watching the way her fingers twitched, not from telekinetic static, but from sheer, human nerve. "How's the wound?"
"Oh, you know. Good as new. The doctors were thrilled by my 'miraculous recovery rate,'" he said, a trace of his usual dry humor leaking through before dropping into something much softer. "I missed you."
The three words hung in the air, heavy and direct. No evasion, no superhero bravado. Just Peter.
Jean closed her eyes, letting the sound of his breath fill the silence between them. "Peter, I'm... I'm close. Closer than I should be."
"How close?" he asked instantly, the shift in his voice immediate, sharp with sudden focus.
"New Jersey," she confessed softly. "I shouldn't have come this far south. But the silence got too loud again."
A long pause stretched over the line. For a second, she thought the call had dropped. Then came the sound of a heavy exhale, followed by the distinct rustle of fabric and the sharp thwip of a web-shooter echoing faintly through the receiver.
"Tell me where in Jersey, Jean," Peter said, his voice cut through by the rushing wind as he moved. "Don't hang up. Just stay where you are."
"Peter, no, you can't- "
"I took a bullet for you, Grey," he interrupted, dead serious, though she could practically hear the stubborn grin on his face. "The least you can do is let me buy you a terrible cup of diner coffee. Where are you?"
Jean looked back toward the river, at the distant lights of the city he fought so hard to protect, and then down at the cracked pavement beneath her boots. The storm inside her hadn't vanished, but sitting in the cold alone wasn't fixing it either.
"Hoboken," she whispered, her heart hammering against her ribs like a trapped bird. "Corner of River Street. And the coffee better be actual garbage, Parker, or I'm running again."
"Deal," Peter said, the warmth in his tone absolute. "Don't move. I'm on my way."
Jean stared down at the dark display of the burner phone, her chest tight with an agonizing blend of terror and sudden, blinding hope. She didn't snap the SIM card this time. She shoved the cheap plastic device deep into her jacket pocket, pulled her hood lower over her face, and stepped out from under the diner awning into the damp mist settling over Hoboken.
The pier was relatively quiet, save for the low rumble of a passing cargo ship out on the Hudson. She paced the perimeter of the adjacent parking lot, her boots crunching softly over gravel and broken glass. Every shadow on the rooftops made her head snap upward. Every sudden gust of wind sent a phantom spark of telepathic static buzzing at the edge of her consciousness.
Ten minutes stretched into fifteen. The doubt began to creep in, cold and sharp. What if someone intercepted the signal? What if the DODC picked up his frequency? What if,
A soft, muffled thwip-crack sounded from the upper fire escape of an abandoned brick warehouse across the street, followed immediately by the dull thud of rubber soles hitting the pavement behind her.
Jean whirled around, her hands instinctively coming up, raw warmth flaring just beneath the skin of her palms.
He was standing less than twenty feet away in the dim glow of a flickering streetlight.
He wasn't wearing the mask. He stood in a battered leather jacket over a faded grey hoodie, his dark hair messy from the wind, his jawline set in that same stubborn, familiar line. He looked paler than he used to, a subtle strain still lingering around his eyes, proof of the bullet he’d taken and the icy grave he’d barely crawled out of. But his eyes were bright, pinning her to the spot with an intensity that made the breath catch in her throat.
Neither of them moved. The distant hum of the skyline buzzed across the water, but in the small patch of concrete between them, the world had dropped dead quiet.
"You're late, Parker," Jean said, her voice cracking slightly, breaking the spell.
Peter let out a long, shuddering breath, a faint, breathless laugh breaking through as he took three fast steps forward, closing the distance between them. He stopped just inches away, as if afraid that reaching out would prove she was a hallucination born of a month's worth of regret.
"Traffic was killer on the bridge," he murmured, his gaze scanning her face, searching every line, every shadow under her eyes, checking for damage. "You look terrible, Grey."
"I look like a girl living out of cheap motels," she shot back softly, though a genuine smile broke across her face, tears threatening to spill over her lashes again. "You don't look much better."
"Yeah, well. Hospital food." Peter rubbed the back of his neck, his boyish charm slipping forward for a second before his expression settled into something deeper, something painfully sincere. He looked down at her hands, still trembling slightly, and without a word, he reached out and gently rested his palm over hers.
The moment skin touched skin, a soft spark, not of destructive power, but of absolute, anchoring reality, snapped between them. Jean gasped, reflexively trying to pull back to protect him, but Peter wrapped his fingers tightly around hers, refusing to let go.
"I've got you," he whispered, echoing the words that had echoed in her head for two long, lonely months.
Jean looked up into his eyes, feeling the crushing weight of her isolation finally, mercifully, crumble away into the cold Jersey air. For the first time since the night Manhattan froze, she didn't feel like a monster waiting to destroy the world.
She just felt like Jean.
Yeah, he did have her, more than he would ever know.
"So," Peter said softly, his thumb tracing a slow, grounding circle over the back of her hand, "where’s this garbage coffee you were promised?"
A breathy, helpless laugh escaped Jean, cutting through the damp chill of the Hoboken pier. "You're dynamic, Parker. You swing across the Hudson, dodge the DODC, trace a burner phone, and your primary concern is diner caffeine?"
"Hey, a deal’s a deal," he said, offering a faint, lopsided grin that didn't quite reach his eyes, not because it was fake, but because the exhaustion was still deeply rooted in his bones. He gestured toward a neon sign buzzing weakly two blocks down. "There’s a place over on Washington. The coffee tastes like battery acid and regret. You’ll love it."
They walked side by side, their shoulders brushing with every step. Jean kept her hands shoved deep into her jacket pockets, fighting the instinctive urge to pull her mind into a tight, defensive knot. Being this close to him, the static of the world felt muffled, replaced by the low, steady hum of his consciousness. It was warm, golden, and terrifyingly welcoming.
The diner was nearly empty, bathed in the sickly yellow light of ancient fluorescent tubes. They slid into a vinyl booth in the back, the synthetic cushion squeaking beneath them. A tired waitress dropped two chipped ceramic mugs of pitch-black coffee between them without a word and melted back into the background.
Peter wrapped both hands around his mug, letting the steam rise between them. He stared at her, taking in the dark circles under her eyes, the faded jeans, the sheer weight of the exile she’d imposed on herself.
"You can't keep running forever, Jean," he said quietly, dropping the playful pretense.
"I'm not running from the DODC, Peter," she replied, staring down at the dark liquid in her cup. "I'm running from this." She gestured vaguely between her head and his chest. "I almost erased you. I was in your head, keeping your heart beating because my own power was tearing everything else apart. If I lose control again—"
"You won't," Peter interrupted, his voice dropping into that fierce, unwavering tone that had stopped her in her tracks back in Manhattan.
Jean looked up, meeting his warm, amber-brown eyes, trying to find that lie out of instinct. But sitting across from a boy who had looked into the abyss of her raw, terrifying power and chosen to step into it anyway, the fire felt less like a curse and more like something she might, one day, learn to tame.
"It's going to be dangerous," she warned, though her voice lacked any real distance now. "They're still looking for us. Metzger's people, the government... me."
Peter reached across the formica table, his hand resting open between them, waiting for her choice.
"Let them look," Peter said softly. "What's your next move, Grey?"
Jean looked at his hand, then up at his face. For the first time in two months, the cold didn't reach her. She reached out, closed her fingers around his, and took a sip of the terrible coffee.
"I don’t know.”
She let the silence settle before taking a sip of coffee, God, was it terrible coffee.
“But that’s the fun part, I guess.” The comment sent a small smirk in her direction from Peter.
By the time they had to say goodbye, Jean felt that feeling of being alone again as she and Peter walked back to that abandoned building for him to suit up and make his way back to Manhattan.
The transition was agonizingly sharp. One second, she was grounded by the warmth of his presence, and the next, she was watching a blur of red and blue vanish into the low-hanging fog over the Hudson. The silence returned instantly, heavy and suffocating, but as Jean stood on the damp gravel, she realized the quiet had changed. It was no longer an empty void of grief, it was a space waiting to be filled. She didn't head back to the motel. She bought a ticket for an interstate bus heading south toward Philadelphia, slipping through the depot like a ghost in the pre-dawn mist.
Sitting by the smeared window of the bus, watching the grey silhouette of the coast blur into endless stretches of highway, Jean pulled out her notebook. Her mind was surprisingly clear. The telekinetic static that usually buzzed at the base of her skull had settled into a steady, manageable hum. Being near Peter hadn't cured the storm, but it had given it an anchor.
Rule number one, she wrote on the blank page, her handwriting neat and deliberate. No permanent roosts.
Rule number two: Keep the DODC guessing.
Rule number three: Don't break the promise.
Over the next three weeks, Jean mastered the art of living invisibly. She drifted through small transit hubs in Pennsylvania and Delaware, taking odd jobs under assumed names, cash in hand, never staying in one municipality for more than four days. She practiced her control in abandoned quarry pits and dense forest reserves, learning to channel the volatile thermal energy inside her into tight, isolated points rather than letting it cascade outward in catastrophic waves.
Every few weeks, a fresh burner phone would find its way into her palm.
The calls were short, often under three minutes to prevent signal triangulation, but they became the rhythmic pulse of her existence. They talked about mundane things, terrible street food, the absurdities of daily survival, the quiet moments when the world wasn't trying to tear itself apart. Peter updated her on the city; she gave him vague, poetic descriptions of the horizon.
Two months after their midnight meeting in Hoboken, Jean sat on a rocky outcrop overlooking the misty spans of the Chesapeake Bay. The autumn air was crisp, carrying the scent of salt and turning leaves.
She dialed the number.
"Hey," Peter answered on the first ring, his voice warm and immediate through the small speaker. "Tell me you found a diner with worse coffee than Washington Street."
Jean let out a soft laugh, pulling her coat tighter against the wind. "Not even close, Parker. I think that Hoboken place held a national record."
"Good to know my standards remain unmatched," he murmured, the faint sound of city wind whistling softly in his background. "Where are you, Jean?"
"Somewhere blue and cold," she said softly, watching a cargo ship slide silently across the dark water. "Somewhere quiet."
"Is the quiet okay today?" he asked, genuine and careful.
Jean looked down at her free hand. She focused her intent, watching as a tiny, perfect ember of golden light flickered above her palm, contained, calm, and entirely under her command. She closed her fist, snuffing it out safely.
"Yeah," Jean replied, a soft smile touching her lips. "The quiet is good today. I'm learning."
"I knew you would," Peter said, his confidence in her absolute. "Just... stay safe out there, Grey."
"You too, Peter. Don't take any more bullets."
"Deal."
She cut the connection, dismantled the phone, and tossed the plastic shell into her backpack to dispose of later. Standing up on the rocky ledge, Jean turned her back to the water and faced the open road ahead. The path was long, the shadows were still hunting, and the storm inside her would always be a part of who she was.
“I’m thinking of working at the library.” She said on her phone in her motel at Seattle.
Peter let out a soft, sharp exhale that came through the receiver like a puff of static. For a second, the quiet on his end was so absolute Jean thought the line had dropped, until she heard the faint, telltale squeak of his mattress as he sat up.
"The library," Peter repeated, his tone wavering between profound relief and absolute disbelief. "As in... books? Quiet spaces? Dewey Decimal System?"
"I know how to read, Parker," Jean said dryly, leaning her head back against the faux-wood headboard of her seat in the cheap Seattle motel. Outside, the steady, rhythmic patter of Pacific Northwest rain beat against the window, a soothing backdrop that felt a world away from the freezing chaos of Manhattan. "And it's quiet. People go there specifically not to make noise or cause scenes. Plus, thousands of minds completely absorbed in fiction or research create a very specific type of mental background noise. It’s like white noise for telepaths."
"Huh," Peter murmured. She could practically hear him nodding, his brow furrowing as he processed it. "That actually... makes a lot of sense. White noise. Mental rain." He paused, his voice dropping into a softer, warmer frequency. "Seattle, right? The rain gives it away. You sound... better, Jean.”
Jean looked down at her boots, tracing the worn leather seams. He was right. The volatile, screaming inferno beneath her ribs hadn't vanished, but the edges were no longer jagged. The distance, the discipline, and the quiet, grounding tether of his voice every few weeks had turned the storm into a steady, controlled flame.
"I feel better," she admitted quietly. "I'm not cured. I don't think I ever will be 'cured' of what I am. But I'm not afraid I'm going to set the world on fire just by waking up in the morning."
"That's massive, Grey," Peter said, a genuine, radiant warmth radiating through the line. "Seriously. I'm proud of you."
The simple words hit her with the weight of a physical touch. Jean closed her eyes, letting them anchor her.
"How's the city?" she asked, deftly shifting the spotlight away from her own heavy chest. "How's... everything else?"
"Oh, you know. Standard New York chaos," Peter sighed, though there was a light, familiar humor in it. "DODC is still poking around, asking annoying questions, but they've mostly shifted their focus to tracking phantom energy signatures out in the Midwest, thanks to some very clever, totally legal signal-scrambling tech I definitely didn't build in my closet."
Jean let out a breathy, genuine laugh. "You're a menace, Peter Benjamin Parker."
"I try my best," he grinned through the phone. "Look... if you're settling in Seattle for a bit... working at a library, getting a routine... does that mean I can maybe... come visit? No suit. No DODC. Just a guy taking a very long flight to check out a regional library?"
The offer hung in the damp air of the motel room, fragile and full of hope. A month ago, Jean would have panicked, cut the line, and packed her bag before the dial tone died. But now, listening to the rain outside and the steady rhythm of her own calm pulse, she felt the last remnants of her fear dissolve.
"Seattle has terrible coffee, Parker," Jean said softly, a genuine, bright smile spreading across her face. "It's practically a requirement here."
"I've survived your standards before," Peter replied, his voice thick with a relief so deep it made her throat tight. "Name the intersection."
"Give me two weeks," Jean murmured, looking out at the glowing city lights reflected in the wet pavement below. "Let me actually get the job first. And Peter?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't forget your raincoat."
"Wouldn't dream of it, Grey. See you soon."
“Hi, I’m here for the job interview.” She said to the assistance desk teller.
The middle-aged woman who looked like she never missed a single day of the job looked up from whatever she was writing down on a newspaper that still somehow existed and peered at Jean with her glasses that were attached to a bedazzled wire.
The woman lowered her wire-rimmed glasses, letting them dangle against her cardigan as her faded blue eyes mapped Jean from head to toe. For a terrifying, heart-stopping second, Jean felt the familiar, instinctual flare of telepathic static hum at the base of her skull, the defensive urge to sweep the woman’s mind, to check for DODC clearance, for suspicion, for danger.
Then, Jean took a slow breath, inhaling the crisp, soothing scent of old paper, binding glue, and faint damp rain. She pushed the static down. She didn't need to read her mind. She was just a woman working a desk.
“What’s your name, sweetheart?”
Her name.
.
.
.
For the past few months, she made sure not to give anyone her true name. Always making sure she gave one that was at least believable but not suspicious enough to alert the DODC of her presence.
There was Clara Smith. She used that one back in Idaho.
There was Mary Irving. She used that when she made her way across the Dakotas.
Then there was Susan McKanan. She used that when she crossed the Montana border to Wyoming.
She used her powers to then create a sort of perception filter on her IDs to alleviate any further suspicion.
But now, she was blanking on one.
.
.
.
So, she said the first name that came to mind.
.
.
.
“Jean Parker.”
.
.
.
The woman didn’t even blink. She just clicked her pen, the sharp snap echoing softly against the high timber ceiling of the library, and pulled a clipboard from beneath the wooden counter.
“Jean Parker,” the woman repeated, writing the name down in neat, slanted cursive at the top of an application form. “Well, Jean, if you’re looking for the weekend archival shift, you’re the first person to walk through that door all morning who doesn’t look like they’re trying to sleep off a hangover. Take a seat by the window. Mr. Henderson will be out in five minutes.”
“Thank you,” Jean said.
Her voice sounded steady, but as she turned and walked toward the rows of tall oak tables near the floor-to-ceiling windows, her heart was hammering a frantic, erratic rhythm against her ribs.
Jean Parker.
She sat down on the edge of a polished wooden chair, staring at her reflection in the rain-streaked glass. Out on the Seattle Street, cars glided quietly through the drizzle, their headlights casting long, warm streaks across the wet asphalt.
She hadn't planned it. It hadn't been a calculated move to hide her identity, nor was it a telepathic slip. It had simply bubbled up from the quietest, safest corner of her heart, the part that no longer belonged to the storm, or the DODC, or the wreckage of New York. It belonged to the boy who had taken a bullet, saved her in more ways than one, and held her hand over a mug of terrible diner coffee in Hoboken.
A soft, breathless laugh escaped her lips, and she quickly pressed two fingers against her mouth to smother it.
He is never, ever going to let me live this down, she thought, her eyes stinging with sudden, warm tears that had nothing to do with grief.
If Peter were here right now, he’d probably double over, hand on his stomach, making some absurd joke about how she’d stolen his last name before he’d even managed to take her on a proper first date. He’d grin that wide, stubborn, irrepressible grin of his, and the sight of it would make the last remnants of the cold dissolve into nothingness. Jean leaned her head against the cool pane of the window, watching the rain trickle down the glass. Inside her mind, the silence wasn't empty anymore. It was filled with the faint, steady hum of a promise.
Two weeks. In two weeks, he would be landing at the airport. He’d be carrying a cheap umbrella, complaining about the damp weather, and looking for a girl who was no longer running.
"Jean Parker?"
A tall, grey-haired man in a tweed vest stepped out from the back office, holding her newly written clipboard and offering a warm, welcoming smile. "I'm Arthur Henderson. Let's talk about those archives, shall we?"
Jean stood up, smoothing down her jacket. The storm inside her was quiet. The world was still vast, dangerous, and uncertain, but as she walked toward him, her steps were grounded, deliberate, and entirely her own.
"I'd love to, Mr. Henderson," Jean said, and for the first time in what felt like a lifetime, she stepped forward into her own future.