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1. where my house is gone, i lost my bearings by purpleclouds (kryptokal)

   Fandoms: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 魔道祖师 | Módào Zǔshī (Cartoon), 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Major Character Death
   • Gen, M/M
   • Complete Work

   02 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji/Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
   • Lan Yuan | Lan Sizhui & Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
   • Lan Yuan | Lan Sizhui & Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji
   • Lan Huan | Lan Xichen & Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji
   • Canon Compliant
   • Post-Canon
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • in that order
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji Whump
   • Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian Whump
   • Heartbreak
   • Epistolary
   • Songfic
   • Heavy Angst
   • Letters
   • Diary/Journal
   • Getting Together
   • Love Confessions
   • Reunions
   • Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian Has Borderline Personality Disorder
   • Hallucinations
   • Canon-Typical suicidal ideation
   • Emotional Breakdowns
   • First Kiss

   Summary

   "I am sorry for loving you. For being shameless. For daring to love you. For dreaming about you. I am sorry that the reason for my existence has become your happiness.

   Yet, I still want you to come to me, Lan Zhan."

    

   where lan wangji finds wei wuxian's journal after his death, and reads the first entry.

   Language:

   English

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