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They win the third Cup on a Tuesday and it takes over a week for the household to settle down into the off-season rhythm.
Shane is putting together a list of things they need for their stay at the Cottage - their first one with the boys as Officially Theirs - and realises that his husband has been suspiciously quiet since coming out of their make-shift office looking for more coffee.
Shane finds him at the kitchen counter, bare feet on the cool tile, coffee going cold beside an open laptop, reading something with the particular frown he reserves for contracts, bad refereeing, and documents that use the word stakeholder more than once.
“Please tell me that’s not another extension,” Shane says.
Ilya looks up, startled, then rolls his eyes. “You are obsessed.”
“You signed one tiny last-lap contract and now I’m apparently emotionally scarred,” Shane says, coming around the island. “It’s not fair, but it’s true.”
The last-lap contract is still fresh enough to feel sharp if Shane touches it too quickly. One year, five and a half million. The beginning of a plan rather than an ending, Ilya had told him, pressing his forehead to Shane’s in the quiet kitchen after the parade had faded and the real world had started creeping back in.
For after, for the kids, for the Foundation. For a life that isn’t bus-hotel-rink forever.
Shane understands it now, mostly. He understands it in the way he understands a difficult system once he has watched enough video: not because it stops hurting, but because he knows where everyone is supposed to be.
“This is worse than contract,” Ilya says. “This is school.”
Shane stops. “School?”
“Apparently.” Ilya turns the laptop toward him.
It is an email from an Ontario credential-assessment service. The wording is professional and polite: Ilya’s completed Russian secondary education has been reviewed; it is broadly comparable to Ontario secondary graduation for general purposes. However, if he wants a fully issued Ontario Secondary School Diploma, he will need an English credit and a small handful of provincial requirements.
Shane reads the relevant section twice. “You really want to do this?”
Ilya makes a face. “I do not know. It came up because Zara was making a list of ‘what happens if the foundation gets bigger than us’ and Peter said something annoying about formal qualifications. Then I started looking.”
“Which is how you got from foundation governance to Grade Twelve English?”
“There are steps,” Ilya says defensively.
“There are several very large steps.”
“Yes. I am athlete; I am used to stairs.”
Shane smiles despite himself and leans against the counter beside him. “Okay. Tell me the whole thought.”
It is a phrase they have got better at in the last few years: tell me the whole thought. Not what’s wrong? Not why didn’t you tell me? Not the old, brittle instinct to solve the shape of something before the other person has finished naming it. Tell me the whole thought.
Ilya’s expression softens a little at the words.
“The whole thought,” he repeats. He looks back at the laptop. “I have been thinking about after. More seriously. Not only retirement. Foundation. The kids. What I can do when hockey is not taking all of me.”
Shane nods.
“I know people think I will just become annoying executive with expensive jackets,” Ilya continues.
“You will,” Shane says. “But go on.”
“I want to be useful. Actually useful - not just person who has money and face people recognise.” His finger taps once against the counter. “I want to understand enough that nobody can sell me bullshit about the Foundation. I want to know when someone is doing good work, and when someone is telling us what we want to hear.”
“That makes sense.”
“And I thought maybe I take one class. A non-profit thing, later. But then I looked at requirements and…” He shrugs, almost embarrassed. “My school is always pending here. I finished in Moscow. I did real school. But it sits in file like it is not finished. I hate it.”
Shane looks at the screen again: additional English credit recommended. Such a small line. Such a stupidly small line for something that has been following Ilya across continents and careers.
“You hate that it feels unfinished,” Shane guesses.
“Yes.” Ilya breathes out. “And maybe it is silly. I have Cups. I have you and boys and house and --”
“It’s not silly,” Shane says quietly but firmly. “You’re allowed to want it. You don’t need to make a case for why a diploma is important enough compared to all the other things you’ve done.”
For a second, Ilya says nothing. Then he looks down and mutters, “You have become very therapist about feelings.”
“All those months of expensive professional help," Shane shrugs. "Plus I’m naturally gifted.”
Ilya can't help but smile
The sound of feet thumps down the stairs before either of them can say more. The boys appears in the doorway, probably looking for snacks. They stop when they see both dads quiet at the counter.
“What’s that?” Sasha asks, pointing at the laptop.
“Papa’s homework,” Shane says before Ilya can decide whether he wants to explain.
Ilya gives him a look. “It is not homework yet. It is maybe homework.”
The boys look at each other with the solemn interest of children hearing that an adult may have done something embarrassing.
“You have homework?” Misha asks.
“Everybody has homework."
“That’s bad.”
“Yes,” Ilya agrees. “Very bad.”
Shane bites the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing.
Sasha climbs onto a stool and peers at the screen, curious. “What kind?”
“English,” Ilya says.
“You know English.”
“I do. But apparently not enough English for Ontario.”
“That’s rude,” Misha says instantly.
“It is a little rude,” Ilya agrees.
The conversation inevitably moves on to snacks, and Ilya, watching the boys negotiate more than just cheese sticks from Shane, feels something settle.
Not pressure. Not another obligation he has to carry because other people need him to. A direction.
***
The next week, he does the responsible version of the thing.
He calls the assessment adviser. He forwards the email to Zara. He sends Yuna a message that says, very casually, hypothetically, if I want to learn boring governance without becoming insufferable, what should I do?
The reply arrives within ninety seconds.
Yuna: Too late on insufferable. Call me.
By the end of the call, he has a list.
An accredited online Grade 12 English course. Flexible pace, a civics requirement that can be completed in a short online module, and an option to use his Russian school transcript and course credit toward an eventual Ontario diploma. Later, if he still wants it, a part-time certificate in non-profit management.
One course at a time.
It should be easy, compared to hockey, compared to an NHL season, compared to growing up in Moscow and crossing an ocean and trying to build a life in a language that still sometimes slips sideways in his mouth.
It is most definitely not easy.
The first time he opens the enrolment page, he closes it again after three minutes. The second time, he gets as far as typing his full name. The third time, he's at the kitchen table after dinner, while Shane helps the boys hunt for a missing worksheet that is eventually discovered under the couch, stuck to a sock.
“Found it!” Shane calls, triumphant.
“That is disgusting,” Ilya says.
“Welcome to parenthood,” Shane says. “You chose this life.”
The boys dissolve into giggles. Ilya looks down at his laptop; the enrolment form is still open.
Misha comes around the table with his summer tutoring folder held to his chest. “Are you doing it?”
Ilya looks at him. “Doing what?”
“Your school.” There is no judgment in it. Just interest.
Ilya thinks of all the things he wants these boys to know without having to say them directly. That a bad day does not mean you are bad. That you can ask for help. That grown-ups don't have all the answers. That you do not have to earn your place in a house by being easy or grateful or clever.
That starting late is still starting.
“Yes,” he says. “I think I am.”
Misha nods as if this is a perfectly reasonable answer. Then he pulls out the chair beside Ilya’s and opens his own folder.
“What are you learning?”
“English literature.”
“Like books?”
“Like books.”
Sasha drags his chair over too. “I’m doing math.”
“Very brave,” Ilya tells him solemnly.
“I hate it.”
“Then you and I are brothers in suffering.”
Shane watches them from the counter for a moment, expression soft around the edges. Then he brings over the fruit he has been cutting and sets it in the middle of the table.
“Okay,” he says, hands on hips. “Everybody gets twenty minutes. Then we take a break.”
“Twenty-five,” Ilya says.
“Twenty.”
“I am adult. I should get longer.”
“You’re also the one most likely to start a fight with a website,” Shane says.
The boys look delighted by this possibility.
“Twenty,” Ilya concedes.
They work. Or, more accurately, they sit together while work slowly happens around them.
Sasha writes two math answers, frowns at the third, and eats three strawberries. Misha reads a page, then another, tracing the line with one finger. Ilya fills in his date of birth, his old Moscow school, his current address. He reaches the section that asks for prior education and pauses.
Finally, Ilya types: Completed secondary school, Moscow.
Then he uploads the scanned certificate from the old metal file box downstairs.
A small wheel spins on the screen. Submission received. He breathes out.
“There,” Shane says softly from behind his shoulder.
“There,” Ilya agrees.
The boys, who have no idea why the word matters, look up anyway.
“Did you finish?” Misha asks.
“Not yet,” Ilya says. “I just started.”
Sasha considers this. “That’s still good.”
Ilya looks at him for a second, caught off guard by the uncomplicated certainty in his voice, then he reaches over and steals one of the strawberries from the bowl.
“Yes,” he says. “It is.”
Sasha gasps. “Papa! That was mine.”
“Sorry. School makes me hungry.”
Around them, the house carries on: the dishwasher humming, Shane’s phone buzzing with some message from the group chat that he ignores for once. The boys bend over their work again. Ilya opens the course catalogue and scrolls until he finds the one he wants.
ENG4U: Grade 12 English.
He clicks it. One course. One beginning. One more way to be ready for the life that is coming.