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There's one advice given to idols and celebrities alike new or old when starting their career.
"Do not go ego searching online."
Because then you'll fall into a rabbit hole of doom scrolling hours upon hours of people talking about you, complimenting, praising, worshiping making you cocky of your own abilities or worse developing a god complex, only to be crushed into a black pit of despair when people start criticizing you, knocking you down the podium.
This apparently apply to Dick, a kid who was adopted into wealth not saying he wasn't popular before Bruce Wayne but his reputation definitely sky rocked making him the talk of the city as Gotham watched him grow up to be the man he is today.
Dick thumb just keep moving, down, down, and down upon people perverse comments, desires, praises, and lust trying to find one person expressing disgust over the whole situation, he was in a catatonic state with only his thumb moving on auto pilot, he's been like that since the video was leaked, a video that was supposed to be for him and Jason only.
For a fact Dick would defend himself by saying what he's doing is not ego surfing, because each comment sickened him more and more, he was just looking for one decent human being to tell people this is wrong, disgusting even, that something so intimate, that they made for each other was leaked for the public consumption, he feels disgusting, just like the horrible names these strangers had said to them from the comfort of their screen.
He didn't stop surfing even when the comments stopped referring to them as men, "Dick" Jason voice barely pierced the spiral the older man was going through for the past thirty minutes, unresponsive just sitting on their sofa, he walked over towering over Dick and the sofa to plugged the phone away.
"Hey!-"
"You'll worked yourself into a stroke at this point, no amount of scrolling could fix what's already done" Dick bit his lip, making no effort in snatching his phone back since it was taking a large toll of his mental health, he can't believe this is happening the repeating how, how, how are also useless as his mind is too blank to actually think of the how.
"I used the latest tech, latest security, I made it myself even! how is this possible!? how did someone fucking hacked that-" Jason sat on the sofa, lifting Dick to put him on the other lap to start rubbing soothing circles, "these things could happened birdie, even Batman contingencies failed twice a day."
Dick scoffed "but never over something as simple as this, Bruce won't let his tech get hacked, Barbara, Tim, Steph, Duke, even Cass won't let anyone hacked into their stuff because having set an impenetrable security system is the number one lesson Bruce taught!"
Frustrated, Dick brought his hands to his hair, he clawed his scalp and the only reason he didn't pull a good chunk of hair is due to Jason larger comforting hand engulfing his, gently prying it away "Yeah, that's why they hacked it. You didn't let them Dickie I bet you gave them a good fight."
Dick finally raised his head properly to looked at his lover, Jason and Him had been on each other side ever since he escape from Juvie they put his there after his parents death, he cried for days but no one came to safe him, he realize that day he could only saved himself so he ran and hid, how was he supposed to know there's a thing called crime alley in Gotham? he only went here one or two times in his whole life.
"What kind of idiot walked willingly to crime alley without anyway to defend himself?!" was what his so called savior said after saving him from a robber, short hair, scrawny build, with heavy eye bags, he tried to look angry but his eyes reflect pure concern and that day Dick decided.
'Yeah, you're stuck with me now.'
They lived together for a year, surviving out of scraps either in a form of food or just actually scraps they could sell, both were fourteen just living in a cruel world that don't want them to exist, and yet they won't change it for the world, "Thank you for saving me that day Jay" six month into this weird relationship Dick finally expressed his gratitude, it's not the saving he was grateful.
"I would saved you over and over again" Jason squeezed Dick's hand, both sharing warmth under a thin ripped up blanket they scavenged, limbs wrapped around each other unwilling to let each other go.
Their life flipped upside down when Jason come home with the fucking bat-mobile car wheels, stating ecstatically how he'll able to buy a new jacket for Dick since winter is coming.
Suddenly they're not struggling by trash and scraps anymore, they lived in a luxury big bed with their own rooms, infinite jacket and sweaters, and a butler at their beck and call for food whenever they want, it was a hard adjustment it took them months to finally break the habit of crawling into each other beds, actually it never stops especially since they're married now.
"It's supposed to be just for us.." Jason brought a hand to wipe away a tear "I know love, but there's only so much we could do, Barbara make sure to delete it from the internet but we can't make people stop talking about it" he stroked the soft cheek, Dick leaned into the familiar heat.
"I also read the…things they said, trust me love I'm just as disgusted as you are but wallowing about it is not healthy" Jason leaned down with closed eyes, both forehead touching and the comfort also relaxed Dick to closed his eyes "I will make sure the rumors died down in a few weeks or days, we'll find those trolls to give them a lesson" they pulled away, sapphire blue eyes cloudy with unshed tears "it's not your fault" Jason kiss a cheek.
"As I said before, I would save you over and over again."