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The bag from the Thai place was already on the island when Peter came down.
He had heard the elevator, then Tony’s voice in the hall telling FRIDAY to dim the common floor, then the familiar rustle of plastic. Three weeks in the Tower and he was still trying to time his arrival right, not so early that he looked like he was waiting impatiently for Tony and food, not so late that the food sat and Tony ate without him. He didn’t know which of those was worse. He only knew he had already gotten it wrong twice last week, and both times Tony had said it’s fine in a voice that made Peter’s stomach fold in on itself.
Tony was still in the shirt he’d worn to the office, sleeves shoved to the elbows, phone pinched between his shoulder and ear.
“No, I don’t care what the board says, push it to Thursday.” A pause. He glanced up, saw Peter, and tipped his chin at the bag. “No earlier than Thursday, deal with it.” He hung up without saying goodbye and dropped the phone face-down on the white marble.
“Hey.”
“Hey.” Peter’s voice came out thinner than he meant. He crossed to the island and started unpacking because standing still felt like he was an unhelpful house guest waiting to be served. And he wanted to be helpful and give Tony as few reasons to decide he had overstayed his welcome as possible. Containers, chopsticks, the extra napkins Tony always insisted he didn't need and used anyway. “You didn’t have to get the basil one. I would’ve eaten whatever.”
“You say that every time and then you pick the basil one.” Tony pulled two plates from the cabinet, set them down and started portioning like this was a thing he had always done, like there had always been a second plate. “How’s the room? You settling, or are we doing the three-day hotel thing with a zipper?"
“I’m settling.” Too fast. Peter slowed down. “The dresser is- it’s good. I put stuff in it.”
“Revolutionary.”
Tony gave him a look that meant he wanted Peter to put more stuff in the dresser. Peter looked down and allowed his face to make a small smile and took the plate Tony slid toward him. They ate standing up, the way they had most nights since the funeral, because sitting at the long table with all those empty chairs made the penthouse feel like it was waiting for May to walk in and ask who wanted more rice.
Tony talked about a contractor who had sent the wrong alloy spec. Peter listened and made the right noises and tried not to watch Tony’s hands and the tension in his shoulders. When Tony was actually fine, his hands moved when he talked, his shoulders low and loose. Tonight his hands were steady. Careful. Like he was holding something that might spill.
“You eat today?” Tony asked, not looking at him.
“Yeah.”
“Food, Pete. Not coffee.”
“I had toast. And this.”
Tony made a sound that wasn’t quite approval and wasn’t quite not. He reached for another container, scraped the last of the rice onto Peter’s plate without asking, and went back to his own. Peter stared at the extra rice for a second too long before eating it. Tony pretended not to notice.
After, Tony’s phone lit up again. Tony muted it and put the phone back in his pocket. Peter started gathering the containers because the alternative was standing there with nothing to do while Tony decided whether the night was over.
“You don’t have to do that,” Tony said.
“I know.” Peter stacked the lids. Rinsed the plates. Fitted them into the dishwasher the way he’d watched FRIDAY’s schematic do it the first week, like there was a correct way to be in this kitchen and he was still learning it. “I don’t mind.”
Tony leaned a hip against the counter and watched him. Not sharp. Just present, in the way that made the back of Peter’s neck go warm.
“Well,” Tony said, after a moment, “I don’t mind having someone do the dishes, saves me from pretending I'm going to do them until Pepper yells at me. It's good, helpful.” He said it lightly. Almost offhand. Like he was commenting on the weather.
Peter’s hands paused on the last glass. Good. Helpful. It wasn’t praise, exactly. It wasn’t the forehead-kiss version of you’re home Tony had used the night Peter arrived with a suitcase and a look May would have hated. It was smaller than that. Practical. The kind of sentence you could survive on.
“Yeah,” Peter said, and heard how careful he sounded. “I can do them. Every night. It’s not - I mean, it’s nothing.”
Tony’s mouth ticked. “Don’t make a whole personality out of loading the dishwasher.”
“I’m not.”
“Careful. Next thing you’ll be putting ‘dishwasher’ on your MIT application.”
Peter huffed a laugh that came out real, which surprised him. Then a sharp ache in his stomach at the reminder that he was eighteen and Ned and MJ had gone off to college while he... sat around in Tony's tower. Taking time to grieve and sort himself out was the official version. Inside though, he felt like he was free-loading and not earning his keep. The way May's old boyfriend had told him to every night.
Tony pushed off the counter, fished in his jacket, and tossed something small and flat across the island, interrupting his thoughts.
Peter caught it on instinct. A matte, engraved key card. Black and expensive from the feel of it. Warm from Tony’s pocket.
“Elevator override’s already in FRIDAY,” Tony said. “That’s for the stairwell, the penthouse and the lab door if the system’s in a mood. You live here. Stop hovering in the hallway like you’re waiting to be invited in.”
Peter looked at the card in his palm. The surface had alternating smooth and sanded textures in sleek black lines. He rubbed his thumb over it and felt, stupidly, like he might cry, which was not a thing he was going to do in this kitchen over a plastic rectangle.
“Thank you.”
“It’s a key card, not a kidney.”
“Still. Thank you. I’ll - I’ll be careful with it.”
Tony’s expression did something small and tired. “You don’t have to be careful with a keycard, kid. You just have to use it. Maybe unpack more of that duffel.”
Peter nodded. He put it in his pocket like it might vanish if he didn’t.
Tony’s phone buzzed again. This time he picked it up, glanced at the screen, and the line of his shoulders changed. Not a lot. Enough that Peter filed it: late SI message, don’t keep talking.
“Go on,” Tony said, already scrolling. “I’ve got twenty minutes of people being wrong at me. You need anything before I disappear?”
Need was a word that still sat wrong in Peter’s mouth. He shook his head.
“I’m good. Thanks. For dinner. And the - yeah.”
“Mm.” Tony was already half gone into his reply. Then, without looking up, “Pete.”
Peter stopped in the doorway.
“You’re doing fine,” Tony said. It was quieter. Not soft, exactly. Just less performed. “I know it's been a lot. You don’t have to be ok right now. Just… be here. That’s enough.”
For now caught somewhere under Peter’s ribs and stayed there.
“Okay,” he said quietly.
He went down the hall to the room Tony had set aside for him before May died. It still felt like trespassing. The half-empty duffel sat at the foot of the bed. The dresser had his shirts in it. He sat on the edge of the bed with the keycard in his fist and listened to Tony’s voice start up again through the wall, irritated, clipped, the public version.
That’s good. Helpful.
He could work with helpful.
Helpful was a job. Jobs had defined borders. If he kept the kitchen clean and stayed out of the way when the phone lit up and didn’t ask for things that made Tony’s shoulders do that thing, then maybe when enough time had passed that Tony realized he had an adult living in his penthouse rent-free he might have less reasons to change his mind. He knew how this worked. He had known how this worked since May said "Hi Peter, I'd like you to meet Skip, my boyfriend" in the kitchen on a Sunday.
Different apartment. Same math.
He lay down without changing out of his jeans. The card stayed in his hand. In the dark, the Tower's sounds settled - air systems, a distant elevator, Tony still talking to someone who had gotten the alloy spec wrong.
I can stay if I’m easy, he told the ceiling, not quite a prayer. I can stay if I’m helpful. I don’t have to be a lot. I just have to be useful enough that he doesn’t notice the space I’m taking. Be helpful. Don’t hover. Use the card. Be better than the kid who showed up with a duffel and grief.
Sleep came in pieces. Every time he surfaced, the card was still there, pressed into his palm hard enough to leave a mark.