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1. to my first and last by sellaissante

   Fandoms: NCT (Band)  

   • Mature
   • Major Character Death
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   26 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Park Jisung/Zhong Chenle
   • Zhong Chenle
   • Park Jisung (NCT)
   • Daegal | Zhong Chenle's Dog
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Angst
   • Heavy Angst
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Flashbacks
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Depression
   • Insomnia
   • Character Death
   • Introspection
   • Found Family
   • Established Relationship
   • Non-Linear Narrative
   • Stream of Consciousness
   • author has only ever tagged smuts so she doesn’t really know how to tag fics like this…
   • this fic is based on something the author actually lived through (sorry)
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Suicide

   Summary

   “I miss you so much,” he cried, clutching at his chest through the sweater. “I miss you more than I can breathe.”

   Tears blinded him, yet he still tried to focus on the photograph between his fingers. A broken laugh escaped as he tilted his head and stroked the image again. “Chenle… I miss you so terribly.”

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   English

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