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1. “I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say,” by smellymelly01

   Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Gen
   • Complete Work

   27 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
   • Johnny Cade & Ponyboy Curtis
   • Sodapop Curtis
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
   • Johnny Cade
   • Dallas Winston
   • Two-Bit Mathews
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Ponyboy Curtis Needs a Hug
   • Disordered Eating
   • Angst
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Dead Johnny Cade and Dallas Winston
   • Post-Canon
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • Anxiety
   • Smoking
   • Dead Johnny Cade
   • Depression
   • Emotional Hurt
   • POV Ponyboy Curtis
   • Good Brother Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
   • Good Brother Sodapop Curtis
   • Character Study

   Summary

   Life is unfair. That was something Ponyboy had been forced to come to terms with. He just lost two of the most important people in his life, and was somehow still expected to perform at his best. track, his grades, and the constant pressure Darry seemed to be putting on him, everything was too much. This sort of just navigates pony’s life after Johnny and Dally.

   Also my first fic so don’t bully me
   I might update this summary later cause I feel like it’s not really following what’s happening
    

   Title from the song Numbers

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   3,405

   Chapters:

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   Kudos:

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