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The kid came in on a Tuesday in November, eleven minutes before close, with the rain still running off him.
Dolores had already flipped half the chairs. Manny was scraping the flat-top in the back and singing along to a Spanish station he only half understood, and the pie case was down to two sad wedges of lemon meringue that would go home with whoever wanted them. She was about to tell him the kitchen was closed.
Then he looked at the corner table, the little two-top by the coat hooks, table six on the tickets, and something in his face made her say, "Sit anywhere, sweetheart," like it was noon.
He sat at table six.
He was twenty, maybe. Hard to say with boys. Thin in a way that looked recent, in a jacket that
had stopped keeping the weather out sometime last winter.
He held the laminated menu with both hands and read the whole thing, front and back, the breakfast side too, even though she'd told him breakfast was done at eleven.
"Grilled cheese," he said finally. "And coffee. Please."
"You want fries with that?"
He did the math. She watched him do it. "No, that's okay."
She brought fries anyway and told him Manny had made too many, which was a lie Manny had heard her tell a thousand times and never once corrected.
The kid looked at the basket, then at her. He said thank you like he was out of practice.
He ate slowly. Between bites he looked around the room: the photos behind the register, the signed headshot of a soap actor nobody remembered, the dent in the counter from 1998 that everybody blamed on a Mets fan.
Dolores had worked Hell's Kitchen for thirty-one years and knew what it looked like when somebody cased a place.
He looked at the room the way you'd look at an old house you used to live in, checking which walls the new owners had knocked down.
When she came to top off his coffee, he said, "How long have you worked here?"
"Since before you were born. Why?"
"I used to come here. When I was a kid." He turned the mug a quarter turn on the saucer. "My aunt brought me. Saturdays, sometimes."
"Yeah? What's her name? I know everybody."
"May."
Dolores thought about it. She really did, because he was watching her face so carefully. She went through the old Saturday crowd: the Greek brothers from the dry cleaners, the lady with the Pomeranian in her purse, the two nurses from St. Clare's. No May.
"I'm sorry," she said. "I'd remember a face like yours."
He smiled at that. It was the worst smile she'd seen in a while, and she had once served breakfast to a man the morning after his divorce. "Yeah," he said. "It's fine. It was a long time ago."
He paid in five-dollar bills and a lot of quarters, and he left a tip bigger than the grilled cheese.
When she tried to give some of it back he was already at the door, pulling the useless jacket tight.
"Have a good night, Dolores."
After he'd gone she looked down at the name tag on her chest. Of course. It had been there the whole time.
He came back in December. Then January.
It took her until March to notice it was a pattern and until June to be sure.
Once a month, give or take a few days, always in the evening, always alone.
Always table six. If somebody else was sitting there he'd hover by the door for a second and then take the stool at the end of the counter, back a little stiff, like he was being polite to a chair.
So she started keeping it. Around the third week of the month a reserved sign went on table six.
Manny asked who the reservation was for, and Dolores told him to mind his grill.
He moved up from grilled cheese to the patty melt.
The second spring he moved up to the meatloaf, which meant he'd found work, or found better work.
The jacket became a hoodie, then a real coat. He started looking less like something the rain had dropped off.
He never told her his name, and she never asked. Some people come to a diner to be known. Some people come so that one person in the city will notice when they're gone. She'd figured out which kind he was by the second visit.
Some nights he came in hurt.
The first time it was a split lip and a bruise along the jaw, going yellow at the edges. He ordered soup.
"You should see the other guy," Dolores said, setting it down.
"The other guy was a lamppost."
"The lamppost started it?"
"The lamppost had it coming." He tried to grin and stopped when it pulled at the lip.
Another time he lowered himself into his chair like a man three times his age and ate the whole meal with his left arm clamped to his ribs.
She brought him an ice pack wrapped in a dish towel without a word, and he held it to his side without a word, and they let that be the conversation. Next month he was moving fine. She remembered thinking he must heal like a teenager.
In October of the second year she brought him a slice of cherry pie he hadn't ordered.
"On the house. It's the last one and Manny's sick of looking at it."
He didn't touch it right away. He sat looking at it, the lattice a little burnt at one corner the way Manny always managed, and his throat moved. For a second Dolores thought she'd made some kind of mistake.
Then he took a bite, and chewed, and put the fork down very carefully.
"You still put orange zest in the crust."
"Twenty years. How'd you know that?"
"Lucky guess," he said, and she knew a lie when she poured coffee for one, but she let him have it.
Then there was the night with the man in the Giants jersey.
Third winter, a Friday, the place half full of the after-theater crowd and one table of guys who had come from a bar and should have gone home.
The one in the jersey wanted more coffee, then wanted it hotter, then wanted Dolores to sit on his knee and ask him nicely. She'd heard better lines in 1994 and told him so. He didn't like being told.
When she reached for his cup he got her by the wrist. He had a grip like a car door.
"Let go of her, please," somebody said behind her.
The kid from table six was standing there.
She hadn't heard him get up.
He wasn't tall and he wasn't big, which should have been funny.
The man in the jersey looked him over, let go of Dolores, and picked up his mug.
A heavy diner mug, the kind that bounces on tile, half full. He threw it at the kid's head from three feet away.
The kid caught it. He wasn't even looking at it. He was looking at the man, and his hand came up, and the mug was simply in it, upright.
Dolores watched the coffee slosh up to the rim and settle without a drop going over.
Nobody in the diner said a word. Somebody's fork tapped a plate.
The kid set the mug on the counter. Then he took the man by the arm, just above the elbow, the way you'd help somebody's grandfather off a curb, and walked him to the door. The man went.
He went the way you go when you try to plant your feet and discover your feet have other plans.
His friends left a fifty on the table and followed him out without being asked.
The kid came back and sat back down at table six like nothing happened.
"Your meatloaf's cold," Dolores said. Her voice came out funny.
"That's okay."
"Where'd you learn to do that?"
He gave it real thought. "Queens."
Manny brought him a fresh plate and wouldn't let him pay for either one.
Dolores went in the back and sat on a pickle bucket for five minutes. She told herself it was the wrist.
The TV over the pass-through played the Yankees in summer and the news the rest of the year, sound off, captions running two sentences behind.
For most of those four years the news was Spider-Man about half the time.
Spider-Man stopping a robbery.
Spider-Man wrecking a bus shelter.
Spider-Man, according to a man with a very loud voice, being a menace who belonged in a cage at the Bronx Zoo.
Dolores had no opinion on Spider-Man.
She had lived in New York long enough to stop having opinions on men in masks. The customers had plenty.
"Guy should pay for the windows," a contractor said one night, aiming his fork at the screen. "I got a crew three weeks behind because of him."
Dolores glanced at table six.
The kid was eating his patty melt and reading the captions.
He didn't look up. He did, she noticed, chew a little slower.
This past spring the city turned on Spider-Man for real.
Then, in the last few weeks, it all went strange: something on Roosevelt Island, multiple city blocks of people stuck like statues for nine minutes, helicopters, a girl the news couldn't decide what to call.
Dolores read the captions with everybody else and understood about half.
The kid's week came and went.
She kept the reserved sign on table six on Tuesday. On Wednesday. On Thursday Manny came out of the kitchen, looked at the sign, and looked at her.
"Dolly."
"Don't."
"He's a grown man. He's got a life."
"I know he's got a life." She wiped the counter in front of her, which was already clean. "That's what I'm hoping."
On Friday she took the sign down and put it in the drawer under the register.
She was sixty-three years old, she didn't even know his name, she felt like a fool, and she checked the door every time it opened anyway.
He came back nine days late, with a girl.
Dolores almost didn't know him.
He had a baseball cap pulled low, which he'd never worn in four years, and he held the door for the girl and checked up and down the street before he let it close.
That part she understood. Plenty of people in this neighborhood checked the street.
The girl had her hood up. Gray, a size too big, ESU across the front in cracked letters. Jeans rolled at the ankle four times; Dolores counted. She came in half a step behind him with her hands pulled up into her sleeves.
Table six was empty. Dolores hadn't put the sign out, she'd stopped doing that, and later she decided to count it as luck.
He gave the girl the chair facing the wall and took the one facing the street. Dolores had seen cops do that, and fathers, and one very nervous man in 2003 who turned out to owe money to everybody.
The kid did it without thinking. The girl sat down and let him.
Dolores brought the menus herself. Linda had that section and gave her a look, and Dolores gave one right back.
"Long time no see," she said.
"Yeah. Sorry. Things got..." He made a shape in the air with one hand. There was a beige plaster on his thumb. "Busy."
"Uh huh." She turned to the girl. "Hi, sweetheart. Something to drink?"
"Tea? Please." Then, fast, like she'd asked for too much: "Any kind. Whatever's easiest."
The girl read the whole menu, front and back, the breakfast side too. Dolores had to look at the register for a second.
He ordered the meatloaf. The girl ordered a turkey club and hesitated, and before she could say anything he said, "No mustard on hers," without looking up.
She stared at him. "I didn't say no mustard."
"You were going to."
"Maybe I've changed."
"Have you?"
She tugged her hood forward an inch. "It's a condiment for people who've given up."
"See? That's what I'm saying."
Dolores wrote NO MUSTARD on the ticket and underlined it.
She watched them more than she should have. In her defense, it was a slow day, and they were the best thing on.
He talked more in the first twenty minutes than he had in four years.
The girl did most of the teasing and he lost every round, as far as Dolores could tell on purpose.
From what she caught on her passes with the coffee pot, he had made the girl pancakes that morning, and they had been a crime.
"The first batch," the girl was saying, "was black on one side and raw on the other. That's not cooking. That's a coin toss."
"The second batch was golden."
"One of them was shaped like Ohio."
"Ohio's a great shape."
"Name one thing in Ohio."
He opened his mouth and shut it again, and the girl laughed. A real one, surprised out of her, and she pressed the back of her wrist to her mouth like she was trying to catch it before it got away.
Then she reached across, took three fries off his plate, and ate them one at a time, looking him dead in the eye.
He nudged the plate an inch closer to her side and went on with his meatloaf like nothing had happened.
Dolores went to top off the tea. It didn't need it.
"Aren't you two a cute couple," she said.
It just came out.
Thirty-one years of talking to customers and she still did that sometimes, a thought walking straight out of her mouth with nobody minding the door.
They both went still.
The girl turned red from the chin up, like a glass being filled.
The kid went red faster and worse.
He looked at the girl. The girl looked at her fries.
Dolores waited for one of them to say oh, no, we're not, the way people always did.
Neither of them said a thing.
She carried the teapot back to the station and stood there holding it for a while.
When the girl went to the restroom, he came up to the counter, glancing back at the little hallway like she might come out early.
"Hey. Um." He took the cap off, turned it over in his hands, and put it back on. "Do you guys do anything for birthdays?"
"Whose birthday?"
He tipped his head toward the hallway.
"Today?"
"Today. She didn't tell me. I found out by accident." He rubbed at the plaster with his other thumb. "She's had a rough couple of weeks."
Dolores looked at him and saw a boy eleven minutes before close, rain running off a bad jacket, reading the breakfast side of a menu he couldn't afford.
"Go sit down," she said.
There was chocolate cake in the case, the good one with the ganache that Manny's daughter made on Mondays, and Dolores cut the biggest slice she could defend.
In the drawer under the register, under the reserved sign and the rubber bands and a book of matches from a bar that closed in 2009, she found the box of birthday candles they kept for kids.
Pink and white stripes.
She pushed one into the middle of the slice.
She grabbed two forks without thinking about it.
She didn't sing.
Some people want the whole room singing at them and some would rather crawl under the table, and that girl was the second kind if Dolores had ever seen one.
She set the plate down, struck a match, and said, "Happy birthday, sweetheart. Make it a good one."
The girl looked at the cake. Then at him. She looked at him like he'd pulled it out of the air.
"That's two," she said quietly. "Two candles in one day."
"I'm not keeping count." A beat. "Okay. A little."
She closed her eyes.
Dolores should have walked away and didn't. The girl kept her eyes shut a long time, longer than a kid would, long enough for wax to start running down the stripes.
Her lips didn't move. Across from her, the kid wasn't watching the candle at all. He was watching her face like he'd be asked to draw it from memory later.
She blew it out.
"What'd you wish for?"
"If I tell you, it won't come true." She picked up a fork. "Everybody knows that."
She cut off the tip of the slice, the best bite, the one with the most ganache, and held it out across the table.
He hesitated. She didn't lower the fork.
He leaned in and took it, and she watched him chew with the face of someone who had just done something very daring and planned to deny it in court.
The second fork stayed on the napkin, clean.
They stayed until Linda started putting chairs up.
He paid in twenties now. The tip was too big.
It had always been too big.
At the door he held it for her again and checked the street.
The girl stepped out first, and he turned back.
"Thanks, Dolores. For today." He stopped, then tried again. "For all of it."
"Don't be a stranger," she said.
He smiled. For a second it was almost the smile from that first night, the bad one, and then it wasn't. "I'll try," he said, and the door swung shut behind him.
Dolores cleared table six herself.
She stacked the plates and the cake plate and the girl's teacup, still half full, and then she picked up the clean fork, and something came to her.
It came the way things did at her age, sideways, while her hands were busy.
A woman. Years back. Big glasses, a laugh you could hear from the register. Saturdays, at this table.
Always cherry pie, always two forks.
She'd sit there talking and laughing between bites, and in all those Saturdays Dolores had never once seen who the second fork was for.
She'd figured the woman was lonely. Some people talk to an empty chair.
Dolores stood there with the fork in her hand and tried to see the chair.
Nothing came. Just the table, the window, and a Saturday afternoon with a piece cut out of it, neat as a cookie cutter.
She put the fork in the bus tub.
She didn't know what else to do with it.
Out front, the sign buzzed over the door the way it had for longer than she liked to admit. O EN, the P dark.
Tourists took pictures of it. Manny said it had character.
Dolores took the order pad out of her apron, wrote CALL SIGN GUY, underlined it twice, and stuck the page to the register where she couldn't pretend she hadn't seen it.
Then she turned off the lights, all but the one over table six, and she didn't know why she left that one on, either.