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Some people think things change after awhile. Problems get sorted out, pain fades away, and happiness returns. Those people obviously haven't experienced anything scarring to them.
Yoongi sat on the floor of his bedroom staring at the mirror across from him. His pale reflection looked back at him. Cracks displayed all over his face. His head as tilted to one side as he kept a hard stare at himself in the mirror.
One month. It had officially been a month since everything crashed and burned.
His eyes drifted to his bed memories flooding in.
Jimin smiled jumping onto Yoongi's bed laying on his bed staring up at the ceiling. Yoongi watched his boyfriend fondly.
Jimin rose an eyebrow looking at him "C'monnnn" the younger whined urging Yoongi to come closer.
Giving him an amused smiled he walked over looking down at him "Yes?"
The younger pouted before rising up a little and grabbed Yoongi's hands pulling him onto him.
"Anything I can help you with?" Yoongi asked teasingly.
Jimin kept the pout on his lips keeping their eyes locked.
Yoongi admired his way for a few minutes before he heard another whine. With a sigh and a roll of his eyes, he let a short sweet kiss on Jimin's lips.
The younger boy broke out into a grin "I lov-"
He quickly shook his head getting himself out of the memory. He couldn't hear those words again. Especially if he wasn't ever going to hear them with his own ears.
Yoongi stood up slowly giving his breathing time to calm down. His heart always went rapid speed thinking about Jimin.
Just as he went to sit down a faint tune reached his ears.
He frowned looking over at his bedroom door. Music? Their music?
His frown turned to a scowl "How dare someone" he muttered angrily to himself opening his door quickly and marched down the hall following the sound.
Didn't anybody understand that they just wanted peace and quiet?
He through his front door open but paused seeing no one. Not even a soul was walking past but the music kept playing. Then he realized it was coming from inside.
But just before he closed the door something caught his eyes. Flowers? He picked up the bouquet and observed the flowers.
All their favorites. At least their ARMY understood.
His face softened as he put the flowers on a table thinking he'll out them in a vase later but then the music reached him again.
The scowl returned in seconds as he searched for where it was coming from.
'One of the stupid staff members must've left it on' he muttered to himself as he stopped by the stairs leading to the 3 rooms upstairs.
He paused at the stairs letting his eyes trail up and down. Their maknae's rooms were up there.
"This place is perfect Hyung" Jungkook exclaimed as he spun around in a little circle of excitement.They had been searching for so long it was nice to see everyone happy with the final choice.
"Well, that settles it looks like we're taking this one. I'll go tell the staff" Namjoon murmured with a smile urging Seokjin to join him who happily did.
"Let's pick bedrooms" Taehyung announced happily.
"Hm, there are only 4 rooms down here" Hoseok stated with a frown as he returned from exploring the large hall, "I thought they said there were way more? I know we'll be rooming together but don't we need a room for a study or like practice room?"
The 4 remaining boys looked at each other confused before Yoongi looked up hearing Jimin call for them.
They hurried over to where Jimin stood "I found another door" he explained smiling.
He opened it and stairs led upwards.
The three maknae looked at each other in wonder before they went bounding up the stairs "THERE'S BEDROOM"S UP HERE! THIS IS SO COOL! WE'RE TAKING THIS FLOOR" we shouted down the stairs.
Yoongi and Hoseok looked at each other with amused smiles "Okayyyyy but what did you find up there a secret hide out?"
Giggles were heard from the top as doors opened and closed from excitement.
"Well looks like we're getting the boring floor" Yoongi stated.
"Psh" Hoseok murmured as he put an arm around him "I doubt anything will be boring with us in one house."
Yoongi stared at the stairs biting his lip harshly. He hadn't been up there in ages. No one had been up there...except Jungkook. Yoongi's eyes widened at the thought of the youngest up there all alone with the memories. It was even harder for him their rooms were all so together.
His ran up the stairs as fast as his legs could carry him but paused as he stood at the top. Three doors were in the narrow hallway which opened up to a little sitting place full of blankets, pillows and bean bag chairs by a large window.
His eyes went directly to the door on his right. Jimin's bedroom.
He let his hand wander over Jimin's door. Tracing the lines in the door gently. Memories of countless late nights and movies coming to mind. Pillow fights and giggles.
The music hit his ears again. Anger almost rose inside of him before he remembered who was up here.
He turned to look at the single door on his left. Jungkook's room.
He took a deep breathe stepping closer gently pushing the door open and stepping inside the room.
Yoongi's eyes scanned the room frowning as he caught no sign of the maknae or the source of the music.
He stood there for a minute taking in the music. It was I Need U. Of course. Right now couldn't be more of a perfect timing to listen to that song.
He turned around about to leave but a muffled sob caught his attention.
His eyes landing on the closet. Eyes widening he ran over to the closet and opened it.
What was left of his heart shattered as he looked at the sight in front of him.
The small boy was curled up on the ground head buried in a pile of clothes clutching his phone to his head. He was shaking as well as he sobbed.
Yoongi covered his mouth quickly not wanting his own whimpers to escape as he kneeled down next to Jungkook.
As tears threatened to spill from his eyes he gently put a hand on his shoulder shaking gently "Jungkookie" he murmured softly as he could.
Jungkook instantly froze under his touch as he looked up. Eyes red and tears still falling.
A sad smile appeared on Yoongi's face as Jungkook sat up quickly trying to wipe away his falling tears "H-Hyung" he muttered out phone still close to his chest.
"You don't have to hide your pain" Yoongi muttered watching him.
Jungkook shook his head "I-It's alright. I'm fine I just hit my head trying to find something" he quickly lied.
"B-Beside's I have to be strong for both of us. You haven't been eating for a long while. I was thinking of cooking today. W-What would you like?" he asked trying to sound happy but his voice wavered.
The smile fell. Jungkook was trying to be happy for them both. He had scared the small boy to death but he still wanted to keep his Hyung safe. He had selfishly dropped everything on Jungkook while he cried out his pain. Jungkook had pain as well. They were Jungkook's family too.
Yoongi scowled at himself. How could he be so selfish? He hadn't thought about Jungkook once. Not even once.
He stood up quickly "I'm sorry Jungkook. I dropped everything on you so suddenly. I should've tried to stay stronger."
Jungkook's eyes widened standing up to "No no no no. It's alright Hyung. You needed to let your pain out. I don't hate you or anything."
"But you should" he stated harshly.
JUngkook flinched stepping back.
Yoongi didn't notice "You should hate me. You should slap me and kick me. I left you all alone to suffer this pain. Half the time I don't even remember your still here."
He walked over grabbing Yoongi's hand "Slap me. Kick me. Punch me. Yell. Do anything Jungkookie but let your anger out please."
Jungkook shook his head "N-No. I can't hit you Hyung."
"Drop the Hyung. Disrespect me. This is what I deserve!" Yoongi was yelling now all his frustration coming out. He had once again built it all up not wanting to cause any more damage. He didn't know that building it up would cause more.
"DO ANYTHING!" he suddenly screaming and pushed JUngkook against the closet door.
"H-Hyung?!" Jungkook exclaimed nervously.
"Stop it" he stated harshly "Stop calling me Hyung."
Jungkook looked at the older boy with fear "Y-Yoongi please stop" he said in a hushed tone.
Yoongi smiled at him cruelly pushing him away as he stepped back "Don't stop there. Kick me" he stated firmly again.
The younger looked at him cautiously "K-Kick you?"
"Yes. Kick me."
Out of fear of getting yelled at Jungkook kicked him gently.
Yoongi stayed silent for a minute a hard glaze on Jungkook before he lifted his fist up slamming into the wall.
Jungkook gasped "Yoongi!!" he exclaimed about to check for injuries but was stopped at the single hand raised.
"Don't I deserve this" Yoongi muttered hitting the wall again. His knuckles turned a nasty color blood threatening to spill.
Jungkook watched in horror. This wasn't good. Yoongi found causing pain to himself a way to punish himself for being upset and he couldn't do anything.
He still couldn't help his Hyung and Jungkook knew he was losing time.
Soon Yoongi would be far to gone. Too deep in his misery but it was his mission to drag him out of the pit.
Jimin would want Yoongi to be safe all of them would want him safe.
And Jungkook would make it happen. For all his Hyung's.