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“You knew.” Hanji blatantly said as Levi walked through the door. Taking off his jacket, he looked at them.
“What do you mean?” He asked.
“You know what I mean.” They responded. Levi walked into the kitchen.
“Well, what did you want me to do about it?” Hanji glared, but they knew that it was fruitless. “At least say something to him!” Levi slowly turned.
“Are you trying to blame me, for his stupid shit? I’m over it. It’s only him dwelling in old memories. Memories that he thinks exist, but it’s all fiction. I have someone I like now, Hanji. I can’t be bending over backwards for his delusions. I thought you of all people would understand that.”
Hanji sighed, knowing that they were in the wrong. “But, Levi,” Levi shook his head. “There is no but, Hanji. It’s not my problem. Why are you still here, anyway? Leave.” Levi closed the fridge, dully looking to his left at Hanji.
“Mikasa asked me to stay here.” Hanji stated.
“I don’t care. Come back when you actually understand what the fuck you’re talking about.” Hanji frowned. They didn’t want to hurt their friend, but they couldn’t understand why Erwin and Levi never addressed this issue before.
Hanji, without another word, stormed out of the household. They walked down the street. They just wanted to help their friend. They took a piece of paper out of their pocket, and stared at the words. Why did Levi not realize that?
Levi laid on his bed, thinking about the kiss him and Eren shared. He touched his lips with the pads of his fingers, gently sliding them across. He hadn’t had such a feeling before. It was very, very, fulfilling.
It was sloppy, and in a weird environment, but it felt nicer than anything he had felt before. And he loved it.
Eren’s lips on his was like a dream, something magical and fictitious. Yet, it happened. He walked Eren home after, and they shared another light touch of the lips, smiling as they said their goodbyes.
Hanji, though, truly gave him a wakeup call. And he didn’t like that all. He knew he had to talk to Erwin. He wasn’t stupid. But getting that reminder on such a good day, made him somewhat sad.
Why was Hanji so worried all of a sudden? Levi and Erwin have been fine, until now. It’s just petty high school drama.
Levi suddenly remembered the letters.
He went upstairs, and opened the drawer. He picked one up, the one closest to the bottom that hasn't been opened. He gently opened the envelope.
“Dear Levi Ackerman,
Eren was sad. We’ve addressed that. But, no matter what he tells you, you will never know the true extent of his sadness. You, and Erwin, get in a falling out. You fight viciously when Erwin finds out about your feelings for Eren.
I believe that was the last straw for him. He felt as if he was the one to blame for the group splitting. You and Hanji barely talked after that. I know now that Eren truly loved me, or us.
But, he just could never say anything. Levi, you ended up graduating, sad, depressed, and lonely because of all of your regrets. Please, talk to Erwin about what happened. Because, even if Eren does still die, at least you will have someone to talk to. When I went through that, I had no one. I simply shut everyone out.
But, I regret that. I know you’re stubborn, but please let everyone in.”
There was no end note.
Levi crumpled the note into a ball.
Talk to Erwin?
What does that mean? They hadn’t really fought.
Or has it just not happened yet?
Is this...
Why Hanji is so scared? Are they....
“Han.” Levi stated into the receiver, using their nickname that they couldn’t resist. “What Levi? Is there something wrong?” Hanji was worried. Levi rarely used that nickname anymore.
“Did you get the letters too?”
“How did you know?” Hanji stated. “Why else would you be up my ass?” Levi responded. “But now do you realize...” Hanji trailed off.
Levi nodded. “Yes.” Hanji let out a breath of air. “Good. I don’t want to lose you guys, Levi! You’re my best friends, along with Eren. Is he dies... I know it seems weird, but I feel like a piece will be missing. He already fits in so well, Levi. We all love him. And Armin... I just- I want us to be happy. I want Eren to be happy. I don’t want him to end up like the one in our future self’s lives. In my letter, I sound so much different. I sound so sad, so incomplete. I just want to be happy. I need this, Levi. I can’t let you guys go. I can’t let you and Erwin split. You guys are my best friends. If something goes wrong with you two, I’m absolutely done for. Please, Levi.” Hanji’s voice cracked.
Levi knew this was his fault. “I know, Hanji. My letters go into depth about this. I don’t like reading them, however, because a lot of the stories are off. I’ve already altered the future so much. Erwin and I didn’t even get in a open fight. It was more like an inner turmoil. And seeing how my future self suffered, and how much he regrets his life, I don’t want to end up like that. So please, just trust me. Hanji, you’re my bestfriend. Erwin is my best friend. You guys complete me. But Eren.. Eren is just as big of a piece of my heart as you guys. And if I lose one of you guys... I’ll fall just like my future self. Help me, Hanji. I can’t do this alone.” Levi’s voice lowered, and he covered his face as if someone could see him.
Hanji sniffled, and squeezed the phone in their hand. “I’ll help you.” Hanji said. Levi’s face contorted into a half smile.
“Thank you, Hanji. Please don’t think ever that I don’t love you, okay? I know I’m not good at showing my emotions, but you guys are irreplaceable. Never forget that.”
Levi could practically hear Hanji’s smile. “Of course, Levi. Always.”