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China turns out to be inconveniently far away.
Chuuya knows that much without needing a map to tell him. Dazai leaves for what is supposed to be a year or more, and after that, life settles back into its usual rhythm with surprisingly little ceremony.
The shop opens every morning. Engines still refuse to cooperate at the worst possible times. Arthur still keeps track of accounts with the patience of a saint, while Paul continues to believe that every problem can be solved by tightening something a little harder. Chuuya falls back into the familiar pace of work, responsibility, and the occasional argument over who forgot to order a particular part.
Dazai remains somewhere beyond all of it.
They keep in touch, though not often enough to call it a routine. Every now and then, a photograph from China appears on Chuuya's phone, a city skyline, an unfamiliar street, some ridiculous meal Dazai apparently considers worth documenting, or a glimpse of an office that looks far too expensive for anyone to be comfortable in.
Chuuya occasionally sends something back, usually a picture from the shop or a greeting from Arthur and Paul, and sometimes Dazai answers days later because apparently running an international operation leaves very little time for anything else.
Neither of them makes a fuss about the gaps.
They're both busy. That's all there is to it.
At least, that's what Chuuya tells himself whenever he notices how long it has been since he last heard from Dazai.
It isn't as though Chuuya expects anything different. Dazai is halfway across the world, working under the weight of responsibilities that Chuuya can only imagine, while Chuuya is here doing exactly what he chose to do with his own life.
Their worlds are different, and there is nothing wrong with that. One of them spends his days in corporate offices and meetings that probably involve numbers large enough to make Chuuya's eyes hurt, while the other spends his days underneath cars, arguing with suppliers and wiping grease from his hands before remembering that it is already on his face.
Neither world needs to become the other. Chuuya understands that. More than that, he respects it.
Still, Dazai's absence becomes noticeable in ways Chuuya doesn't particularly appreciate.
The café is quieter.
Not literally. The place is still full of the same morning chatter, the clinking of cups, the hiss of the espresso machine, and the occasional impatient customer checking their watch. But Chuuya sometimes finds himself glancing toward the door when the bell rings, only to see someone completely unrelated walk inside.
He never lingers on it.
He takes another drink of coffee and goes back to his paperwork.
At the shop, it happens less often, though occasionally someone arrives carrying a box of pastries or a paper bag from one of the nicer bakeries in town, and Chuuya's first thought is that Dazai is probably behind it.
Then he remembers. Right, China. He doesn't think anything of it. Usually.
The strange thing is that nothing in Chuuya's life actually stops just because a presence is gone. If anything, he becomes busier. The shop picks up new customers. Paul leaves more of the daily work in Chuuya's hands, trusting him to handle things without supervision. Arthur starts involving him more in decisions about suppliers and finances. Kouyou still calls whenever her plants need rescuing, which somehow remains one of Chuuya's most consistent responsibilities outside the shop.
There are days when Chuuya barely remembers to check his phone. There are weeks when work takes over so completely that he only realizes how much time passed when Dazai eventually sends something from China and Chuuya catches himself thinking, Huh. It's been a while.
Nothing more.
He answers when he can. Dazai does the same. That's enough.
Except sometimes the photographs make Chuuya pause. Not because they are particularly beautiful, though some of them are. It's because, little by little, they begin showing a Dazai that Chuuya doesn't know as well.
There are photographs of meetings, company buildings, unfamiliar streets, formal dinners, and people in suits whose names Chuuya will probably never remember. Dazai appears in some of them, looking increasingly comfortable in places where Chuuya can't imagine himself belonging.
It is strange seeing him that way.
The Dazai that Chuuya knows is the idiot who wanders into a neighborhood café because he likes the company, the man who sits around the shop while everyone else works, the nuisance who shows up carrying pastries and pretends he happened to be nearby despite being very obviously nowhere near the place by accident.
That Dazai feels familiar. The man in the photographs feels different. Not unfamiliar. Just... farther away.
Chuuya knows why. Dazai is doing what he said he would do. He is learning the business. Building experience. Becoming someone capable of eventually carrying his father's company. And suddenly, Chuuya understands the scale of the difference between them in a way he never really considered before.
Dazai was never simply a businessman who happened to have a powerful father. He is an heir being prepared for a future much larger than anything Chuuya has ever needed to imagine.
Chuuya, meanwhile, is exactly where he wants to be.
The shop is small compared to whatever Dazai is dealing with now, but it is his. It belongs to his family. He knows every creak in the floor, every stubborn drawer, every tool that Paul refuses to replace because the old one still works perfectly fine, and every customer who thinks Chuuya can diagnose a car problem by hearing them describe it over the phone.
He likes his life and he wouldn't trade it.
Perhaps that is why he doesn't resent the silence. There are simply two people living two very different lives now, and sometimes those lives leave little room for anything else.
One evening, Chuuya closes the shop later than usual and stands outside while Paul locks the front doors. The street is quiet, the last traces of daylight fading between the buildings, and somewhere in the distance a train rumbles through the city.
Arthur calls from inside, reminding him not to forget dinner. Chuuya tells him he won't.
Then his phone vibrates in his pocket. He checks it. Another photograph from Dazai. Chuuya glances at it briefly. A city at night, all lights and glass and unfamiliar streets. Dazai doesn't write much with it, and Chuuya doesn't ask. He simply looks at the picture for another second before slipping the phone away.
"Who's that?" Paul asks casually.
"Dazai."
Paul makes a quiet sound of acknowledgment while Arthur calls from inside again. Chuuya sighs and heads toward the house.
"Coming."
And that is how the months pass. Not dramatically. Not painfully. Just quietly as the distance grows familiar.
Chuuya learns that missing someone doesn't always feel like missing them. Sometimes it is only the instinct to tell them something ridiculous before remembering they aren't there. Sometimes it is seeing a familiar kind of coffee and thinking Dazai would complain about it. Sometimes it is noticing an empty chair and deciding, without much thought, that it probably looks better empty anyway.
Chuuya never gives those things a name. He doesn't need to, because e has a life here and Dazai has a life there. For now, their roads simply run in different directions.
And Chuuya is perfectly capable of walking his own.
—
Christmas arrives in Yokohama beneath a sky with the color of old glass, bringing with it a rare blanket of snow that settles over the city as though someone has quietly draped a white sheet across everything Chuuya knows.
The streets are slower than usual, the rooftops softened beneath layers of frost, and even the familiar buildings look strangely unfamiliar beneath the winter weather.
Chuuya doesn't mind the cold nearly as much as he pretends to, especially when it gives the city this kind of quiet, when traffic becomes a distant murmur and the usual rush of people seems to retreat indoors.
Kouyou, naturally, has chosen the perfect time to leave the country.
She and Kyouka are spending the holidays somewhere considerably warmer, leaving Chuuya with the responsibility of checking on the plants in Kouyou's apartment while they're away. It isn't exactly an unusual arrangement. Chuuya had done this before, and Kouyou trusts him with the plants because, according to her, he is the only person in the family who can be trusted to follow simple instructions without turning a watering schedule into a personal philosophy.
Chuuya maintains that she is being dramatic.
Her plants, unfortunately, remain alive.
After making his usual rounds through the apartment, checking the soil and moving two pots away from a particularly cold window, Chuuya stands by the balcony door and looks outside. Snow continues falling lightly, the flakes gathering along the railing and window ledges until the whole neighborhood looks softened around the edges.
He should head home.
Paul will probably complain if he stays out too long in this weather, and Arthur will probably ask whether he remembered to eat something before leaving the shop earlier that afternoon. Neither concern is particularly unreasonable, which is precisely why Chuuya doesn't intend to give them an opportunity to lecture him.
Instead, his eyes drift toward the rooftop access. Since he's already here, there isn't any harm in staying a few more minutes.
So Chuuya pulls his coat tighter around himself, adjusts the scarf around his neck, and makes his way upstairs. By the time he pushes open the rooftop door, the cold immediately slips beneath his clothes, sharp enough to make him suck in a breath.
The view makes up for it.
Yokohama stretches beneath him in winter colors, rooftops and streets covered in snow, windows glowing warmly against the pale afternoon. Cars move carefully along the roads, leaving dark trails through the white, while distant buildings fade into the soft curtain of falling snow.
Chuuya walks toward the railing, takes out his phone, and considers the view.
It's good. Better than good, actually. The sort of thing Dazai would probably have some ridiculous comment about.
The thought arrives so naturally that Chuuya doesn't even question it.
It's been weeks since they last exchanged messages.
Not because anything happened. The holidays are just busy, and Dazai's work in China is hardly the sort of thing that allows him to sit around chatting whenever he feels like it. Chuuya's own days aren't exactly empty either. Between the shop, his fathers, Christmas preparations, and the endless parade of things that somehow need fixing precisely when everyone else is supposed to be relaxing, he barely notices how quickly the weeks have gone.
Still, two months from now will mark roughly a year since Dazai left.
Roughly.
Chuuya knows because Dazai mentioned it before leaving, though he had also been annoyingly vague about the actual return date, explaining that the assignment could easily stretch beyond a year depending on how things developed.
Chuuya isn't keeping track. He just remembers. There's a difference.
He raises his phone and takes a photograph of the city. The picture comes out better than expected. Snow covers nearly everything, and the afternoon light catches against the windows of the buildings in the distance, turning the familiar skyline almost dreamlike.
Chuuya looks at it for a moment. Then, with the sort of casual decision he would later insist means absolutely nothing, he opens his conversation with Dazai and sends it.
"Snow finally stuck."
Chuuya lowers his phone, already thinking about heading downstairs before the cold works its way through his coat. He turns toward the rooftop door, takes one step, and nearly walks straight past the person standing there.
He stops immediately, the figure is familiar.
For a moment, Chuuya simply looks at him, his mind taking an extra second to connect the dark hair, the long coat, the slightly crooked tie, and the face he has only seen in photographs and occasional messages for months.
Dazai.
Standing in the doorway like he has every right in the world to be there. Chuuya's eyebrows lift, and he looks at him again just to make sure the first glance wasn't some trick of the winter light.
It isn't.
Dazai looks back at him with that same lazy, amused smile Chuuya remembers far too well, except there is a little more tiredness around his eyes now, the sort that comes from too many hours spent working and too little time spent doing anything sensible. His formal clothes look completely out of place against the snow-covered rooftop, and his shoes are already beginning to collect a thin layer of white.
Chuuya stares for another second.
Then, because there really isn't anything else to say, he asks, "Dazai?"
Dazai's smile widens.
"Hello, Angel."
Chuuya looks him up and down. "You look terrible."
"That's a surprisingly good reaction. I was worried you might accuse me of being a particularly elaborate Christmas decoration."
"How the hell are you here?" Chuuya's eyes narrow.
"I considered calling." Dazai laughs, pushing away from the doorway and walking toward him through the snow. "But I thought hearing my voice might ruin the surprise."
"Your face is already ruining the surprise."
"Ah, there he is." Dazai laughs, and the sound is so familiar that something inside Chuuya finally accepts what his eyes have been trying to tell him.
It really is him.
The realization doesn't arrive with fireworks or some dramatic rush of emotion. It simply settles into place, quiet and almost bewildering, because Chuuya has spent so long hearing Dazai's voice coming through a phone, face on a photograph from another country, a name appearing between stretches of work.
Now he's standing ten feet away. In person. In Yokohama. On Christmas.
"What are you doing here?" He asks again because Dazai didn't exactly answered his question properly.
Dazai stops in front of him, hands slipping into the pockets of his coat. "I asked your dads where you were."
"That's not what I'm asking." Chuuya gives him a long look.
Dazai's expression becomes suspiciously innocent. "Ah. Well, that's considerably more complicated."
"Dazai."
"I came back."
"That part is obvious."
"Maybe I just missed Yokohama."
"Doesn't sound convincing."
Dazai laughs, and Chuuya realizes with some annoyance that he missed that sound more than he would care to admit.
Dazai finally relents.
"I finished everything I needed to finish before leaving China." The joking edge in his voice softens, though the smile remains. "These past few weeks were brutal. Every time I thought I was finished, someone remembered another report they wanted, another meeting they needed, another document that apparently could not survive until after Christmas. So I spent most of December making sure nothing important would collapse the moment I left."
Chuuya glances at his suit. "You look like you came straight from the airport."
"I did."
"You didn't even go home?"
"I thought about it." Dazai gives him a perfectly reasonable expression. "Then I remembered I had promised to find my way back to you."
Chuuya's eyes flick toward him. The words are simple, almost casual, but they land somewhere unexpectedly warm.
Dazai notices the reaction. Naturally. His smile turns mischievous again. "Besides, I had somewhere important to be."
"Where?" Chuuya stares at him.
"Here." Dazai spreads his hands slightly, as though the answer should be obvious.
"How the hell did you even know I'd be here?"
"I asked your dads."
Chuuya exhales through his nose. "You really planned this, didn't you?"
"Of course."
"You're unbelievable."
"I prefer thoughtful."
Chuuya shakes his head, but the corner of his mouth betrays him. Dazai notices that as well. Then, with an almost theatrical seriousness, Dazai reaches beneath his coat and pulls out a small wrapped package.
Chuuya looks at it, then at Dazai, then back at the package.
"Don't. I know that look."
"What look?"
"The look you get before you do something stupid."
Dazai holds the package out. "I spent nearly a year away from Yokohama and returned on Christmas day. Surely you can allow me one moment of dignity."
"You're standing in a suit on a snowy rooftop with a present in your hand."
"Exactly. I'm being dignified."
"You look like a businessman who got lost on his way to a Christmas party."
"That is remarkably close to the truth."
Chuuya finally takes the package. It is small, neatly wrapped, and surprisingly light. "You didn't have to bring me anything."
"I know." The answer comes without hesitation. Dazai's expression softens. "I wanted to."
Chuuya looks down at the present, suddenly unsure what to do with the warmth creeping into his chest. So naturally, he chooses the safest option. "You flew across the sea to hand me a box."
"Technically, I flew across the sea to become your Santa Claus."
Chuuya snorts despite himself and Dazai looks pleased.
"And more importantly," he continues, "I needed to deliver your Christmas present personally."
Chuuya looks at the package again. He doesn't open it yet.
Instead, he glances toward the city.
Snow continues falling around them, settling across Dazai's shoulders and dark hair. For someone who just arrived from another country, he looks remarkably comfortable standing there, as though this rooftop had been waiting for him.
"How long are you staying?"
Dazai looks at him.
"Long enough."
"That's not an answer."
"It's the best one I have."
Chuuya gives him a suspicious look.
Dazai smiles. "My father knows I'm back. I still have things to take care of, and eventually I'll need to return to China for whatever comes next, but for the moment, I'm here."
Chuuya nods. It shouldn't feel like such a strange thing to hear. Yet somehow it does. He looks at Dazai again, and for a brief moment, the year between them seems to shrink into something much smaller. He can still see the same ridiculous man who used to appear at the shop because he was bored, the same idiot who traveled across the city for coffee, the same person who promised, before leaving, that he would find his way back with or without fate's help.
Apparently, he meant it.
"You know," Chuuya says, adjusting his scarf, "most people call before showing up after being gone for almost a year."
Dazai tilts his head.
"Most people aren't me. Besides, I thought you'd be happier."
"I am."
The answer slips out before Chuuya can stop it. Dazai goes quiet.
Chuuya immediately looks away. "I mean, it's Christmas. Having someone else around means I don't have to listen to Dad complain about the weather by myself."
Dazai's smile returns, softer this time. "Of course."
"Don't make that face." Chuuya looks at him before turning toward the city, standing beside the brunette as the snow falls quietly around them.
After a moment, Chuuya holds up his phone. "Come here."
Dazai looks over. "Why?"
"I'm taking another picture."
Dazai steps closer as Chuuya lifts the phone, then pauses before lowering it again.
"Just stand there."
"Where?"
"Anywhere that doesn't annoy me."
Dazai laughs and moves beside him.
This time, when Chuuya takes the photograph, he doesn't only capture the snowy city. Instead, he captures the moment between the two of them.
The Christmas gift remains warm against his palm while Dazai remains beside him.
And somewhere beneath all the ordinary things, the snow, the cold, the teasing, the year apart, there is something quietly comforting about having the familiar nuisance standing next to him again.
Chuuya doesn't need to decide what that means.
Not today.
Today, Dazai is back.
For Christmas, at least.
And apparently, that's enough of a miracle for one winter morning.
—
Things don't go back to the way they were.
Not exactly.
For a while, Chuuya thinks they might. Dazai returns to Yokohama, settles back into his work, and somehow finds his way into the same places as before. The café sees him again often enough that the staff stop looking surprised. The shop becomes another regular destination, usually accompanied by some ridiculous excuse about being in the neighborhood despite the fact that Dazai's office remains nowhere near it.
China becomes another thing they talk about instead of something that stands between them.
Dazai tells stories about meetings that lasted too long and executives who somehow made paperwork even more boring than usual. Chuuya tells him about the customer who brought in a car with three different warning lights glowing on the dashboard and insisted nothing was wrong because it still started. Dazai laughs at the story. Chuuya complains about his laugh. Nothing important changes.
Except, somehow, everything does.
Their lives still don't fit neatly together. Chuuya spends most of his days surrounded by engines, grease, invoices, suppliers, and the familiar noise of the family shop. Dazai spends his surrounded by conference rooms, reports, schedules, and decisions that affect far more people than either of them knows. Some days their schedules don't overlap at all. Some weeks they only manage a short coffee before one of them needs to leave.
So they learn.
They learn that friendship doesn't require seeing each other every day. They learn that a message saying I'm near your shop can be translated to I have five minutes to I am about to steal your entire evening. They learn that dinner can happen at ten at night if that's the only hour either of them has free, and that sometimes sitting in the same café with separate work spread across the table counts as spending time together.
It isn't the effortless rhythm they once had. It's something new. Something they have to make.
And Chuuya finds that he doesn't mind.
He doesn't mind when Dazai disappears into work for several days, because he knows he'll eventually turn up again. He doesn't mind when his own responsibilities keep him at the shop longer than expected. Neither of them expects the other to rearrange his entire life just to make room.
They simply make room when they can.
Somewhere along the way, Chuuya stops thinking of Dazai as someone who keeps appearing in his life and starts thinking of him as someone who belongs in it.
The realization is quieter than he expects.
There isn't a particular day when it happens. No dramatic moment, no sudden revelation beneath a perfectly timed sunset. It settles into place gradually, somewhere between familiar arguments and shared coffee, between Dazai leaning against the workbench while Chuuya finishes an inspection and Chuuya automatically setting aside the pastry Dazai likes before remembering that he never actually asked for one.
They're friends.
Chuuya knows that.
They've always been friends.
But there is something about them that doesn't quite fit inside the word anymore.
And eventually, Dazai notices it too.
It happened on an ordinary evening.
They're sitting outside a convenience store after a late dinner, neither particularly eager to leave yet. The streets around them are busy with people heading home, and the cold has settled comfortably into the air.
Dazai sits beside him, coat buttoned against the weather, looking considerably less exhausted than he did the day he returned from China.
Chuuya glances over and finds Dazai already looking at him.
"What?" Chuuya asks.
Dazai considers the question for a moment, then smiles.
"You know, I've been thinking."
Chuuya immediately knows that's dangerous. "That's usually when you become a problem."
Dazai laughs, the sound warm and familiar, then looks back toward the street.
"I think I like you."
Chuuya stares at him.
There it is. The obvious thing. The thing that neither of them has bothered naming because, until now, there hasn't seemed to be any reason to.
Chuuya leans back against the bench, taking his time before answering.
"You think?"
"I've conducted a fairly thorough investigation."
"How thorough?"
"Extremely. I've considered the evidence, examined the circumstances, and consulted absolutely no one because I didn't trust their judgment."
"Sounds about right."
Dazai turns toward him, waiting.
Chuuya looks down at his hands for a moment, then lets out a quiet breath.
"I think I like you too."
Dazai blinks. It's such a small reaction that Chuuya almost misses it. Then the smile returns.
"Oh."
"Don't make it weird."
"I wasn't going to."
"You were."
Dazai laughs again, and Chuuya shakes his head, but neither of them moves away.
There is no immediate need to decide what this means. No reason to suddenly rewrite everything they've built or pretend the friendship beneath it has disappeared. They are still themselves. Dazai is still going to annoy him. Chuuya is still going to complain. Their work will still get in the way. Their lives will still pull them in different directions, and there will be days when they barely see each other.
But now they know.
Perhaps that is enough for tonight.
Dazai looks at him again, that familiar amusement returning to his eyes. "So, Chuuya."
"What?"
"Does this mean I can take you on a proper date?"
Chuuya gives him a flat look. "We've been eating dinner together for months."
"Yes, but previously I was under the impression that you merely tolerated me."
"I do merely tolerate you."
"How tragic."
Chuuya stands, pulling his coat straight. "Then start picking a place."
Dazai smiles as the redhead starts walking before he can even say anything else. Dazai falls into step beside him almost instantly.
For so long, their meetings have been accidents.
A chair reached for at the same time. A rooftop. A train station. A broken-down car. An elevator. A rainy street. A motorcycle ride that neither of them planned. A year spent on different sides of the world.
One coincidence after another.
But somewhere between all those unexpected meetings, they built something neither of them could call accidental anymore.
Chuuya doesn't know exactly what comes next. Dazai probably doesn't either. For once, neither of them seems particularly bothered by that.
They'll figure it out the same way they've figured out everything else. One day, one conversation, one ordinary meeting at a time.
And maybe, for now, that's enough.
After all, the roads don't have to lead them to each other anymore.
They already know where to find one another.
—
Dazai remembers it all too well. How the things progressed back then.
The city is quieter at night. He should be concentrating.
There are contracts waiting for his approval, reports that need reviewing, figures that refuse to make themselves interesting no matter how many times he reads them, and a schedule crowded enough that his assistant has already stopped pretending the next few weeks will be pleasant.
He works through each one with the efficiency expected of him without allowing himself much time to think about anything outside the office. And yet, somewhere between one report and the next, his thoughts wander.
Not toward home. Not toward his father. Not even toward Yokohama as a city. But toward a redhead sitting across from him in a café.
Dazai leans back in his chair and looks toward the window.
He misses Chuuya.
The realization comes without much ceremony. There is no dramatic ache attached to it, no sudden understanding that changes everything. It is simply a fact that settles comfortably into his mind, as natural as realizing he is tired after another long day.
He misses the company.
More specifically, he misses how easy it is.
Around most people, Dazai is always conscious of what is expected of him. In meetings, he is Mori Ougai's son. In the office, he is an executive learning the business he is eventually expected to inherit. To some people, he is someone to impress; to others, someone to watch. There are expectations attached to his name before he even enters a room, and there are times when he can almost feel them settling across his shoulders like another layer of clothing.
With Chuuya, none of that matters.
Chuuya doesn't care who his father is. He doesn't care about the company, the position waiting for him, or whatever polished version of Dazai the rest of the world expects to see. He knows the man who drinks too much coffee, makes terrible jokes, complains when his plans are interrupted, and occasionally shows up at a family auto shop for no particularly convincing reason.
Around Chuuya, Dazai doesn't have to be impressive. He doesn't have to be useful. He doesn't have to be the future successor to anything.
He can simply be Dazai.
Perhaps that is why he wants to know him better.
Not merely the mechanic who somehow keeps appearing wherever Dazai happens to be, but Chuuya himself. As the person behind the sharp temper and practical advice, the man who speaks about his family shop with an ease Dazai rarely hears when people talk about their own lives.
He wants to know what Chuuya likes when nobody is asking, what makes him laugh when Dazai isn't responsible for it, what sort of places he goes when he isn't working, what dreams he keeps to himself, and what kind of person he becomes when there is no customer waiting and no engine demanding his attention.
Dazai wants to keep seeing him.
He wants to become a real friend, not merely the strange man fate keeps dropping into Chuuya's path.
And somewhere beyond friendship sits another possibility.
He doesn't name it.
Not yet.
There are too many things he doesn't know, too many pieces of Chuuya's life he has only glimpsed, and too much about his own life that remains complicated. Dazai doesn't want to mistake fascination for something deeper simply because their meetings feel unusual. He doesn't want to rush toward a label just because he enjoys being around someone.
What he does know is much simpler.
He wants more time.
Enough time to find out what this is.
Enough time to see whether the feeling survives ordinary days instead of existing only in unexpected meetings and fleeting moments. Enough time to discover whether the two of them could fit into each other's lives when coincidence isn't doing the work for them.
Dazai looks down at the documents waiting on his desk. Then he reaches for the phone.
By the time his assistant enters the office, Dazai already knows what he wants. He asks for the schedule. There are meetings that can be moved, reports that can be finished early, and several tasks that will require considerably more work from him over the coming weeks. None of it is impossible. It simply means that Dazai will have to stop treating time as something that can always be borrowed later.
Christmas is approaching and he wants to be in Yokohama.
So he works.
He works through mornings that become afternoons before he notices, through evenings when the office is almost empty, through weekends that would otherwise disappear beneath paperwork.
It isn't particularly romantic.
It is, in fact, mostly exhausting.
But every completed task brings him a little closer to the city he wants to return to, and every time another obligation disappears from his calendar, Dazai finds himself thinking of a certain redhead without even meaning to.
He still doesn't call it love. He doesn't even call it romance. He isn't ready to decide that.
What he wants is the chance to find out.
And perhaps that is the most honest thing he can do.
When Christmas finally arrives, Dazai returns to Yokohama with far more luggage than necessary and considerably less sleep than he would prefer. He goes looking for Chuuya almost immediately, because after spending so long wondering whether he should return, there seems little point in pretending he doesn't know exactly where he wants to be.
The reunion itself is ordinary.
There is no grand declaration waiting on the rooftop. No perfectly arranged moment. Chuuya simply stares at him as though he cannot quite believe the idiot standing in front of him is real, insults his appearance within seconds, and then starts worrying about him freezing in the cold later.
It feels familiar.
That is what surprises Dazai most.
Not because nothing has changed, but because so much has.
A year apart should have created distance. Instead, the moment they begin talking again, Dazai realizes how much of their rhythm remains exactly where they left it.
And then they start again.
The coffee, the shop, late dinners, unexpected walks through Yokohama bay. Long conversations that wander into subjects neither of them originally intended to discuss. Quiet moments where neither feels obligated to fill the silence. Days when they barely manage an hour together and others when one hour quietly becomes three.
Dazai watches Chuuya return to the ordinary routines of his life and slowly begins to understand that this is what he needed to know.
Chuuya isn't simply someone he enjoys meeting by accident. He is someone Dazai wants in the ordinary parts of his life.
The more time they spend together, the less Dazai feels the need to ask what might happen and the more certain he becomes that he wants to find out. So eventually, he stops trying to define the feeling before he understands it.
He simply gives it a chance.
And perhaps that is where their story truly begins. For a long time, Dazai thinks of their meetings as proof that fate is generous. One unlikely encounter after another, each one placing Chuuya in his path when Dazai least expects it.
He is grateful for every one of them.
Without those coincidences, he might never have known Chuuya at all.
But Dazai no longer thinks fate should be responsible for everything that comes next.
Because fate can introduce people. It can open doors. It can put two strangers in the same café and give them a reason to speak.
But it cannot decide what they do after that.
That part belongs to them.
And Dazai is strangely happy about it. Because for all the roads fate placed beneath his feet, there is something satisfying about choosing one for himself. He chooses to return. He chooses to stay. He chooses to know Chuuya beyond the coincidence that brought them together, and he chooses to see what might grow from the friendship they built afterward.
Maybe the road ahead will be complicated. Their worlds are different. Their responsibilities will continue pulling them in opposite directions, and there will be days when finding time for each other becomes difficult again. Dazai knows that now, perhaps better than he did before China.
But he also knows that he doesn't need the road to be easy.
He only needs to choose it.
And if fate happens to cross their paths again, Dazai will gladly thank it for the introduction. After that, however, he'll take the wheel himself. Because there are countless roads in this world, countless cities and people and possibilities waiting beyond every turn.
Dazai has spent enough time wondering which road fate will place him on next.
Now, he would rather choose.
And somehow, whenever he imagines the road ahead, he already knows where he wants it to lead.
To Yokohama.
To a little auto shop.
To a familiar café.
To a redhead who still rolls his eyes whenever Dazai says something ridiculous.
To Chuuya.
Fate brought them together, but from now on, Dazai intends to make his own choices.
And if he gets to choose the road, then he'll make sure that, somehow, all roads lead to Chuuya.