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*Wednesday, October 10, Isak and Even’s apartment, Trondheim. Isak is sitting on the floor folding their newly washed clothes while Even is on the bed reading a book*
ISAK: *sighing* “Are we going flat hunting tomorrow too?”
EVEN: *turning a page* “I don’t think I can, I have some stuff to do. but we can go this weekend?”
ISAK: “Our lease is up in less than a month Even, We need somewhere to live, we need to find a flat,”
EVEN: “I said we can go look for flats this weekend okay?”
ISAK: “this has been making me so stressed lately. We’re not in Oslo, we can’t just stay with your parents or crash at Eskild's until we find somewhere to live!”
EVEN: “I’m stressed too okay? We’ll do something. We won’t just end up homeless and shit,”
ISAK: “yeah whatever,” *they both stay silent for a few minutes, Isak is visibly annoyed, trying to find something else to be angry about to let the tension out* “These all smell like rat piss again Even, I don’t fucking understand why it’s so hard for you to do laundry properly,”
EVEN: *distracted* “It’s just laundry Isak no need to make a big deal out of it,”
ISAK: “This was maybe cute the first twenty times you did it but it’s not anymore, don’t you understand that I need to wash all of them again? I don’t have the fucking time for this shit,”
EVEN: *looking up from his book, scoffing* “if it’s so important to you why don’t you do it in the first place then?!”
ISAK: *looking up at Even in disbelief, stops folding the clothes* “Are you fucking serious right now?”
EVEN: “yes! I am! You’re always nagging about this same old shit, literally every week Isak, if me doing laundry gets you so worked up then why don’t you do it and just fucking let go?”
ISAK: *taken aback by Even’s harsh tone* “This is a shared flat Even, I can’t be the only one who-”
EVEN: “Oh but I can be the only one who cooks the damn food in this flat? I can be the only one who has a damn job and is making money? I can be the only one who doesn’t find a reason to nag about every single thing?”
ISAK: *furious* “Is it really that hard for you to cook food? Is that really the worst of your problems?! Well You won’t need to anymore I’ll be getting takeouts from now on!”
EVEN: *dismissive* “Just do whatever the fuck you want I can’t bother to give a fuck anymore,”
ISAK: *hurt* “Even what the fuck are you on about?”
EVEN: “I’m just asking you to give me a break! Stop bitching about everything!”
ISAK: *confused, standing up to look at Even properly* “just what the hell is happening right now?”
EVEN: *refusing to look at him* “I don’t know, you tell me. You’re the one who’s always starting the arguments, you’re the one who’s always blaming me for every single thing that’s-”
ISAK: *inhales deeply* “Please shut up before you ruin everything,”
EVEN: “-that’s wrong in your fucking life, I love you Isak but you can be so fucking annoying sometimes that it physically pains me,”
ISAK: *finally bursting* “Oh and you’re such an angel aren’t you?!”
EVEN: “I didn’t say-“
ISAK: *talking without filter* “you think I’m not done with dealing with all of the messes you make every time?! you think you’re always pretty smiles and rainbows and fucking unicorns or some shit?!”
EVEN: “maybe we should stop before any of us says anything that we’ll regret tomorrow, I’m gonna go get some fresh air,”
ISAK: *screaming at this point, voice shaking* “leave and then what?! Forget this fight ever happened?? Telling yourself that it’s all fine, that everything will be just fucking fine tomorrow?!”
EVEN: *voice lower, seeming to regret his earlier outburst* “Isak-“
ISAK: “No fuck you Even! I’m not gonna beg you to stay! *shaking his head* “You don’t get to say whatever the fuck you want to me and then act like you’re all nice and innocent!”
EVEN: “At least I don’t come home bitching about everything everyday!”
ISAK: *losing his shit, exploding* “I fucking wish you bitching was all I had to deal with! ”
EVEN: *shaking, gulping loudly* “what the fuck is that supposed to mean?”
ISAK: “you know exactly what I mean Even! You know exactly what that means! You and all of your fucking crazy stunts-”
EVEN: *completely devastated* “Shut the fuck up!” *Isak freezes completely, everything’s completely silent for a few seconds, Even’s breath hitches, his voice small* “please just shut up,”
ISAK: *eyes wide, breathing heavily, shaking* “Fuck Even I’m sorry,”
EVEN: *shattered, trembling* “not good enough,”
ISAK: “Baby I didn’t mean it-”
EVEN: “but you said it,” *inhaling a shaky breathe* “That’s how you’ve been feeling isn’t it?”
ISAK: *eyes wet* “No- no no no Even that’s not true, I swear-”
EVEN: “Please just... stop talking Isak, I think you’ve said enough,” *Isak stays quiet, the only sound is Even’s heavy breathing* I’m gonna go now,”
ISAK: *begging* “Even please- I would never-“
EVEN: *tears in his eyes* “I just don’t wanna look at you right now okay? I just can’t stand to look at you right now- I just... okay?”
ISAK: *desperate* “Baby please-“ *Even turns around, Isak grabs his arm to pull him back*
EVEN: *harshly removing himself from Isak’s grip* “don’t- just don’t.” *walks away and leaves without glancing at Isak*
ISAK: *finally letting out a sob* “fuck fuck fuck fuck Isak fuck,” *putting his palms on his eyes, trying to breathe, failing, letting out another sob* “fuck Isak what the fuck have you done-“ *frantically searching his pocket, trying to find his phone, dialing the first number that comes to his mind*
ESKILD: “Mister Isak Valtersen, calling his guru at last, how’s it going baby gay?”
ISAK: *crying over the phone* “Eskild I f-fucked up- Eskild I don’t know what to do it’s ruined it’s all ruined everything’s ruined I-“
ESKILD: *tone worried* “Isak what the fuck is happening? What happened?” *Isak doesn’t reply, cries harder* “Isak please you’re scaring me what’s the matter? Isak?”
ISAK: *putting a hand over his heart as if to stop it from bursting* “I h-had a fight with Even, I said bad things Eskild very bad things and he’s gone he’s fucking gone and I don’t know what to fucking do I love him Eskild I can’t live without him and I can't breathe I can't breathe but he’s gone, he’s gone, he’s gone-”
ESKILD: “Isak I need you to calm down okay? Try taking deep breathes, in and out, in and out,” *speaking with him softly, Isak starts breathing properly after a few minutes* “that’s good, that’s nice. Now tell me, have you tried calling him?”
ISAK: *shaking his head repeatedly even though Eskild can’t see him* “No, no he didn’t take his phone and he said that he doesn’t wanna see me and talk to me for now,”
ESKILD: “when did he leave?”
ISAK: “Like, maybe half an hour ago?”
ESKILD: “Okay, do you know where he might have gone?”
ISAK: “No, no he doesn’t have anywhere to go we’ve been here for like a year now, he’s not close enough to anyone to spend the night at their place or anything, I don’t know where he is fuck he could be anywhere. What if he doesn’t come back? What if he wants to break up? I’ll die Eskild I’m gonna die.”
ESKILD: “he doesn’t want to break up Isak you need to calm down-”
ISAK: *starts crying again* “you don’t know the shit I said to him-“
ESKILD: “no Isak listen to me, no matter what happened I’m sure he doesn’t want to break up, you were both probably very angry, both said shit you didn’t mean, but it’s all gonna be okay, it always turns out okay. You need to calm down alright? Give him a few hours to calm down as well, and then think of some places that you think he might have gone to, a park or something, I don’t know. You’re gonna prepare a good apology and then you’re gonna make up, okay? Trust me.”
***
*Stiftsgårdsparken, 11:23 p.m. Even is sitting down on a bench, staring at nothing. Isak is standing behind him, struggling to approach Even. He takes a step forwards, hesitates, then takes another step backwards*
ISAK: *still standing behind Even, afraid to get any closer, speaking quietly* “hey Ev,”
EVEN: *not turning around* “Hi,”
ISAK: *finally taking a few steps to stand next to Even, Even still refuses to look up* “Do you want me to leave?” *Even shrugs* “Can I sit next to you?” *Even shrugs again, Isak sits down on the bench next to him, keeping a safe distance* “I brought you a jacket, you must be freezing,”
EVEN: *taking the jacket from Isak* “thanks,” *both stay quiet for a few minutes. After a while Isak moves his hand to rest next to Even’s on the bench, softly touching Even’s pinky with his*
ISAK: “Even?” *silnece* “Even I’m really sorry,” *still silence, Isak keeps looking at Even’s face for a reaction, pleading* “please say something,”
EVEN: “how’d you know I was here?”
ISAK: *barely there smile on his lips* “this is where we had our first date in Trondheim, and you’ve always loved it here,” *Even doesn’t speak again, Isak’s smile slowly fades* “Even?”
EVEN: *harshly* “What do you want me to say?!” *Isak’s breathe hitches, moves to pull his hand away, Even panics, quickly intertwining his fingers with Isak’s*
ISAK: *voice tearful* “I’m sorry,”
EVEN: *softening* “I know you are,” *finally taking in Isak’s tear stained face, pulling him closer, putting a hesitant palm on his cheek* “I’m sorry too,”
ISAK: *barely breathing* “Are you gonna break up with me?”
EVEN: *eyes widening* “what?! No! What? Are you?
ISAK: *letting out a wet sob* “then what are you sorry for? You never fuck things up like I do, you could never say something like that to me, I’m such a pathetic excuse of human being Even I can’t even believe that I went there,”
EVEN: “Isak-“
ISAK: “But I swear baby, I swear I didn’t mean any of that, I love you so much. I love you with every fibre of my being, I love you for every single mess that you ever make, I love you for every single thing you do. I love you so much it’s carved deep in my bones, so much that I can’t breathe and I can’t believe I ever let myself go so far I can’t believe-“
EVEN: *pulling Isak closer, resting Isak’s head on his chest, squeezing him impossibly close* “I love you too, I sorry too, I’m so sorry, I love you so much, I’m so sorry, I’m so fucking sorry,”
ISAK: *voice muffled in Even’s shirt* “please come home?”
EVEN: *kissing Isak’s forehead softly* “of course I’m coming home. I’m always coming home baby, I’ll always come back to you.”
***
*01:16 a.m, Isak and Even’s apartment. Isak and Even are laying on the bed, facing each other, speaking quietly*
ISAK: “Why did we even fight? I can’t even remember what it was about,”
EVEN: “I think this whole finding a new flat thing hasn’t been easy on us, we’ve both been so stressed over that lately,”
ISAK: *hand in Even’s hair, softly playing with it* “I was so worried about you, you left your phone at home and you weren’t wearing a jacket and I had no idea where you were. I was so worried,”
EVEN: *tracing the freckles on Isak’s shoulders with his fingertips* “I just needed some time alone, I’m sorry for scaring you,”
ISAK: “Yeah I figured, Eskild said I should give you a few hours to calm down,”
EVEN: “Eskild?”
ISAK: “yeah, I called him when you left, I think I was having a panic attack. He calmed me down,”
EVEN: “I’m so sorry for just leaving like that,”
ISAK: *smoothing the frown between Even’s eyebrows with his thumb* “You had every right to. What I said was unacceptable,”
EVEN: “I said some pretty mean stuff too, I triggered you, I didn’t mean any of it,”
ISAK: *leaning in, asking for a kiss* “Promise you’ll never leave?”
EVEN: *catching Isak’s lips between his, tilting Isak’s head up, kissing him deeply* “Promise you won’t?”
ISAK: *moving to lay half on top of Even, trailing kisses down his cheeks and jaw* “I promise,” *moving down to Even’s neck, pressing open mouthed kisses all over, biting the soft flesh on his pulse, making him gasp* “Fuck Even I love you so fucking much,”
EVEN: *throws his head back on the pillow, giving Isak better access* “I love you too. I love you more. I love you so much,” *giggles as Isak starts kissing all over his chest and stomach, getting closer to Even’s growing bulge* “Are we gonna have make up sex now?”
ISAK: “is it really make up sex if you never break up?” *bites his lips, places a kiss on Even’s underwear, over his dick, looking up at Even with questioning eyes* “Can I?”
EVEN: *already out of breath, high pitched* “Fuck. Yes. Please go ahead.”
ISAK: *kissing Even’s belly, pulling the underwear with his teeth* “I’m gonna make you feel so good baby,”
EVEN: *gently tugging on Isak’s curls* “yes please,”
ISAK: *slowly pulling Even’s boxers off, trailing wet kisses all over him and licking up his length as he does so, making him moan* “fuck you’re so beautiful, I can’t believe you’re mine,” *putting his mouth around Even's tip, hollows his cheeks and begins sucking, humming around Even's member* "hmm fuck,"
EVEN: *pulling harder on Isak's hair, pressing his heels to Isak's lower back* "f-fuck oh fuck baby, mmh y-yes, yes keep going, uh-" *moans loudly as Isak starts bobbing his head up and down his length "OH fuck Isak-"
ISAK: *suddenly pulling off with a pop* "You wan't me to finish you off like this or?"
EVEN: *panting* "yes yes yes please I don't have the energy to fuck right now please," *nearly screaming as Isak swallows him whole, dick hitting the back of his throat and making him gag, doesn't take him long after that to come, Isak comes a minute later jerking himself off as Even lays on the bed wasted*
ISAK: *cleaning himself and Even up afterwards* "today was probably the longest day of my life,"
EVEN: *needy, pulling Isak towards himself for a kiss* "me too,"
ISAK: *rubbing his nose against Even's, smiling at his boyfriend, whispering* "You're the best thing in my life Even,"
EVEN: *smiling back, closing his eyes and breathing him in, touching his face* "and you're the best thing in mine."