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Something seem to break in Xiao Zhan’s mind, his composure and self-control are forgotten. Since they met, YiBo has slowly broken his defenses, making each day and every moment they had together more unbearable, making it always a challenge for Xiao Zhan not to kiss him and forget that their lives could turn upside down if they surrendered to their desire to have each other. Each time YiBo smiled at him, the line to which Xiao Zhan clung so as not to surrender his wishes grew thinner and now it simply snapped.
They broke the remaining distance between them and pressed their lips together and the kiss just wasn't a total disaster because there was a lot of enthusiasm in it. They laughed against each other’s mouth and Xiao Zhan angled their head to try to kiss properly, kissing passionately, intensely until they lose their breath.
"Still looks like a misunderstanding to you?" YiBo asked panting against Xiao Zhan's neck when they had to stop to try to catch their breaths.
Xiao Zhan laughs. "Fine, I take back my words."
He hugs YiBo, his hands pressed against his warm skin under his shirt, while still trying to calm down and make sense of everything that happened, everything happened too fast and he was feeling sincerely lost. A part of him still believed he was dreaming, it wouldn't be the first time, and he'd wake up sitting on the couch after falling asleep watching TV and YiBo would be lying still looking at something on his phone.
"What about me still looking like a baby?" YiBo asks sounding totally like a sulky child and it makes Xiao Zhan laugh out loud and squeeze him with the hug.
“I said I was teasing you. Wang-laoshi is beautiful and charming,” he says and YiBo pulls away, smiling contentedly and Xiao Zhan rolls his eyes and shakes his head smiling with exasperated affection. "You are so vain! You always look so pleased when you're praised.”
"I feel really pleased, so please keep complimenting me!"
This time Xiao Zhan throws his head back laughing and Wang YiBo laughs with him before slapping his arm a few times.
"Zhan-ge , stop laughing!"
"You're laughing too!"
"Because Zhan-ge is laughing and his laugh is so beautiful and contagious."
Xiao Zhan gives him his best blank stare as his lips twitch in his attempt to stop laughing. "Are we starting this again?"
YiBo slaps his arm again, "We never stopped, right?"
"Haah, my Bo-di likes to show affection with physical violence," he complains and gets more slaps as proof that he was right. “Okay, that's enough. Be a good boy and stop beating your Gege!"
YiBo freezes in his lap and his hand still in the air in the middle of his attempt to give one more slap, his expression was unreadable and Xiao Zhan blinks slowly before frowning in confusion. YiBo lowers his hand, coughs awkwardly and looks away. Xiao Zhan notices that YiBo's face flushed a bit and quickly tries to figure out what it was that he said that left YiBo agitated.
“Did I say something wrong again?” Xian Zhan wondered and YiBo shook his head. "Is it because I said you show affection with physical violence?"
YiBo shakes his head again and doesn't look at Xiao Zhan.
"So ... is it...” he has to stop to lick his lips before continuing, “Is it because I asked you to be a good boy?"
Xiao Zhan was paying attention, so he notices the way YiBo's body shudders slightly and how his breath hitches. He holds back a smile, pleased to discover this new piece of information about YiBo.
"YiBo, do you want Gege to think you're a good boy?" Xiao Zhan teases.
YiBo stares at him looking almost affronted and then something shifts in his eyes, he tilts his head and then touches the back of Xiao Zhan’s neck, caressing it in a way that sent shiver down his spine before tangling his fingers in his hair and smiling too sweetly to be a good thing.
"This is not my first time visiting your home, but I have not seen your room yet," he said in a low voice, "If Gege show me his room, I can be really," he rolls his hips, "good for Zhan-ge.”
Xiao Zhan closes his eyes, trying to stop the images that his mind conjured as he inhaled a sharp breath when YiBo moved his hips in a way that sent a wave of pleasure through his body. Xiao Zhan thinks absently that because YiBo is a great dancer he is really good with the way he moves his hips, it feels good and Xiao Zhan’s body reacts fast to him.
"YiBo, stop," he asks, too weak even for his own ears, but YiBo just makes a low pleased sound at the back of his throat. “We're going too fast. Today… our… ah... kiss…” he began to gasp, his words failing as YiBo grind faster on his lap.
“How long have we wanted each other? How long have we been waiting to do this?” YiBo asked and put his free hand against Xiao Zhan's chest to feel his heartbeats. "I've been yearning for you for so long, so for me it's slow! I’m tired of all this pining!"
'He will be my death! Damn, why does he need to be so ...'
"Okay," he agreed and grabbed YiBo's hips to make the little demon stop before really making Xiao Zhan have a heart attack. "I'll take you to ... see the bedroom ..." he said the last part in a whisper.
YiBo smiled victoriously and wrapped his arms around Xiao Zhan's neck, "Carry me!"
Xiao Zhan looked at him blankly for a beat, two, and then, “What?!"
"Carry me," YiBo repeated slowly. "Gege won't fulfill this dream of mine?"
"Dream? What dream? What the fuck?” Xiao Zhan asked feeling stunned and YiBo laughed at his confusion and despair.
"What kind of dream do you think it is?" He raised an eyebrow, "In what kind of dream would I imagine Zhan-ge carrying me?"
Xiao Zhan swallows and needs to take a deep breath to calm down. YiBo really was too much, he was a threat to Xiao Zhan’s sanity, a demon who loves to tease and surprise him, but Xiao Zhan wouldn't change that about him. Everything about YiBo is endearing to him.
‘There was no going back for me, huh... I like him too much.’
"But I don't think Zhan-ge can do that," YiBo said and his carefully impassive voice and expression made Xiao Zhan narrow his eyes in suspicion. “Xiao-laoshi is an elderly citizen, he will have a sore back if he carries me.”
Xiao Zhan gaped and then decided to accept the challenge. “Let's see who's going to have a sore back!” Moved by the indignation of being called an elderly citizen, he gripped Wang YiBo's thighs firmly and got up from the couch with him, which was already an achievement.
"Wow!" YiBo exclaimed and held tight to Xiao Zhan, who took two tentative steps away from the couch trying to figure out how high were the chances to have an accident before reaching the bedroom and then having to find some excuse to say to their managers. "Hahaha, it seems to be true that anything is possible with the right motivation!"
“Fuck you,” he hissed and walked a few more steps, YiBo wasn't really heavy, but Xiao Zhan was no athlete, so carrying YiBo from the living room to the bedroom wouldn't be impossible, but it also wouldn't be the easiest task of his life, he was tired after a whole week of work.
"I certainly hope you do," YiBo said as he wiggles his eyebrows
Xiao Zhan gave a loud sigh and then started to walk toward the hallway trying not to be distracted and trip over something while YiBo kissed his neck. When they were in the middle of the hallway Xiao Zhan couldn't take it anymore and had to let him go in order to press him against the wall and kiss him senseless as they both worked to remove some of their clothes.
"Bedroom," YiBo gasped as Xiao Zhan kissed his neck, sliding his hands on his sides before squeezing his hips. "Where?"
"End of the hall," Xiao Zhan said and stepped back to look at YiBo, his mouth going completely dry with what he saw.
YiBo pressed shirtless against the wall with his face flushed and gasping for air was definitely a sight. Xiao Zhan couldn't help but feel smug knowing that the breathlessness, his flushed cheeks, messy hair, eyes dark with desire and kiss-swollen lips had been caused by him, this YiBo was for him.
"Like what you see?" YiBo asked when Xiao Zhan was a little too distracted looking at his body and devouring him with his eyes. "It's a beautiful body," he said, and Xiao Zhan couldn't think of teasing him because of his high self-confidence. "I think you'll like the full view. Want to see it?"
"Yes!" He agreed before kissing YiBo again, only stopping when he felt YiBo lift his leg to hook it on his hip. “YiBo, the room is right there! Do I need to carry you?”
YiBo looked at him with a shit eating grin and nodded, Xiao Zhan looked at the door and then back to YiBo with a suffering look, but received a cute puppy dog eyes and ... God damn it! He can't say no to YiBo.
"Okay," Xiao Zhan said feeling defeated. "Come."
"Whether or not I will come is entirely up to you!"
Xiao Zhan almost growled at him and YiBo laughed before jumping, wrapping his legs around Xiao Zhan’s waist and holding firmly at his shoulders as Xiao Zhan grabbed him tight and pulled away from the wall. YiBo seemed to be having a great time with the situation and that was the only reason that made Xiao Zhan not feel annoyed about it all.
"Don't complain if I drop you," Xiao Zhan muttered grumpily, YiBo gave a peck on his lips before hugging him tightly, hiding his face in his arms around Xiao Zhan's neck.
Xiao Zhan couldn't help but smile, he could feel YiBo's heart beating fast against where their bare chests were pressed together. He could also feel the slight tremor of nervousness in the boy (or was it Xiao Zhan who was shaking? He couldn't be sure) and the way he exhaled a shaky breath when Xiao Zhan started walking the rest of the short distance to his bedroom.
He stopped in front of the closed door, he would just have to push it open, so just one push with his foot would be enough, but he was considering his options and what would be the consequences of slamming YiBo against that door to open it. His time standing in front of the door was short, but apparently to YiBo that counted as hesitation for the wrong reason.
“Zhan-ge?” YiBo pulled back a bit to look at him, something in his gaze made Xiao Zhan's heart clench. YiBo seemed nervous, uncertain and almost vulnerable. That was only for a second and Xiao Zhan thought he might have seen it wrong since the hallway wasn't exactly well lit. The next second YiBo was grinning, “What? Don't want to show me your room anymore?” He asked and then held Xiao Zhan a little tighter, his expression becoming an empty mask. "Don't want me anymore?"
Xiao Zhan looked at him with his eyes wide in surprise and disbelief. How could this boy think that Xiao Zhan didn't want him after they got here? Was he really thinking that Xiao Zhan was hesitating in front of the door because he was hesitating to take him to bed?
Xiao Zhan laughs and kisses YiBo on the cheek, adjusting the way he is holding him when the boy slid a bit in his arms. "I was just wondering if I should kick the door or throw you at it to open it."
"Huh? What you - Wow!"
'I like the way he says wow ...' Xiao Zhan thinks absently as he sees the door open.
Xiao Zhan kicked the door a little harder than it would really be necessary to open it, he winced and almost wanted to apologize to the poor door. YiBo looked at him with wide eyes and then couldn't hold back his laugh, Xiao Zhan laughed with him.
YiBo looked over his shoulder, "So we really had the kicking the door scene, huh?"
“Now that I think about it,” Xiao Zhan enters the room and then uses his foot to close the door, he doesn't have to, but is feeling really proud of himself for being able to open and close the door while carrying YiBo, this is a new achievement in his life! "They should have filmed that scene with you carrying me on your back!"
"But Zhan-ge , I'm not as strong as you," YiBo said with that damn smile that did things with his heart and now other parts of Xiao Zhan. “Gege is so capable, so strong! If Zhan-ge were Lan WangJi in that scene, I bet you could have done the novel original scene.”
“The original scene? Which one?” Xiao Zhan asked as he took slow steps toward the bed.
'Since when is my bed so far from the door? ' Xiao Zhan wonders and really, he just didn't give up now because he really likes YiBo so much and he can't say no, so if Wang YiBo wants to be carried to bed, he will carry Wang YiBo to bed.
His smile widened, "Bridal style and kick the door."
Xiao Zhan looks at him with a pained expression, "Please don't make me test your theory as to whether or not I could carry you in a bridal style."
YiBo pretended to think about it, but before he could open his mouth to say something, Xiao Zhan was claiming his lips in a kiss and YiBo enthusiastically kissed him back. Xiao Zhan trailed his kisses to YiBo's neck and was glad to see that they were close to the bed, now he just needs to turn around and sit on the bed keeping YiBo in his lap.
That was the plan.
The plan failed.
Consciously or not, YiBo grabbed Xiao Zhan's shoulders and pulled back, but with that he put his weight back and Xiao Zhan lost his balance in the middle of the last step before turning around and both ended up falling into bed in an ungraceful way and in a tangle of limbs.
"YiBo!" Xiao Zhan grunted as he pulled away, their foreheads had hit each other in the fall and now both were grimacing. "Ouch ..."
"That wasn't sexy at all!" YiBo complained as he massaged the sore spot on his forehead.
“Whose fault is it? It was you who suddenly moved!” Xiao Zhan accuses as he also touches the sore spot on his forehead.
"It was you who tripped!" YiBo retorts.
"I didn't trip, I just lost my balance when you leaned back suddenly!"
"Are you saying it's my fault?" YiBo asks with an indignant snort and then starts slapping Xiao Zhan's arm.
“Stop beating me, you brute!” Xiao Zhan grabs his wrists and presses them against the bed beside his head, YiBo struggles a bit, but then stops and just looks at Xiao Zhan who looks back at him.
There is silence in the room and tension between them for a total of ten seconds before they both burst out laughing as they often did in the past when they couldn't look at each other without laughing and it brought warmth to Xiao Zhan's heart. Things were changing between them and still staying the same.
“This is all wrong! Where's the sexual tension? Sensual teasing? My forehead hurts, that's not how I imagined it would be,” YiBo complained, but he was smiling.
"I knew carrying you could go very wrong," Xiao Zhan said and then bent to kiss YiBo's forehead. "Are you alright?"
"Mn," YiBo gave what he liked to call his 'Lan WangJi's answer ' and Xiao Zhan just sighed. “Gege, let go of my wrists. I want to touch you.”
Xiao Zhan tried to pretend his heart didn't skip a beat at the way YiBo looked at him as he said he wanted to touch him. After giving another kiss on YiBo's forehead, Xiao Zhan releases his wrists and the boy immediately wraps his arms around him, pulling him close until Xiao Zhan is completely lying on top of him with almost no space between them.
"Zhan-ge," YiBo says looking into his eyes, his lips curved in the softest of smiles.
“Bo-di,” Xiao Zhan says showing a smile to him as well while stroking his hair, tucking his bangs back away from his face. "Bo-di," he repeats softly and then kisses his forehead, eyelids, nose, the corner of his lips, both cheeks.
YiBo squirms uncomfortably under him and wrinkles his nose, "You know you don't have to treat me so delicately, right?"
Xiao Zhan pulls away from where he was giving soft kisses on his neck and looks at him, "But I want to, YiBo."
'I want to treasure you as you deserve to be treasured.'
Xiao Zhan didn't say that, but YiBo seemed to understand and feel conflicted between feeling happy and embarrassed, so he reacted to his embarrassment the way he always did: he slapped Xiao Zhan on the back.
"Okay, Bo-di doesn't like delicacy and kindness, I get it! You don't want me to be gentle," Xiao Zhan said between laughs and was pinched for it, but the slaps and pinch were so weak that they clearly weren't meant to hurt, never was. “Can't you be kinder? Are you even human, YiBo?”
YiBo bares his teeth at him, but then kisses Xiao Zhan's forehead, then his eyelids and keeps repeating the same thing that Xiao Zhan did for him, hugging him tight and wrapping his legs around him as he kissed the corner of his lips and then over the mole under Xiao Zhan's lips, touching it with the tip of his tongue.
When they pulled away, Xiao Zhan looks for any hesitation on YiBo's face and only finds determination and desire. YiBo also seems to search for something in his face and gives a pleased smile when he seems to find it. After smiling at each other once more, their lips finally meet in a gentle kiss that quickly becomes heated, full of desire and from then on there was no more hesitation as they could finally touch each other as they had wanted for so long.
Later that night when YiBo seemed to be sleeping peacefully in his arms after they showered together, Xiao Zhan stroked his hair, his heart overflowing with affection and love for the man in his arms. YiBo with the scent of his shampoo and soap, wearing only a pair of boxer briefs and Xiao Zhan’s old T-shirt while hugging him in his bed was too good, almost like a dream, the kind that Xiao Zhan would hate to wake up.
"YiBo," Xiao Zhan whispers and then hugs him tighter, smiling as the boy snuggles against him. "Gege loves you."
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YiBo wakes up to the sound of the alarm he doesn't remember activating and starts grunting in frustration, he wanted to get some more sleep and completely ignores the alarm while he starts touching around the bed looking for Xiao Zhan. His heart almost stopping when he can't find him.
'Wait, I didn't set my alarm and I'm sure my phone was forgotten in the living room,' he thinks and feels his heart sink into his stomach, suddenly he's terrified to open his eyes and realize he is in his own bed and not in Xiao Zhan’s bed.
He didn't want to believe he dreamed about the words they said last night, the kisses, the touches, all the pleasure or the words Xiao Zhan said when he was half asleep, but ... it wouldn't be the first time he dreamed about Xiao Zhan.
Taking a deep breath, he opens his eyes and sits quickly on the bed, feeling a bit dizzy from the sudden movement and hissing under his breath with a faint discomfort in his lower half. He looks around as his eyes adjust to the morning light illuminating the room and notices with relief that he wasn’t on his own room when he stops seeing everything spinning around.
“Zhan-ge?”
YiBo gets up from the bed when there is no answer, he still feels irrationally nervous as he grabs his phone on the bedside table and looks around the room once more. Xiao Zhan wasn't the kind of person who would sleep with him and then leave, and this was his house, he couldn't even leave, but YiBo felt his heart beating faster and almost jumped like a frightened cat when he heard a sound coming from another room in the house.
"Xiao Zhan?"
YiBo rushes out of the bedroom and stops abruptly as he arrives in the kitchen, feeling relieved to see Xiao Zhan in front of the kitchen island, wearing dark jeans and white long-sleeve T-shirt, there was a black mask and cap next to the bags from which he's definitely taking what looks like cooking ingredients.
"YiBo?" Xian Zhan looks at him and frowns in confusion as YiBo only stares at him with slightly wide eyes. “Bo-di?” He stops taking things out of the bags and calls his name more softly when YiBo doesn't respond.
"Where were you?" YiBo asked, his voice sounding a little odd for being well used yesterday, and because he had just woken up and his heart was trying to leave his body through his mouth.
"I remembered that yesterday I used most of the ingredients I had at home for our dinner," he explained with a small, almost sheepish smile. "I had nothing good to offer you for breakfast, so I went out to buy some stuff at the supermarket near here."
YiBo made a low 'oh' and squeezed the phone in his hands, nodding a few times. Xiao Zhan looked even more confused than before and approached him, holding his arms and looking carefully at his expression. Yibo sincerely had no idea what kind of expression he was making, but Xiao Zhan seemed worried. "Did something happen?" He asked and then cupped YiBo's cheek and Yibo leaned into the touch.
"Nothing, I just..." YiBo didn't go on, he was feeling embarrassed to feel nervous waking up alone. "I just ... didn't know where you were."
Xiao Zhan looked at him silently for a moment and then seemed to understand what the problem was, his expression softened and he caressed YiBo's cheek. “Sorry, you looked tired so I didn't want to wake you up when I got up. I thought it would be best to set the alarm for you, I thought I'd be back before you woke up.”
"You don't have to apologize," he muttered, unable to look him in the eye.
“Next time I'll make sure I'm in bed with you when you wake up or warn you properly before I leave. I promise,” Xiao Zhan said gently and YiBo looked at him wide-eyed. “Hm? What's it?"
“Next time?” YiBo asked, feeling his heart practicing what could only be described as athletic leaps inside his chest. "There will be a next time?"
Xiao Zhan frowned and tilted his head, “… Did you just... You wanted just a one-night stand with me?” He asked and then grimaced, quickly looking away. "If that's the case ..."
"No!" YiBo almost shouted and Xiao Zhan flinched. "No," he said more softly and grabbed Xiao Zhan's upper arms, "After everything I've said and everything that has happened, how can you think that?"
"Because you seemed surprised when I talked about next time."
“I… I just… my brain is still processing that I'm not dreaming, so don't mind me. Next time. Cool. I ... that would be great! Yeah, I would love it. Let's ... Yeah ... wake up together in the same bed next time. ”
Xiao Zhan looked at him with amusement and then laughed as he pulled him into a hug. "I was just teasing you, there is no way I will let you go; I want many nights and days with you.”
“Really? Like a real relationship?” YiBo asked, he spent such a long time dreaming about having a relationship with Xiao Zhan that now it’s hard to believe this is really happening. “Are we... like... are we boyfriends now?”
'Holy shit Wang YiBo, stop stuttering!' He thinks and wants to kick himself for sounding so pathetic, this is so unlike him, 'I’m so happy that I can’t even form coherent sentences right now.'
“This is the first time I've seen you stutter and stumble over your own words like that, Bo-di."
“Shut up,” he hisses and then hugs Xiao Zhan tightly, nuzzling against his neck.
Xiao Zhan laughs again and pulls back to look at him, "The way your hair looks when you just wake up is really impressive."
YiBo makes a face and raises his hand with a fist to threaten to hit Xiao Zhan, but the man ignores the threat and even dares to mess up his hair even more, which makes YiBo yelp and try to escape, but easily be grabbed and brought back into Xiao Zhan’s arms.
“It's cute,” Xiao Zhan says and pecks his lips. “I remember seeing you waking up when we shared hotel rooms, but seeing you waking up at my home and wearing one of my clothes is something else. You're beautiful like this.”
YiBo looks at him with suspicion, “What like this means?”
“Messy hair, face without any makeup and looking like a sleepy puppy.”
YiBo glares at him. "I don't look like a sleepy puppy!" he protests. "But of course I look beautiful, I always look beautiful, I'm beautiful twenty four hours a day all week long!"
Xiao Zhan rolls his eyes and shakes his head with a tender smile. “You’re so vain! Your ego really has no end. The sky is the limit or it goes further than that?”
"What can I do if I'm beautiful?" YiBo shrugs and throws his arms around Xiao Zhan's neck. "Don’t you agree? Show me proof that I'm not beautiful all the time and then we can talk about my ego.”
"You are so annoying!"
"But you wouldn't want me any other way," YiBo says with a smug smile. "Right, Zhan-ge?"
"Yeah, yeah, Wang YiBo is the best, even his annoying sides are great, I can't compete against someone so amazing," he deadpanned and YiBo bares his teeth at him, almost growling.
"Zhan-ge, are you mocking me?"
"Of course not, how could I mock someone so perfect?"
YiBo narrows his eyes at him, "Are we starting this again?"
Xiao Zhan smiles, “Are we?”
YiBo looks at him accepting the challenge and grins before saying, “If we are talking about perfection, then Zhan-ge is the new definition of perfection! So early in the morning just wearing his casual clothes he looks like a model coming straight from a magazine! His face and smile are so beautiful that I don't know if it's the sun or Zhan-ge lighting and warming the house.”
Xiao Zhan makes a strangled sound of a dying animal and YiBo burst out laughing. They both laugh for a while exchanging compliments until they are tired and fall into comfortable silence as they hug each other.
"Xiao Zhan," YiBo whispers, afraid that if he speaks louder than that he will break the comfortable moment.
“Wang YiBo,” Xiao Zhan also whispers and squeezes YiBo in his arms.
"I thought I had dreamed, but you really said something to me last night when I was half asleep, right?"
"...You heard it?"
"I'm not sure," YiBo said as he held back a smile, nuzzling against Xiao Zhan's neck before giving soft kisses there. “Zhan-ge will have to say it again to make sure. Can you say that to me again? That way I'll be sure I didn't hear it wrong.”
Xiao Zhan hums and then YiBo waits for his next words holding his breath. Xiao Zhan pulls away and looks at him with a warm smile and eyes soft with affection.
"I really can't say no to you, YiBo."
“Zhan-ge...”
"Bo-di," he brings his face close to YiBo's, close enough to feel his breath, "Gege loves you."
YiBo feels his heart flutter and can't help the smile that is so wide it hurts, can't help kissing Xiao Zhan when the man shows that beautiful smile that makes his eyes crinkle at the corners.
Everything seemed perfect at that moment, like one of the best dreams YiBo had ever had, but this time he wouldn't wake up to live another day where he and Xiao Zhan would just look at each other longing to be in each other's arms while at the same time they tried to keep a safe distance. There was no reason to pretend that they did not wait for the moment when one of them would reach the limit and take the first step to cross the line they had placed between them.
Now they didn't have to dream about being together, they could live reality together.
This morning they will hug and kiss in the kitchen, YiBo sitting on top of the counter trying to keep Xiao Zhan as close as possible until Xiao Zhan pulls away and tells YiBo to go wash his face and get dressed while he cooks breakfast for them. YiBo will get dressed fast and come back to try to distract and annoy Xiao Zhan over breakfast, stealing kisses and distracting him while Xiao Zhan tries to make pancakes. Then they will eat together and go to the couch watch movies until lunch. This time Xiao Zhan happily massages YiBo's feet as they talk about their schedules for next week and tell each other about their work recently. After that Xiao Zhan will lay his head on YiBo's lap and the boy will run his fingers through his hair while watching TV.
It would be a simple day, but it would be their day together, so it was already perfect.