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Ian and Mickey sat at the kitchen table across from each other so they could talk about what went on this past month and leading up to it.
“Why did you leave?” Mickey asked just diving right into it.
Ian said, “It was true what I said a month ago, I needed space-“
Mickey interrupted him, “Why did you need space? What did I do that you fucking left and then brought over divorce papers?”
“It just felt like you were drifting away from me. No, Mick let me speak,” Ian said when he saw Mickey about to interrupt him. “Everything just felt off between us even before I freaked on you that day and left for Lip’s. Today was the first time in so long that we had any physical contact… I began to forget what your lips feel like or how it would feel to have your hands on me. You stopped kissing me for no reason when we would be together which turned into no kisses hello or goodbye. You would stay later at work every night, and when I would text you you would say you had work to do but why couldn’t you do that at home? You always used to rush to get home even if you had a ton of work. Then that just stopped and I would barely see you cause most of the time you would come home when I’m already in bed… It felt like you didn’t love me anymore and like you were bored of being with me. The only thing that gave me a little hope that you still cared was every morning you would make sure I took my pills. I just- I didn’t know what else to do. Every time I would try to kiss you or see if you wanted to do something just us you would tell me you were too tired from working or you had so much shit to do. I guess I just snapped that morning when you were leaving for work and didn’t kiss me or even properly say goodbye to me, yet again.”
“Ian, I never meant to make you feel like I didn’t love you anymore. Of course I fucking love you. You mean everything to me. You, Yev, and Mandy are the only things in this world that have any meaning to me. When you left I didn’t know what to do. I promised myself I would never let you leave again and I did just that. But you also promised me you would never leave me again and you did just that. I’m sorry Ian, I really am. I never wanted to hurt you and it seems like that’s exactly what I did. I love you so much,” Mickey said apologetically.
“I love you too. I forgive you and I’m really sorry also for breaking my promise. I will never leave again, I couldn’t handle being away from you. It was a struggle to keep taking my meds and even get out of bed. Debbie practically kicked me out of bed every single morning. I need you. I will always need you. You make me feel whole Mickey. I can’t do this shit without you. I just need to know why you were being so distant with me for weeks, why you stopped being affectionate… I felt like we went back in time, back twenty years, and I had to tiptoe about our relationship,” Ian said.
“I know I fucked things up for us. It had nothing to do with you. I was just so stressed out about work, bills, and honestly… I was freaking out about Yev going off to College. He got a really early acceptance and it freaked me out to know he was leaving. I’m fucking thrilled because he’s like the first Milkovich to get into College, let alone a great one on a full academic ride. I just- I don’t know man. He’s still my boy and - okay don’t take this the wrong way but I started to get scared about it just being the two of us when he left,” Mickey said avoiding Ian’s eyes.
Ian grabbed Mickey’s hand that was on the table and Mickey looked to Ian.
Ian said looking into Mickey’s eyes, “Why were you scared of that?”
“Cause it’s never been just the two of us. When we got together we were kids living in our family homes. When I brought you home I stayed with you at your home, then you got depressed and moved into mine. Ever since things got straightened out and we got our own place we weren’t just the two of us. Svetlana was here too. Even when she left it wasn’t just the two of us. It’s been the three of us, you, me, and Yev, for so long. I guess I started to freak out and I pulled away from you. I didn’t want to, I wanted to tell you but I thought you would get mad or you would tell me I was right and maybe we shouldn’t be together or something, I don’t really know what I thought. I fucked up. I’m really sorry, Ian,” Mickey confessed. Mickey grabbed both of Ian’s hands and squeezing hard.
Ian squeezed back and said, “You don’t need to apologize for feeling that way. I wish you would have told me that’s how you were feeling. Sure it’ll be different, it’ll be completely new for us but it’s us Mick. We love each other so much, we would do anything for the other. There’s nothing we can’t handle. Look at all we’ve been through. You can’t tell me you had any doubt we wouldn’t be able to handle it. Do you still feel this way? Are you still scared of it just being the two of us?”
“No I’m not. Almost losing you again made me see how badly I fucked up and that I need you. I need you more than you think, Ian. You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. It’ll be a fucking breeze for it to just be the two of us for once,” Mickey said with a smile.
Ian chuckled and said, “I think we’re well overdue for it to just be the two of us babe.”
“Babe?” Mickey asked with a small shake of his head.
“No? I kinda like it,” Ian said teasingly.
“I kinda hate it,” Mickey said.
“That’s why I like it, baaaabe,” Ian said grinning at his husband.
“You’re a dick, you know that,” Mickey said with a chuckle.
“C’mere,” Ian said after they stopped laughing.
Mickey got up and went around the table. He stood next to where Ian was sitting in his seat, and Ian pushed his chair back. Ian pulled gently on Mickey’s boxers and he straddled his lap.
Mickey was sitting on Ian and they were looking at each other in the eyes. Mickey rested his arms on Ian’s shoulders and Ian held onto Mickey’s hips.
“I will never leave you again. I love you so much. You gotta know that. After everything we’ve been through, you kinda just have to know that,” Ian said meaning every single word.
Mickey caressed Ian’s cheek before leaning in and kissing him on the lips. Ian kissed him back with ever fibber in his being. Ian parted his lips and Mickey slipped his tongue inside. They kissed lazily for a little bit before pulling apart.
Mickey looked down at Ian, his eyes were full blown with want and Ian could see the same in Mickey’s eyes.
They were about to give into that want when the front door banged open.
“I know you said to stay at Aunt Fi’s tonight but I-“ Yev called out entering his home and banging the door closed.
Yev saw his two dads half naked, one straddling the other at the kitchen table.
“Jesus, Yev. For once you could do what I fucking ask you to!” Mickey said getting up off of Ian’s lap.
Ian got up to and stood there next to Mickey, not knowing if Yev will be as forgiving as Mickey was.
Ian was about to say something when Yev asked Mickey, “So you guys are good?”
“Yeah. Yeah we’re good kid,” Mickey said with a smile.
“You gonna leave again?” Yev asked looking at Ian.
“Never. Yev, I’m so sorry. I’m so, so sorry. I love you so much, and your dad. I never meant to hurt you,” Ian said looking at both of them.
Yev nodded and made his way over to Ian. He wrapped his arms around him and hugged him tight. Ian hugged him back just as tight and rubbed his back.
Yev pulled away from the embrace. He smiled at his fathers and said, “So can we go out to eat?”
Ian and Mickey laughed. Things were finally back to normal, and they couldn’t be more thrilled.