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Title: I didn’t want to say goodbye.
Word count: 526
Pairing: Elijah Mikaelson x Reader
Warnings: It contains TO s5 spoilers, mentions of death.
A/N: I just wrote this after arguing with someone I really love, so… Yeah, I’m trying to let go of all the feelings lmao 👌✨ I hope you like it, tho!
(This gif isn’t mine!!)
I looked at the ground, feeling my eyes slowly fill with tears, blurring my vision. My hands stayed on my hips as I took several deep breaths, trying to process what my husband had just told me.
It took several seconds for my sobs to finally get rid of the hellish silence that had been reigning since he had spoken. I looked up, looking at him standing by the door through which he had entered, immobile, staring at me without saying anything.
“You already made your decision,” I said, “So If you want to leave, then leave,” I said, unable to stop my voice from shaking a little, “I won’t stop you, just go” I said, turning to look at the fire in the fireplace, not wanting to look at him. I didn’t want to say goodbye.
“Y/N,” He said, and a few seconds later I felt him behind me, with his hands on my shoulders, caressing them, “I know I should have told you what Niklaus and I planned to do, but I just couldn’t find the words to tell you that…”
“That you chose him, again.” I interrupted him, moving so that he would stop touching me, “You are willing to die for him, even after all the horrible things that he has done to us, but you’re not willing to live for me, your wife,” I turned to look at him, biting my lips to stop sobbing more, “I’ve fought every single battle for you, and next to you, and yet you’re not able to choose me even once,”
“I love you,” He said, like if that was enough, but it wasn’t. No words would be enough. The only words that could stop this pain were ‘I’m going to stay’, but we both knew he wouldn’t say that, never.
“But that’s not enough for you to stay,” I said, now looking at my hand, at the diamond ring in my finger, “I love you too,” I said, looking at the tears that came from his eyes, “But I know that’s not enough either,”
We stood facing each other, so close but shattered, looking into each other’s eyes, looking at each tear and listening to each sob that came out of us. Then he left a soft, wet kiss on my forehead, while I closed my eyes at his touch. It wasn’t a brief kiss like the ones he gave me every morning, it almost seemed like he didn’t want to part his lips from my skin, and I prayed internally that he wouldn’t.
“I’m so sorry,” He finally said as he pulled away from me. I didn’t know if he expected any response from me, but I still didn’t give it to him, wanting to keep him by my side a little longer.
I kept my eyes closed as I felt him walk away from me, listening to every painful step he took towards the door. I didn’t want to see him go. I couldn’t see him go. And when the door closed, my legs weren’t strong enough to hold me up for another second, throwing me to the ground while crying uncontrollably.
He was gone, and this time it was forever.