Ilya Mental Health
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No Complaints by FracturedFriends
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Apr 2026
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Ilya Rozanov is doing everything right.
He’s doing better.
At least, that’s what everyone says.
Is this what getting better feels like?
He doesn’t feel as much anymore.
Not the bad. Not the good.
Shane realizes he’s watching the man he loves slip away right in front of him,
with a practiced smile on his face,
and he’s terrified he won’t reach him in time.
Or: Ilya gets everything he thought he needed to be okay, and loses himself somewhere along the way, while Shane is forced to watch. -
fourteen days by charlieeanne
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Mar 2026
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His head swims; the edges of the room blur.
He did it. He actually fucking did it. He’s dying here on this floor and Shane is going to–
Think.
There’s no one else he knows in Montreal, other than–
No. Absolutely not. Pike hates him. Okay, tolerates him, for Shane’s sake. Barely.
Which– maybe makes him perfect.OR
It’s been thirteen days since Ilya started antidepressants, and if anything, he feels worse. He just has to make it to two weeks; the doctor said it could take two weeks. If he can just get to sleep, tomorrow will be better. But nothing can make him sleep, and he fucks up. All he can do now is make sure it’s not Shane who finds him.
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"Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."
"You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"
"I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."
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Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.
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- Part 11 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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cut string by weddingvowe
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Jan 2026
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Ilya spirals after him and Shane are outed.
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you talk of the pain like it's all alright by perchancetosleep
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
28 Mar 2026
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As soon as Ilya realizes that he has to kill himself, his brain immediately latches onto one indisputable fact: someone is going to have to find his body. There is no way around that, but not even the premature guilt for whoever has the unpleasant task is enough to talk him out of it, anymore.
If he hadn’t ghosted Galina, she’d probably tell him that he cares so much about it because of his own experience finding his mother. She’d also probably tell him that the fact that losing Shane Hollander is enough to make him kill himself means that he’s got a long, nonoptional date with a padded room clogging up his calendar for the foreseeable future. She already has a lot of fucking opinions about Shane and their fucked up situation, and Ilya really is fucking sick of hearing about it because he will not let her ruin the one good fucking thing he has.
Had.
(or: there is no plane crash. there is still a catastrophe.)