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Not how I wanted

Series Metadata

Creators:

ivvic, ivvic_arts (ivvic)

Series Begun:

2023-08-29

Series Updated:

2024-09-28

Stats:

Words:: 14,648
Works:: 12
Complete:: Yes
Bookmarks:: 4

Listing Series

This is not how I wanted to be in you by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
29 Aug 2023
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Summary

Clint struggles to provide adequate medical care mid-mission. This is a rough one guys, heed the archive warnings.

Series
- Part 1 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

986

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

21

Kudos:

40

Bookmarks:

6

Hits:

692
This is not what I wanted for you by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
12 Oct 2023
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Steve is there for Bucky in the immediate aftermath of Clint's death, watching his best friend grieve is hard.

Series
- Part 2 of Not how I wanted
- Part 12 of Whumptober 2023
Language:

English

Words:

2,106

Chapters:

1/1

Collections:

1

Comments:

8

Kudos:

33

Bookmarks:

3

Hits:

566
This is not what I wanted to write about by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
03 Oct 2023
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Bucky's therapist recommends he journals his emotions after a recent traumatic experience. Sequel to This is not how I wanted to be in you

Series
- Part 3 of Whumptober 2023
- Part 3 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

1,297

Chapters:

1/1

Collections:

1

Comments:

10

Kudos:

36

Bookmarks:

3

Hits:

561
This is not what I wanted to observe by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
15 Oct 2023
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JARVIS watches over Bucky after he returns to the tower.

Series
- Part 15 of Whumptober 2023
- Part 4 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

998

Chapters:

1/1

Collections:

1

Comments:

8

Kudos:

33

Bookmarks:

3

Hits:

444
This is not how I want to sleep by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe
25 Oct 2023
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Summary

Bucky continues to struggle with nightmares after losing his partner mid-mission. This is part of a series, part 1 included MCD.

Series
- Part 5 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

1,225

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

8

Kudos:

16

Bookmarks:

1

Hits:

211
This is not what I wanted to plan by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
24 Oct 2023
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Summary

During a team meeting Steve presents his idea on how to help Bucky process his grief. The team does not agree with his plan. This is part of a series, part 1 included MCD.

Series
- Part 6 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

975

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

8

Kudos:

23

Bookmarks:

1

Hits:

273
This is not how I wanted to say goodbye by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
25 Oct 2023
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Summary

Bucky continues to struggle with nightmares; unable to get enough sleep he takes drastic action. This is part of a series, part 1 contains MCD.

Series
- Part 7 of Not how I wanted
- Part 24 of Whumptober 2023
Language:

English

Words:

1,527

Chapters:

1/1

Collections:

1

Comments:

16

Kudos:

30

Bookmarks:

2

Hits:

457
This is not how I wanted to spend my evening by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
11 Dec 2023
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Summary

1st part in series has MCD; previous installment depicts the lead up to a suicide attempt - this details how Pepper responds when JARVIS notifies her there is an issue.

Series
- Part 8 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

1,529

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

8

Kudos:

27

Bookmarks:

2

Hits:

327
This is not what I wanted to say by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
14 Dec 2023
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Summary

Pepper notifies the team that Bucky is on the way to the hospital. The news is hard to hear.

Series
- Part 9 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

1,117

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

7

Kudos:

34

Bookmarks:

4

Hits:

583
That's not what I wanted to use (magic) by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
29 Feb 2024
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Summary

Part one of series contains MCD. In this installment the team is still coming up with ideas on how to help Bucky deal with his nightmares. Natasha suggests looking outside of science for a solution.

Series
- Part 10 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

1,681

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

11

Kudos:

27

Bookmarks:

2

Hits:

287
This is not what I wanted to see by ivvic, ivvic_arts (ivvic)

Fandoms: Marvel
28 Sep 2024
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A between the stories image of Wanda, as she helps Bucky with his nightmares. First part of series contains MCD.

Series
- Part 11 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

151

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

4

Kudos:

12

Bookmarks:

2

Hits:

126
This is not how I expected my epilogue to go by ivvic

Fandoms: Marvel
20 Sep 2024
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Summary

(First part of installment contains MCD)
A snapshot of how Bucky is doing six years after Clint's death.

Series
- Part 12 of Not how I wanted
Language:

English

Words:

1,056

Chapters:

1/1

Comments:

10

Kudos:

31

Bookmarks:

2

Hits:

261