With My Whole Heart
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The Light of Our Life by carlos-in-glasses (stormwriting)
Fandoms: 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020)
12 Apr 2023
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After an awkward conversation, Carlos buys TK a bearded dragon and fears it may be a parting gift (Coda for 4x12)
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TK picks his new pet from his shoulder and settles him back into the box. He’s as sad as Carlos has ever seen him. It’s the look of loss. He is giving TK a reason to grieve.
“I just wanted to be honest with you,” Carlos goes on, glancing at the lizard with unexpected fondness. “And tell you that this may be the only child that we ever share.” He looks into TK’s beautiful eyes. “Together.”
There it is. The ‘out’.
This is the problem with saying how you feel, Carlos thinks. Once it’s said, it’s said, and there’s no hiding from your own words. You can’t take it back. It’s not like scribbling your feelings into a heart cut from pink paper, which you then ball up and throw into the trash before you make the horrific mistake of passing it to your seventh-grade crush.
It’s not like publishing anonymous love poetry in your high school newspaper and then flying under the radar when it sparks gossip in the hallways.Series
- Part 1 of With My Whole Heart
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Tell Me How I’m Supposed to Breathe With No Heir by carlos-in-glasses (stormwriting)
Fandoms: 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020)
07 Nov 2024
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After Carlos tells TK he doesn’t want kids, TK tries to understand his own motivations for fatherhood by seeking advice from Owen. Following his own period of self-reflection, Carlos buys TK a pet lizard - but their first night as a family of three is a sleepless one. (A 4x12 coda).
“Why did it have to be like this? Why couldn’t we just be on the same page? Everything else is fine now. We’re in such a good place.”
“I know. Look. You thought I hung the moon; I thought the sun started shining when you were born. I want you to know what that feels like. But maybe you already do, just with your fiancé instead of with a kid.”
TK swallows back tears. He really did come to the right place this evening. “Because Carlos is my person.”
“Exactly. I’m saying embrace this amazing thing you’ve already got, and take what the universe gives you.”
Buttercup boofs with agreement.
“Thanks, Dad.” TK leans down and ruffles Buttercup’s ears. “And you.”Series
- Part 2 of With My Whole Heart
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A Storm From Heaven by carlos-in-glasses (stormwriting)
Fandoms: 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020)
28 Jan 2025
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A race car bed, toys, books, and plenty of hugs - and it isn't enough. Crushed after a social worker denies their application to adopt Jonah, TK and Carlos contemplate the sacrifices they still need to make so they'll be given another chance.
TK halts before the race car bed on display, opening his arms wide for the big reveal. “Baby, how perfect is this?”
Carlos grins, relaxing an arm around TK’s shoulders. “It’s very cool.”
“Right? I always wanted one when I was a kid. Did you?”
“Of course I did.” Carlos hums thoughtfully. “Maybe not one with flames all along the side, though?”
TK slowly turns from Carlos and inspects the bodywork of the vehicle. He had clocked the particular design feature of the flames, but hadn’t considered how this might appear to the social worker. The sensible person from whose assessment of their home, and them as a couple, could be make-or-break.
“Let’s see if they have ones without flames,” Carlos says, “Or we’ll order one.”Series
- Part 3 of With My Whole Heart