I don't really want to die. I was only joking.

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• Empty Bed by aster_is_a_star

  Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton  

  • Mature
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Gen
  • Work in Progress

  07 Apr 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Two-Bit Mathews/Dallas Winston
  • Ponyboy Curtis & Dallas Winston
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
  • Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Ponyboy Curtis
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Dallas Winston
  • Sodapop Curtis & Dallas Winston
  • Ponyboy Curtis & Two-Bit Mathews
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Two-Bit Mathews
  • Sodapop Curtis & Two-Bit Mathews
  • Two-Bit Mathews
  • Dallas Winston
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
  • Ponyboy Curtis
  • Sodapop Curtis
  • Johnny Cade
  • Angst
  • Heavy Angst
  • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
  • Angst and Tragedy
  • Hurt
  • Emotional Hurt
  • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
  • Suicidal Thoughts
  • Implied/Referenced Suicide
  • Suicide Attempt
  • Self-Harm
  • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
  • Questioning
  • Eating Disorders
  • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
  • Ponyboy Curtis Needs a Hug
  • Injured Ponyboy Curtis
  • Stay Gold Ponyboy (The Outsiders)
  • Ponyboy Curtis Centric
  • Ponyboy Curtis has PTSD
  • Protective Dallas Winston
  • Dallas Winston Needs A Hug
  • Dallas Winston is Bad at Feelings
  • Dallas Winston Lives
  • Gay Dallas Winston
  • Good Brother Sodapop Curtis
  • Sodapop Curtis Has ADHD
  • Gay Sodapop Curtis
  • Good Brother Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. is Doing His Best
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. is Stressed
  • Two-Bit Mathews is a Good Friend
  • Two-Bit Mathews is a Menace
  • Dead Johnny Cade
  • No Beta We Die Like Johnny
  • Bad Brother Darry Curtis

  Summary

  Pony-centric fic.
  One year since Johnny Cade's death, and Pony still isn't doing so hot. At least he's got Dallas. But really, wouldn't everyone just... be so much better without him? His best friend died, the only person he was really staying alive for at the time, he realizes. All he does is just stumble around. He decides to leave. For good, this time.

  OR

  Ponyboy desperately needs a therapist but its 1966 and he's a teenage boy.

  Series

  • Part 1 of I don't really want to die. I was only joking.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  4,214

  Chapters:

  6/?

  Comments:

  11

  Kudos:

  127

  Bookmarks:

  12

  Hits:

  1,615

• All That and More by aster_is_a_star

  Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Major Character Death, No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Gen
  • Complete Work

  06 Mar 2026

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Ponyboy Curtis & Dallas Winston
  • Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Ponyboy Curtis
  • Ponyboy Curtis
  • Dallas Winston
  • Sodapop Curtis
  • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
  • Hurt/Comfort
  • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
  • Fluff and Hurt/Comfort
  • Fluff
  • Fluff and Angst
  • Comfort/Angst
  • Dallas Winston Lives
  • Protective Dallas Winston
  • Soft Dallas Winston
  • Protective Sodapop Curtis
  • Protective Siblings
  • Protective Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
  • Ponyboy Curtis Needs a Hug
  • Injured Ponyboy Curtis
  • Self-Harm
  • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
  • Stay Gold Ponyboy (The Outsiders)
  • He/They Pronouns For Sodapop Curtis

  Summary

  post johnny dying.
  Ponyboy and Dallas go back to the hospital one final time so Dally can get his cast off. The hospital freaks Pony out and he has a panic attack, is taken home, and is found by Dally to have harmed himself. Comfort and fluff follows.

  or

  Ponyboy has severe PTSD, freaks out, and is comforted by Dallas.

  Series

  • Part 2 of I don't really want to die. I was only joking.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,419

  Chapters:

  4/4

  Comments:

  2

  Kudos:

  86

  Bookmarks:

  4

  Hits:

  1,111