Better Than Any High
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During one of Rue’s roughest attempts at sobriety, Maddy Perez finds herself done with Nate’s bullshit for good. What starts as Maddy needing someone who actually sees her turns into secret nights, stolen touches, and a relationship neither of them expected.
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- Part 1 of Better Than Any High
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After graduation, with Nate finally out of the picture and the house empty for the weekend, Maddy and Rue stop pretending they’re just friends. What starts as another secret hookup turns into a long, lazy summer day of raw honesty, filthy sex, and the kind of love that actually quiets the noise in both their heads.
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- Part 2 of Better Than Any High
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Months into their relationship, Maddy and Rue are trying to figure out what being “out” looks like while dealing with lingering demons—Nate’s shadow, Rue’s sobriety struggles, and the chaos of East Highland that never really dies. When a party threatens to pull them apart, the night ends with raw, possessive, emotional sex that reminds them why they’re better together than any high they’ve ever chased.
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- Part 3 of Better Than Any High
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On a rare quiet Sunday with no parties, no drama, and no shifts, Rue and Maddy spend an entire day together in Maddy’s house. What starts as lazy morning cuddles turns into slow, emotional, and extremely explicit exploration as they navigate Rue’s lingering sobriety fears, Maddy’s insecurities about being “too much,” and the deepening reality of choosing each other every single day. Pure hurt/comfort, domestic vibes, and heavy smut.
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- Part 4 of Better Than Any High
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A text from an unknown number threatens to shatter the fragile peace Rue and Maddy have built. When Jules reappears after months of silence, asking to meet "just once," Rue spirals — not because she wants Jules back, but because old guilt and new fears collide. Maddy's reaction surprises them both: no screaming, no ultimatums. Just a quiet question: "Do you need to go?" What follows is a raw night of honesty, tears, and rediscovering that trust isn't about erasing the past — it's about choosing each other in spite of it. Heavy angst, comfort, and explicit reconnection sex.
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- Part 5 of Better Than Any High
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It starts small. A forgotten appointment. A text left on read. The kind of minor cracks that happen in any relationship. But for Rue — still learning to navigate sobriety without counting every second — and Maddy — still unlearning the fear that love is always one wrong move away from violence — those cracks feel like earthquakes. When Rue has a nightmare so vivid she wakes up convinced she's used again, the shame sends her spiraling. And Maddy, who promised to stay, has to decide what "staying" actually looks like when the person you love is drowning in a relapse that only happened in her head. A raw, painful chapter about the difference between actual failure and perceived failure — and how two broken people learn to stop punishing each other for their own worst fears.
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- Part 6 of Better Than Any High
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Rue has been sober for two hundred and thirty-seven days. Maddy has been in therapy for four months. On paper, they're doing everything right — meetings, check-ins, communication, trust. But when Maddy's parents announce they're selling the house — the house where she and Rue built everything — something cracks in both of them. For Maddy, it's the loss of the only safe space she's ever known. For Rue, it's the terror of what comes next: living together, for real, with no backup plan and no escape route. A chapter about home — what it means, how you build it, and what happens when the ground shifts beneath your feet. Features heavy emotional conversations, explicit comfort sex, and two traumatized girls learning that home isn't a place. It's a person.
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- Part 7 of Better Than Any High
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Two hundred and seventy-three days sober. That's what Rue tells herself when the cravings get loud. But when she runs into an old dealer at the grocery store — someone who knows her name, knows her weakness, knows exactly what to say — the world tilts on its axis. Suddenly every coping mechanism she's built feels like tissue paper. And Maddy, who has held Rue through nightmares and panic attacks and the slow work of healing, has to face something she's been dreading since day one: the possibility that love might not be enough to keep Rue clean.
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- Part 8 of Better Than Any High
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Three hundred and sixty-five days. One full trip around the sun. Rue Bennett has been sober for an entire year — a milestone she never thought she'd see, a life she never thought she'd have. But anniversaries are complicated when your relationship with time is measured in relapses and resets. As Rue prepares for her one-year NA cake, she finds herself drowning not in cravings, but in something more unexpected: grief for the person she used to be. Meanwhile, Maddy is planning something Rue doesn't know about — a quiet celebration that isn't about the past or the future, but about right now. A chapter about what it means to survive not just the crisis, but the aftermath. About the strange sadness of leaving a version of yourself behind. About learning to celebrate without waiting for the other shoe to drop. Features emotional conversations, explicit reconnection sex, the hardest kind of honesty, and two girls who are finally learning that "one day at a time" applies to the good days too.
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- Part 9 of Better Than Any High
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Eight hundred and forty-two days. Rue is still counting, even though she told herself she'd stop. When a letter arrives from Fezco—her first real friend, the one who sold her her first drugs, the one who refused to sell her the ones that would have killed her—everything Rue thought she'd made peace with comes rushing back. She's been sober for over two years. She has Maddy. She has a life. But Fez is serving thirty years for a crime he didn't commit, and Rue can't shake the feeling that she should have done something. That she should have been there. That she owes him. Maddy, who only knows Fez as the dealer who enabled Rue's addiction, has to decide if she can support Rue visiting the man who represents everything she's terrified of. A chapter about guilt, forgiveness, and the complicated love of found family.
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- Part 10 of Better Than Any High
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Eight hundred and seventy-three days sober. Rue and Maddy have been together for over two years, living in their cramped apartment above the laundromat. It's been home—messy, loud, and theirs. But when Leslie announces she's selling the house and moving to a smaller place, it forces Rue to confront something she's been avoiding: the fact that she's been holding her breath, waiting for the other shoe to drop, refusing to fully commit to a future she's terrified of losing. A chapter about what it means to build a home—not just a place, but a life. About letting yourself want things. About the terrifying act of believing that happiness might actually last.
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- Part 11 of Better Than Any High
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Nine hundred and twelve days sober. Rue has a job, a girlfriend, a life. But she's realized something terrifying: she doesn't know how to have fun. Not the numbed-out, self-destructive kind of fun she used to chase. Real fun. The kind that doesn't come with a hangover or a hospital stay. When Maddy announces she's planned a surprise trip—a week at the beach with Gia and Lexi—Rue is forced to confront the fact that she's been so focused on surviving that she forgot to actually live. A chapter about learning to say yes. About letting go of control. About finding joy in the simple, ridiculous, beautiful act of being alive.
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- Part 12 of Better Than Any High
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One thousand and twelve days sober. Rue never thought she'd see the Eiffel Tower, never thought she'd cross an ocean, never thought she'd have a life worth traveling for. But here she is, in Paris, with Maddy—the girl who made her believe in the future. The trip is everything Rue dreamed of and more: the art, the food, the city of lights. But it's also overwhelming, forcing her to confront the fact that she's still learning how to be a person who deserves good things. A chapter about adventure, vulnerability, and learning to receive love without waiting for the other shoe to drop.
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- Part 13 of Better Than Any High
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