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   Let Us Live, Since We Must Die. by b4tmanst1nkz

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Comics), Winter Soldier (Marvel Comics), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • F/M
   • Work in Progress

   03 May 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Reader
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Original Female Character(s)
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Sam Wilson
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • Nick Fury
   • Original Characters
   • Shuri (Marvel)
   • Original Villain - Hiekl Ivanov
   • Alpine | Bucky Barnes's Cat
   • Hydra
   • Slow ass burn
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • reader is a badass
   • reader used to work for shield
   • the angst is so angst
   • when i said slow burn i meant it
   • Violence
   • Blood and Gore
   • reader actually has character and depth
   • Author is okay
   • Hurt Bucky Barnes
   • PTSD
   • Nightmares/Night Terrors
   • No use of y/n
   • author gets carried away in emotion
   • no srsly i keep on crying while writing FAR too much
   • Hydra can lick my dick
   • Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault
   • I care about Bucky beyond his body
   • somehow the reader haunts the readers narrative???
   • In depth descriptions of trauma and the body's reaction to it
   • irresponsible reader
   • people are ACTUAL humans and WILL make human mistakes
   • Drinking
   • Eventual Smut
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • im a consent MASTER
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • Human Disaster Bucky Barnes
   • Kidnapping
   • actually theres a LOT of kidnapping my BAD
   • Human Experimentation
   • eventually theres some tooth rotting fluff
   • Canon Compliant
   • Mostly.
   • Yearning
   • D1 hurt/comfort
   • I'm realizing this is Enemies To Lovers
   • Sleepy Cuddles
   • bucky barnes has body hair
   • Mutual Pining

   Summary

   You had been Nick Fury's right hand for your whole life, and you were fine with that. Your duty was to help people- one mission at a time.

   Then everything went to shit. After an encounter with a masked soldier with a metal arm that left you barely breathing, you left. Ready to put the violence, the pain, and the unrequited justice- all behind you.

   But things never could be normal again... guilt and grief past every corner, but the worst part was that you had no purpose now. Nothing to make all the pain worth it.

   That was until Steve Rogers showed up at your door, asking for your help with one more mission. What he failed to mention was the reason why you left in the first place, The Winter Soldier, was a part of it, too.

   CURRENT TIMELINE:
   BOOK 1.)))
   CATWS: 2-11
   BETWEEN CATWS AND CIVIL WAR: 11-30
   CIVIL WAR: 31-40
   BETWEEN CIVIL WAR AND INFINITY WAR: 41-65
   BOOK 2.))
   BETWEEN CIVIL WAR AND INFINITY WAR: 66-you are here

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   English

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