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If This Is It... by S_D_Blackthorn
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (Book), The Long Game (Book)
30 Apr 2026
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When a petty morning argument is the last thing Ilya says to Shane before he boards the Montreal Metros’ team plane, he thinks the worst consequence will be a bruised ego and an awkward apology.
Instead, the aircraft declares an emergency.
As social media explodes, the hockey world halts, and Shane’s Instagram messages turn from apologies to goodbyes, Ilya is forced to confront the one truth he’s been hiding longer than his feelings:
Shane Hollander is his. And he may have just lost him.
A mixed-media, Long Game–era angst spiral featuring breaking news alerts, trending fan edits, locker room confessions, and the most devastating Instagram DM thread you will ever read.
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03 May 2026
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“Daddy, who is Lily?”
“I don’t know sweetie. Do you mean your friend from school?”
“No Daddy, I thought it was her, but when I texted her, I got a really weird reply.”
Shane knew giving a phone to an eight year old might not have been his best parental move, but all the kids in her class had one, he’d felt guilty. Besides, it was only his old phone. It couldn’t do much more than text.
Wait… It was Shane’s old phone. And Judith was texting someone named Lily.
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After Shane Hollander's career ending injury in 2014, he lives a quiet life at his cottage with his two daugthers. His life is turned upside down when his youngest accidentally texts Ilya Rozanov, Shane's former lover and secret crush. Can Shane find a place for Ilya in his new life?
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- Part 1 of Find My Way Back to You
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01 May 2026
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Shane Hollander is finally getting his big break at Maison du Nord, Ottawa’s top publishing house: he’s been put in charge of the sports division.
His first project is Ilya Rozanov, a famous hockey player with a lot riding on his upcoming book.
What starts as a straightforward work relationship slowly turns into something more complicated, and both of them have to figure out where to draw the line, and what they are willing to risk.Bookmarked by Antarian
29 Apr 2026
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Playing for Keeps: Life After The Long Game by Loose_Philosopher936
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Feb 2026
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“I want our family,” Ilya said. “I want children. Permanence, I think is the word... A life with you. More than anything.”
Shane felt his throat tighten. “I want that too.”
Ilya nodded, eyes swelling. “I know. That is why I need to say everything now. Before I lose the nerve.”
He took Shane’s hands, grounding himself. “I am trying to be strong for you. But I need you to be strong for me too.”
“I am,” Shane said immediately, almost offended.
“I know,” Ilya said. “But I need you to listen.”
Shane nodded. “I am listening.”
“I do not want to play hockey much longer,” Ilya said quietly. “Maybe couple more seasons. And then I am done.”
Shane stared at him. “Done?”
“Yes.”
“With hockey. You’re serious?”
“Very,” Ilya said.
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Set one year after The Long Game, this story follows the fallout of a commissioner who refuses to loosen his grip, and the players who finally refuse to bend.
Shane and Ilya are done playing by the rules of others. They're ready for a life, a family, each other and determining what their legacy really is. They're ready to play for keeps.
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24 Apr 2026
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It Always Comes Back to You by Loose_Philosopher936
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
18 Apr 2026
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Today, though, Shane told himself he hated Ilya. He hated that Ilya left. Hated that he said nothing. Hated that he’d made Shane feel disposable.
Sometimes Shane imagined flying to Russia, knocking on Ilya’s door, punching him square in the face and telling him exactly how much he hated him. But he knew the truth. Ilya would open the door. Shane would forget every practiced speech. And he would kiss him. Melt into him. Give himself over like he always had. Be fucked by him. And even if it was the last time they would fuck, at least he would know it was the last time this time.
The truth was that Shane didn’t hate Ilya.
He hated that Ilya still lived in this quiet, unmovable place in his heart. It was the place that wouldn’t let him move on, wouldn’t let him heal, wouldn’t let him forget.
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This story is canon through the 2014 Russian Olympics, then diverges. After Russia, Ilya ghosts Shane and never returns to the U.S., remaining behind to care for his father. Both Shane and Ilya carry the weight of their shared past into the present, set in June 2017.
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19 Apr 2026