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You've not woken up (have you killed us both?) by CXpoet
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
13 Aug 2026
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Neil’s head rests delicately on the pillow, lips lightly parted and skin a shade paler than before, with his fringe fanned over his forehead gently just like it was all those mornings that Todd would find him passed out after a night spent rehearsing. Under it, however, bandages wrap firmly around his forehead. On the right side, just poking out from under them, he spots a patch of Neil’s hair, or rather, lack thereof. Blood soaks the surrounding bandages, a dark but present red.
“God, Neil,” Todd’s voice quakes with tears and he can barely stumble to the side of Neil’s bed before he collapses onto his knees. He can’t help the sobs that rack his body when he stares up at Neil’s face. Is this what he would look like if he were dead?
Carefully despite his shaking, Todd rests his head against Neil’s outstretched arm.
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Neil missed, and now Todd has to wait for him to wake up all whilst dealing with the aftermath of his attempt and struggling to accept his own feelings. But what if Neil was never truly asleep?