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  1. Public Bookmark 93

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    Ilya is certain.

    About the baby. About the future. About the little girl that he's so sure will be here before he knows it. About everything - until he isn’t.

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    The gender disappointment fic no one asked for.

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    26 Jan 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 85

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    Still, there’s something that sticks in his chest about all of this, feeling like somehow, he’s failed. Baby should have turned on her own by now. What is he doing wrong? Everything else about the pregnancy so far has been textbook. He’s done everything right- his diet, his exercise routine, prenatal yoga, Lamaze class, protein shakes, oil massages-

    Seriously, he's done every single thing the pregnancy books advised him to do. He hasn’t missed a single one.

    Yet, somehow, he’s failed at this. And this is pretty fucking important. If she’s not head down, he can’t safely deliver her. And if he can’t do that-

    Christ.

    Shane exhales again, rubbing his hands deliberately over the aching stretch of skin on his belly. He pushes against her stubborn little foot, low on his side. 

    “Why don’t you wanna flip, little girl?” he asks softly, brows furrowed. “I did the stupid elephant walk and I burned moxa at my feet. I’ve done the stretches, I let your dad massage my belly, I’ve tried everything. What am I doing wrong, hm?”

     

    -or, shane is 36wks pregnant with their first baby, and she's being stubborn about flipping head down-

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    26 Jan 2026

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    At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.

    Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.

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    26 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 46

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    Moy zaychik, what’s the matter, hm?”

    Shane panted, breathless and melty after cumming so terribly,

    “G-gotta pee,” he whimpered, “I have to go really, really bad.”

    Shane sobbed harder as the feeling of warm piss sliding down to wet his ass, soaking through the thin cotton of his panties. His clit was throbbing, and his pussy was clenching, spreading slick all over his inner thighs. Ilya pulled Shane to his feet, watching as Shane’s knees bent inwards. Ilya tutted,

    “Then go, sweetheart. Make a mess in your panties.”

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    Shane pisses himself. Ilya does some research.

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    23 Jan 2026

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    "Do you want children?"

    It should have been a simple question, a yes or no answer, and Shane knew that Ilya wanted children, because he did, too. they talked about it before they got married and briefly after they got married. But as their heat and rut approaches, something they have never shared before, Shane wonders if it might be time to talk about the next part of their relationship. But when Shane gets an answer he's not expecting, he starts going down a rabbit hole to confirm that this is actually what he wants.

    Occurs after the Long Game. Canon divergence and is set in Omegaverse.

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    22 Jan 2026