CharmedbyCastiel
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It's like being buried at the bottom of a very deep, very dark well. Castiel has lived enough, sinned enough, for the weight of his mistakes to pin him flat in the darkness. It's shame and guilt and grief and each memory anchors him with a razor specificity, there in the lightless silence. This is how it works, he supposes. His own thoughts will devour him alive until he sips oblivion by choice, out of sheer desperation, and the void will know peace at last.
But that was the bargain. He took that upon himself. His choice. Choice, he thinks, and would laugh if he still had a mouth to laugh with. Freedom is a length of rope.
Then, after what could have been many eternities or just one, a pang of agony comes that isn't his own.
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Or: the one where Castiel saves himself.
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- Part 7 of season 15 fix-its
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02 Jul 2021
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Cas doesn't come to him.
Dean can't really argue with that, given the circumstances. In all the history of balls in courts, he thinks there might never have been a ball as thoroughly in a court as this one is in his.
He drives for what feels like a long time but might just be a single sunny afternoon, or maybe years (time's funny here, Bobby had said), just enjoying the music, the shifting landscape outside his window, the hum and creak of the engine.
Finally the forest opens up and the road narrows down in a way that he's fairly certain wouldn't typically happen on any kind of earthly interstate, and he glides the car to a halt at the edge of a lake.
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Coda/fix-it for 15.20 "Carry On"Series
- Part 6 of season 15 fix-its
Bookmarked by CharmedbyCastiel
22 Jun 2021
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Turns out, Jack can't just snap his fingers and yank Cas out of the Empty. But there's always a way, and if there's a way, then Dean and Sam are going to make it happen.
This particular way involves rituals, secrets, a stabbing, and honest conversation in the dark.
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Post 15.9 "Inherit the Earth" / fix-it to 15.20 "Carry On"
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- Part 5 of season 15 fix-its
Bookmarked by CharmedbyCastiel
22 Jun 2021
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By the time everyone else calls it a night and heads off to bed, it's well past midnight. Eileen is the last to go, pressing a kiss to the top of Sam's head before she smiles and leaves the map room. Sam smiles up at her, his eyes a little watery like they have been every time he's looked at Eileen since she came back. Dean grins a little, watching them. And his heart aches a little, too.
Sam looks carefully at him after Eileen leaves. Dean can feel himself starting to bristle slightly. Sam's been giving him that look almost non-stop, ever since he and Jack came bursting into the Bunker to find Dean huddled on the storeroom floor with blood on his jacket and his head in his hands.
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Coda/fix-it for 15.18 "Despair".
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- Part 3 of season 15 fix-its
Bookmarked by CharmedbyCastiel
22 Jun 2021
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The thing is, Dean thinks, Cas is wrong about him.
Dean is a blunt instrument. He's the hammer he once accused Cas of being, the gun leveled at the poltergeist in the dark, the jawbone-blade cleaving tissue from bone. He's the sword swung on marionette strings by the archangel. He's the best pupil Alastair's ever had.
Cas is moving closer, speaking softly: gentle, lovely words that cut through the rhythmic clanging of Billie's fist against the warding. And all Dean can think is that he's so, so wrong.
Fix-it/alternate ending for 15.18 "Despair".
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- Part 2 of season 15 fix-its
Bookmarked by CharmedbyCastiel
21 Jun 2021