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    "I could never hate you, Tokiyuki-sama." Yorishige strokes his hair gently, his hand trembling. "Try as you might, as hard as you can... there is no future in which I hate you. I've told you, haven't I, my lord? I will follow you into the depths of hell."
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    Inspired by the end scene of episode ten, except that Tokiyuki takes it upon himself to punish Yorishige personally instead.

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    Lan Zhan places his left hand on Wei Ying’s thigh. He hopes this will make Wei Ying remember he’s in public, rephrase his wording to something other than a blatant death threat, but Wei Ying stops speaking altogether. / Sometimes, Wei Ying wants to be taken cared of.

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    That’s just the thing, isn’t it? Wei Ying feels nothing. He doesn’t feel anything, and this emptiness should scare him. He knows he should be scared. He wants to be scared. He isn’t. Fear itself is never scary; fear is just a response. It means that your body wants you alive. It’s the absence of terror that scares him.

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    Wei Wuxian is slow, these months, a pitiful grower. It is difficult to learn how to be soft; it feels too much like growing sharper. To not keep secrets is to narrate terrible stories that causes guilt and fear in those around him. To not grin and work his way through the aches by himself is to be unable to get out of bed and to snap because it fucking hurts when his husband asks him why. Is that who he is, when he doesn’t strive to be easy?

    He feels chilled by the realization, shoved face first into ice-melt water. As if the dirt-stained dagger sliding in beneath his ribs was the pulled thread, starting the rapid unraveling of the tapestry of his domestic dreams. The flash of cold, hard reality between yellow fields and fireplace-kisses.

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    31 Jan 2022

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    “Lan Zhan.”

    He knows he has a tone; he knows Lan Zhan knows, can tell when he recognises it and momentarily pauses in his movement to acknowledge him. Lan Zhan’s lips nudge at his ear. “Mn?”

    The words squirm inside Wei Ying like worms. He selects the least offensive one, pulls it up through earth into the daylight of their mood-lit bathroom:

    “Could we do, um. More?”

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    Sometimes, the difference between wanting something and having something is merely working out how to ask for it.

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