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    In a lot of ways, Euijoo might be the perfect alpha: in control, composed, leading from a distance. Everything, for him, from a distance.

    The Euijoo in Nicholas's mind undergoes a series of transformations. Nicholas wants him in whatever way he can have him.

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    07 Dec 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Nicholas a kneeling proselyte and Euijoo the world’s most beautiful, disinterested god.

  2. Rec 30

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    Jihoon looks down at his grasping hands. He knows he’s too greedy. He wants too much. Life would have been so simple, he thinks, if dance remained his one and only true love.

    Instead, there’s Dohoon. Instead, there’s Youngjae.

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    16 Nov 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    And so the words have followed him, the ones his teacher spoke to him in that small office room. That unmade choice morphing, becoming larger, looming. He hears it sometimes, now, still ringing in his ears:

    You’re going to have to choose. Do you understand?

    You have to choose.

  3. Public Bookmark 6

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    Soonyoung's never been so good at enduring and waiting and patience.

    "Stop thinking so hard." Wonwoo flicks his forehead. "There's nothing you can do about it."

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    28 Sep 2025

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    He texts Wonwoo under the table, when he hopes no one's looking. woudfl yuo say we didntget socialized properly bc oftrainingM

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    Soonyoung can rub up on Chan for a few days if it means getting back at Jeonghan. It sounds like a treat, actually. Both Soonyoung and Chan are tactile people (Soohyuk used to complain about that). They thrive in situations like this.

    Kwon Soonyoung is about to be the best goddamn fake boyfriend Lee Chan has ever had.

    (OR: Soonyoung asks his best friend to pretend to be his boyfriend for vacation, realizes stuff, and gambles on absolute certainties.)

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    04 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    “I think I want to fuck Chan,” Soonyoung says. And then once he says it out loud, he realizes how easy it comes out— and he makes up his mind for sure. “Yeah. I really want to fuck Chan.”

    Jihoon chokes on his sip of liquor. He coughs. “Wow. Yeah, that’s great, man. Is this some sort of weird foreplay?”

    Oh. Right. Soonyoung kind of forgot about the whole pretending thing. This all feels very real. He hums, says, “Yeah.”

    “Okay,” Jihoon says. “Next time I don’t want to be part of it.”

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    A little known fact: on the very rare occasions that Hansol gets drunk, he also gets kind of horny with the members. In the past, his attention has gone straight to Minghao or Chan or even Joshua, though the others would never actually sleep with Hansol, just indulge his cuteness.

    Seungkwan has always been stuck on the outside, though. Left with his quiet envy, knowing he’ll never be chosen or even looked at as an option. But tonight—

    No. It doesn’t matter. Right? It would be very ill-advised to get involved with any friend and bandmate, but most especially the best friend and bandmate he’s been in one-sided love with since he was fifteen, the man who “isn’t straight but, like, no labels or anything!” and who has an on-again off-again stylist girlfriend that looks like she could kill a man. Seungkwan shouldn’t take advantage of the curiosity in Hansol’s gaze now, the way he’s looking at Seungkwan with heat in his eyes, because it isn’t real.

    There’s no way it’s real. It’s just soju. Lots and lots of soju.

    Right?

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    01 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Like this, he’s less grown-up and untouchable than he has been recently. More dear, more familiar. Indulgent of Seungkwan, fond.