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"You look exactly the same," Eddie says with tears in his eyes. "How is that even possible?"
"I don't know," Buck says, his thumb swiping across Eddie's knuckles. "I don't understand it."
He may be the same, but looking at Eddie, Buck can see the years on him. His hair is a bit different, the creases by the corners of his eyes just a bit deeper. There's a new scar on his right hand that Buck hasn't seen before.He'd know these hands blind, but it takes him a moment to notice it still. His fingers brush over it once, and then again before he actually looks down and sees the thin golden band wrapped around Eddie's ring finger. Then he just—stares at it, stupidly, for a second. Before Eddie pulls his hands back, and leaves Buck's hanging empty in the space between them.
"You're married," he says.
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Buck looks at him, then, and it’s like Eddie can read his every thought, can see in his eyes the want, the need, the desperation, and Buck feels flayed under his heavy gaze. Like he knows that Buck wants to kiss the curve of his mouth on sleepy mornings, hold his hand beneath tables, fall asleep wrapped in his warmth.
That he wants to make a home with him, fill it with love—with a family.
Looks at him like he knows Buck wants to get on his knees for him. That he would, this very second, if Eddie asked.
Buck takes a step closer, bringing them toe to toe.
“You’re fucking—” he whispers, just shy of a rasp, “you’re fucking leaving, Eddie.”
or; Eddie is leaving, and Buck can't quite get it to stop hurting.
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07 Mar 2025
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when you look at me like that, my darling (what do you expect) by Sungodlou
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
31 Dec 2024
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This summer has had some subversive effects on his very definition of what it means to want.
He’s always been good at not wanting too much or too recklessly. But these days, it seems like he’s insatiable, wrought with hunger and pillaging to consume.
Maybe it's because this kind of wanting feels offensive—something he thought he’d snuffed out decades ago, made benign.
He’s always been so good at beating it down, down, down into submission whenever it reared its ugly head; he had a handle on it.
Now, it’s all gone to shit.
or; Buck and Eddie have sex, Eddie freaks out. Wash, rinse, repeat.
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07 Mar 2025
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Evan Buckley was born at 4:17 in the afternoon of November 29th 1992. Nothing of true importance had happened on that day, and that was including his birth.
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Buck never celebrated his birthday before - he grew to think that he somehow didn't deserve to - but that all changes when Eddie Diaz joins the 118
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21 Feb 2025
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“I feel fucking explosive, Buck. Like I’m about to go off at any second. I don’t want you caught in my mess.”
His eyes sting. At the very least, Buck contains the sound of it in his voice. “Eddie, I don’t know if you’ve noticed,” he replies, “but I already am.”
Eddie self-implodes. Christopher, seeking refuge, flees to Buck—whose priorities amount to, in varying order: take in the kid, get Eddie to talk to him, and keep the three of them afloat in the process. (Oh, and Tommy’s there too. He thinks.)
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