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    "He didn’t want Ilya to know that he had driven all night. He would be worried. But there hadn’t really been another option. Shane had been too tense to sleep, too tense to breathe properly. Seeing Ilya would help him relax. He was always good at giving Shane what he needed. He would tease him first, of course.

    “Fucking relax, Hollander.”

    But he would. Relax. As soon as he had Ilya in his arms. His heart would stop hammering, his bones would stop vibrating, the rush in his ears would quiet. He knew it. He just needed to see him. Because he was fine. Ilya was fine.

    Ilya almost died. Ilya almost -"

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    A character study looking at how well Shane Hollander would deal with, and process, almost losing the love of his life.

    Spoiler alert: Not well.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Scott watched as Hollander leaned in, further, to hear Rozanov. This was the part that didn’t entirely make sense to him. The missing piece of something that felt like it was just beyond his reach. This was quiet ease and small moments of comfort and a look that makes the rest of the world fade away. This was how he felt with Kip.

    Scott stilled.

    It was as if someone had whispered it in his ear. It was as if the final piece of this insane, deranged puzzle finally clicked into place. His heart was pounding in his ears. He was probably wrong. In fact he was entirely wrong. This wasn’t like him and Kip. It couldn’t be Kip. Scott had been watching too many romantic comedies. His head was in the clouds.

    But they weren’t touching.

    Hollander and Rozanov were as close as they could be, without laying a single finger on one another. They were specifically, rigidly, separate. The warmth between them was bridled. Entirely. And this, Scott realized, his heart sinking into the floor, was also how he had felt with Kip.

    Oh. Oh fuck.

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    OR: Scott Hunter figures out Shane and Ilya are together at the NHL award ceremony and tries (and fails) not to freak out about it

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    26 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 47

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    Ilya came home from Russia with his father buried and a terrible truth lodged like a piece of glass in his throat. He loves Shane Hollander. He can never have him. Not without making Shane sacrifice something big— too big to give up for the paltry offering of himself in return.

    He plays the game with a lump in his stomach, heavy guilt warring with his heart’s anxious flutter every time Shane looks at him. Something fundamental has shifted between them. He’s not sure if it’s been this way since Shane came out to him in Tampa, and held him tight like he was trying to keep Ilya in one piece as he was shattering apart. Or maybe it was that phone call, Ilya shivering on the cold streets of Moscow, a frayed nerve, spilling his guts out on the sidewalk.

    Either way, Ilya is going to end it. He has to end it.

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    AU in which Shane doesn't get a concussion and he and Ilya meet as planned. Ilya, deluded by his own self-loathing, attempts to break up with Shane, for the sake of their careers. But he finds that's easier said than done.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Wouldn’t it be heartbreaking if, after Ilya casually suggests Shane could sleep with other people when they’re apart, Shane takes it completely the wrong way? He becomes deeply insecure, convincing himself it means he isn’t performing well enough in the bedroom. Desperate to fix it, he starts googling ways to be better in bed, trying things he never would have considered before, all in a frantic attempt to keep Ilya satisfied.

    Or: After Ilya tells Shane he could sleep with other people, Shane tries to change himself so that Ilya wouldn’t want to look elsewhere.

    Based off a conversation briefly mentioned in TLG

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    26 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 71

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    They meet when they're just teenagers. They start fucking not too much longer after that. They also don't really allow themselves to get to know each other until much, much later.

    (In which your soulmate will one day say something that proves they understand you. Shane and Ilya don't exactly make a habit of talking.)

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    26 Apr 2026