accoutrement
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spotlit, getting lowered in by accoutrement
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
22 Apr 2026
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"Birdie, if you want witch pussy, all you have to do is ask. I'll be your witch. I'll be your sorceress. I'll dunk myself in green paint." Matt's hand, the back of it, so light, runs down the line from Jay's ribs down his hip to his thigh. A touch that gentle from a man who crashes through the drywall of life. "Just do me one thing. Be my video vixen, baby."
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- Part 4 of the door you run through
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i'm in your city, can you show me around it? by accoutrement
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
06 Apr 2026
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"How are you, Bird? It's good?"
"Yeah." His hairline and the divots of his collarbone are shining. The inner corners of his eyes. "Good." He swallows, and Matt watches his Adam's apple working. "I'm glad this is with you."
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- Part 3 of the door you run through
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hold me tight and show it to me by accoutrement
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
27 Mar 2026
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Matt's smile is full of pride. "What else do you like, Bird?"
It's so difficult to do this, but he knows how much Matt likes it. The praise. And he deserves it, besides.
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- Part 2 of the door you run through
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could ruin everything, could make me somebody new by accoutrement
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
22 Mar 2026
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Through everything, there's an overlay of I want to take his hand, that's so stupid. It's dark here, he could kiss me and nobody would have to know. Is he rough with himself – would he be rough with me? Could he be loud for me? Could I shut him up? It makes Jay feel like looseleaf paper falling out of the sheaf, mixed up with no context, can't figure out where anything gets put back.
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- Part 1 of the door you run through
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the door you run through by accoutrement
Fandom Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
22 Apr 2026
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The upward spiral is maybe the closest thing we can experience to heaven – a kind of heaven on Earth, which we feel in moments of total selflessness and falling in love. They're really the moments where you feel yourself turning into something else. – Caroline Polachek
Here, when I say I never want to be without you, somewhere else I am saying I never want to be without you again. – Bob Hicok
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The Wedding Band by prizewinningfruitcake
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017), Nirvanna the Band the Show the Movie (2025)
15 May 2026
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Obviously Matt’s aware that Jay looks good in a suit. It’s more something about the way he holds himself, still and straight, self possessed. That's not a Jay posture. It’s the weirdest thing, it makes Matt feel almost starstruck – so much so that when their eyes catch, it punches the breath out of him. There’s Jay, regular, but there’s someone else too, also Jay. That's when it catches up.
Maddy and her friend think Jay is his boyfriend. That word, boyfriend, crashes into his head so hard that for a split second he’s afraid he said it out loud. Earlier, Jules asked how long have you two been… and Matt, assuming he knew the end of the question, said since we were like 12 or something. Jay heard that happen. Not only that, he played along. They grinned at each other conspiratorially about it.
The only reason Matt would ever go to a family wedding is if he and Jay could get a show at The Rivoli out of it. The plan: Play the wedding, bring the house down, and get his cousin and her friends to book them for an after party. The part where they pretend to be a couple, threatening decades of load-bearing repression, comes out of nowhere – at least for Matt, it does.
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16 May 2026
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shock, shift and shake off by onthecrescentofthehill
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
04 May 2026
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“My mind is a black box, even to myself.” He shrugs.
“You’d tell me though, if something was super fucked up?” Jay says, letting go of him.
“You know me, man. If something was even a little fucked up, you think I’d shut up about it?”
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Matt comes to a realization, makes a plan, and Jay doesn't really notice at first.Bookmarked by accoutrement
04 May 2026
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It’s taking longer than Jay thought it would to get back on his feet.
He can’t afford his own place, so he’s still living with Matt. They move through each other’s lives like the other is invisible. Or, at least, that’s true of Jay. Matt keeps doing things for him that Jay would tell him to stop doing if he could see him. Jay wakes up and finds his water bottle full, finds breakfast on the kitchen counter with a fork and knife on a napkin alongside it, finds his bed made and his laundry done. These are, maybe importantly, things that Matt has never done for him before. And still.
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28 Apr 2026
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The B-Day (#43) by ingydar
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017), Nirvanna the Band the Show the Movie (2025)
21 Apr 2026
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In a move that has become simultaneously less (since ‘08) and more (since ‘25) prevalent in their lives, Matt throws himself bodily on top of Jay and wakes him up. It’s April 20th. What, in the aftermath of the 4/20 of yore, circa 2017, has become the most important day of the year. Closely rivaled by the day they finally got together, which, like, hasn’t swung around again yet. But when it hits this year, Matt has plans. Biiiig plans.
Bookmarked by accoutrement
21 Apr 2026
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why tonight, why tonight? by onthecrescentofthehill
Fandoms: Nirvanna the Band the Show (Canada TV 2017)
20 Apr 2026
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“I met a dental hygienist that was wearing a dog collar when we first got here, we danced and then he gave me a mint from a little baggy. It made sense that he’d carry those around, but then…” He just shrugs.
“Oh, Birdie,” He laughs, but it’s desperate, like a cry for help from the bottom of a well. “Was it - minty?” His voice sounds three octaves too high.
“I couldn’t tell. It’s so loud in here.”---
Matt and Jay plan to enthrall the Rivoli’s new booking agent at a gay club. Jay accidentally takes ecstasy thinking it's a breath mint, and Matt is subjected to torments previously unique to the trenches of WWI. It's going to be a long, long night.
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20 Apr 2026