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“No, I'll talk. You listen,” Other Eddie instructs. “I’m about to zip into thin air again so I need you to lock the fuck in and pay attention. Eyes on me. Focus.”
Eddie blinks.
“Great,” Other Eddie nods. “Okay.” He taps a finger sharply against Eddie’s chest. “Gay Eddie. Got it? Eddie, gay. You, Eddie — gay.”
Or, Eddie needs to lock the fuck in and kiss Buck. He gets 30 seconds to convince himself to do it.
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Buck is tired.
Everyone is doing important things, moving on with their lives, while he's stuck in this heart wrenching loop of hurt, neediness and unworthiness.
So he lets go.
Eddie asks for another chance at making things right, at keeping Buck alive and happy, and gets several. Stuck reliving the same day over and over until he figures a way out, he finally learns to listen to the universe when it screams at him.
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“Are you doing alright?” Eddie asks him with a slight frown and Buck swallows, going back to tying his shoes so he doesn’t have to look at Eddie.
“Of course,” he says simply. “Why wouldn’t I be?”
“I don’t know,” Eddie replies and Buck can feel his eyes on him. “You’ve been quiet lately.”
Buck freezes in his movements for a fraction of a second. He thought that apart from the whole dinner at Bobby’s fiasco he’s been doing a pretty good job at acting like his normal self in front of everyone.
And how has Eddie of all people noticed that something is up with him? It’s not like he pays him any attention anymore.
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Bookmarked by aicanseeyou
18 Jul 2025
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If there was a button, I would've pressed it a thousand times over already. I haven't, and I won't, because I'm too in tune with my body. Every little thing, even the smallest scratch, is torture for me. I raise my paper cut above water during showers, and shower with just one hand.
This fic bubbled up a feeling within me that no other has done in a long time.
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Eddie accidentally overhears Buck jerking off in the firehouse showers. Neither can act even slightly normal about it.
(Set before 8x06)
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Bookmarked by aicanseeyou
10 Jul 2025
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The most insane, unhinged, crazy, diabolical fic I've ever read.
But why couldn't I stop reading.
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“You and me, Diaz. If we’re both single at forty then we’re getting married.”
“Yeah?” Eddie blinked.
“Unless you got a problem with that,” Buck offered, a challenge was back behind his grin. Eddie loved this, he always loved this. The moments between him and Buck where they pushed each other, challenged each other, cornered the other while refusing to back down. It fueled Eddie with a giddy excitement, sparking his nerves despite the dulling effect the alcohol had on his body.
He smirked and held out his bottle, “You’re on, Buckley.”
~~OR~~
When Buck and Eddie make a pact to get married if they're both single by age forty, it takes an embarrassingly short amount of time for Eddie's thoughts to start referring to Buck as "fiancé" instead of "best friend."