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  1. Public Bookmark 85

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    Following their reunion, Dazai falls back into what he has believed his relationship with Chuuya to be, only to find out that some wounds can't heal without proper communication.

    (Written before the Meursault reveal happened.)

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    11 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 14

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    If they ever shared an intimate kiss, he’d think Chuuya would taste like acid all the way down. Caustic and torturous. They weren’t meant to ever play nice with one another, but it didn’t stop Dazai from imagining and longing for what could’ve been had their circumstances been different. Had Chuuya ever expressed genuine interest in him.

    Dazai does not understand what's so wrong about wanting what everyone has, and why it's so difficult for him to have even just a piece of something a little nice in life. He's been chasing his own meaning to life for years now, and he still comes up empty.

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    12 Sep 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 85

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    A series of interrelated oneshots showing Chuuya and Dazai's relationship growing and changing through their kinky sex life.

    You can read them individually or out of order if you want but if you read them in order there's actually the slightest hint of a plot.

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    06 Sep 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 12

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    This was the moment. The one they’d both danced around for years, orbiting closer and closer, never touching. He should’ve said no. Should’ve walked away while he still could.

    But he didn’t.

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    27 Apr 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 30

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    “You’re staring,” Chuuya says pointedly, not even turning to look at him.

    ‘Marry me.’

    The words catch in his throat, ending in sputtering.

    “You’re pretty,” he answers instead, not daring to say anything else.

    The moment passes. He says to himself that he’ll do his utmost best to say it another time. Just the fact that he thought about it means that he should consider it more seriously.

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    Five times Dazai almost proposes to Chuuya and the one time he manages to actually do it.
    (Aka aroace-spec messes with anxiety manage their relationship)

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    30 Dec 2024