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Heliotrope by Waiting_for_a_sunny_day
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
28 Nov 2025
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“Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”
Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.
“It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”
He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.
“Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.
“Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”
It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.
But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.
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- Part 1 of Heliotrope AU
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12 Jan 2026
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We Prey. We Seek. As Monsters often do. by Anonymous
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
09 Nov 2025
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Yoshiki didn't like playing Hide-and-Seek.
The summer's heat would hit against his skin, wetting his clothes and making them sticky. And thorn bushes would scratch up his legs as he crouched.
He didn't like the tension. It felt like nails rotating in his stomach; bile would threaten to rise from his esophagus for every single second he waited. His knees would shake, and his heart would bang against his ribcage in a way that almost hurt.
--------Or Hide and Seek, and the horrifyingly satisfying ordeal of being forced into something you want.
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06 Jan 2026
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you wanna play psycho killer? by HikaruMyLuv
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
10 Dec 2025
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“Soo… you got a boyfriend?”
Yoshiki blinked. “Hah. Why? You wanna ask me out on a date?”
“… Maybe. Do you have a boyfriend?”
“Uhhh… no.”
“You never told me your name.”
Yoshiki bit his lip. “Why do you wanna know my name?”
Horror movie nerd? Check ✓
Questionable crush on your monster best friend? Check ✓
Creepy stalker calling your workplace at night? Also check?!
Yoshiki's just trying to survive senior year, but apparently the universe said: "what if we made it horny and terrifying?"
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06 Jan 2026
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How to Tie a Bowline Knot by allthingsunrelated
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
27 Sep 2025
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He needs to be normal.
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- Part 1 of How-To
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06 Jan 2026
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like a heathen, clung to the homily by strayryuu
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
06 Aug 2025
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“Wanna taste ya, Yoshiki.”
It’s warm in Yoshiki’s room, and ‘Hikaru’ drags his tongue out to blot at a bead of sweat.
“Wanna taste ya, like ya tasted me.”
Yoshiki can't stop thinking about it. The feeling of 'Hikaru' against him, the flavor of his mouth.
And as hard as Yoshiki tries, he can't stop his wanting.
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- Part 2 of i think i saw you in my sleep
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02 Jan 2026