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    "Dazai..." Chuuya's voice comes out too tight and small, unlikely to ever reach Dazai. His hand lifts shakily, in some dazed attempt to stop him. There is panic wild and fast in his chest, the beginnings of hyperventilation, his breaths shallow and quick.

     

    Something's wrong, something's wrong—

     

    This hurts too much, it's not supposed to be like this—

     

    His vision is blurring, and his head is taut and aching with the stress and anxiety and so much anguish that he can barely comprehend it.

    The last of Dazai's hazy form disappears, far in the distance.
    _______

     

    Forced into a difficult situation, Dazai has to leave Chuuya behind post-Corruption without his usual thorough check-up. Only, he has no idea just what state Chuuya was in as he was walking away from him that night.

    Grief is a good teacher on how to value those you love. When he gets Chuuya back, Dazai uses his lessons well.

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    30 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 65

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    [NEW] FLAGS 031826 Livestream Q&A.

    0007: OMG the way Dazai and Chuuya held their mics during the interview are the same… They even leaned their elbows at the same angle… They’re so married AAAAAAAAAAA
    0008: Someone needs to take their meds ASAP
    0009: Can people stop creating something out of nothing?! Those two haven’t even interacted one bit! They haven’t even breathed the same air in the same frame!!!

    [or: In front of the cameras, Dazai and Chuuya are idols from rival agencies who have never interacted or existed in the same frame. Behind the scenes, however, they are secretly each other’s biggest fan.]
    [or: Maybe the fans aren’t delusional all along.]

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    22 Mar 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 97

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    Chuuya is in love with his boyfriend. He really, really is. After all, how can one not love their soulmate?
    His boyfriend has one fatal flaw, though. The flaw can walk, talk, retort, offend, and, with a doubt, fly spaceships.
    Chuuya doesn't fall in love with flaws. He falls in love with stability, precision, kindness, and wit.

    He doesn't know that Dazai has all of that, and much more.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    “I was going to confess to Dazai today.”

    Kunikida halts in his tracks, leaving Chuuya to stop and glance back at him from a step ahead. He is expecting a gaped mouth and visible, at the very least, perceptible shock, but Kunikida doesn’t look like he’s about to blow a fuse at all. Instead, he pushes his glasses up and furrows his eyebrows together, confused.

    “And you didn’t?”

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    10 Dec 2024

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    "Chuuya—"
    "Don't fucking—*don't!* Fucking SPARE me! I don't need your or anyone else's help! You are the LAST person who has the right to offer me anything! FUCK!” Chuuya shrieks, then he collapses onto the floor screaming.
    The floor shatters under him as For the Tainted Sorrow roars in his veins.
    “Shit,” he curses, watching fragments of the floor start to float up around him. “Shit-shit-shit!"
    His hands are shaking, but he can’t get gravity to respond. He can’t get his own body to respond.
    Then a cool hand lands on his shoulder, and everything clatters back to the ground.

    *“I won’t leave you.”*

    Or, Chuuya breaks, and Dazai spends a year putting his pieces back together, no matter how many times he cuts his fingers on their sharp edges.
    At the end, they’re both softer for it.

    Epilogue starts at chapter 39!

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    25 Apr 2024