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They don’t speak on the bus. Maybe it’s the fragile truce that’s formed since the bus passengers proved they were both somehow still alive. Together. Maybe it’s the soft peace that’s settled since Naim allowed himself to bury his face in Ryan’s shoulder once again. And Ryan nuzzled against him in return. Maybe it’s wondering if Ryan, too, sees his ghost watching as they pass through an endless, empty landscape.
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They escape with no plan for Step 2.
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03 Jul 2026
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toska by 87srivalry
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
10 Jun 2026
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Toska (тоска) is a profound Russian word for existential melancholy. The famous author Vladimir Nabokov famously described it as a soul-deep ache. A sensation of spiritual anguish, pining, and yearning without a specific cause. It captures an unexplainable weight of longing, boredom, and restlessness.
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17 Jun 2026
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It brought me to you by Lilylikeswords
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Jun 2026
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On the morning of his twenty-sixth birthday, Ilya Rozanov receives exactly one gift from his Husband: a whispered "Happy birthday, baby."
And then Shane Hollander goes back to answering emails.
By 6 p.m., Ilya is convinced he's forgotten.
By 7 p.m., Shane has accidentally broken Instagram.
By 9 p.m., Ilya is crying over a boarding pass from six years ago.
And by midnight, he discovers that Shane has apparently been collecting evidence of their love story since before either of them knew they were in one.Bookmarked by beatopianlauver
17 Jun 2026
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The Weight of Another Year by Icyhot_Kem
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Jun 2026
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“Mama died at thirty-four years old.”
“Oh. I didn’t know that.”
“This will be first year that I live to an age that she did not get too,” Ilya whispered into the steam around them, as though saying it any louder might make it feel more real than it already was.
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Ilya turns thirty-five years old, an age his mother never saw, and he struggles to reconcile with that factBookmarked by beatopianlauver
17 Jun 2026
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i'm unraveled by princebutt
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Jun 2026
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The weight of the truth of this birthday sits heavy over him, his own little storm cloud here to wreck his day.
At thirty six, Ilya has officially outlived his mother. And that… that is a very hard pill to swallow. She is immortalized at thirty five, never to surpass it, and here he is, one year older, his heart still thrumming, blood still pumping – while she’s been gone for twenty three years.
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OR, Ilya turns one year older than his mother was when she passed. He has feelings about it.
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17 Jun 2026