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Couldn’t help myself. I’m too obsessed with Ilya being week in front of Shane
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25 Dec 2025
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To Be Cared For by Katherine_Tripp1209
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
24 Dec 2025
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It's Ilya and Shane's first Christmas together as an actual couple, and Ilya is a bit nervous to spend it with Shane's family. Of course, when he wakes up sick a few days before the holiday, that won't do. He can't ruin Christmas.
Or, Ilya learns what it means to be cared for.
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25 Dec 2025
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Still Waters by TheQueenoftheAbyss
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Dec 2025
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“Ilya hasn’t been very well recently.” Shane swallowed, he hated saying that out loud, “Not for a long time actually.”
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Ilya's depression is flat, still and cold like water, sometimes he thinks it might drown him. The Hollanders are here to help him float.
(Or Ilya has a bad day, Yuna notices, and in the Hollander household love and support are given by force.)Bookmarked by chibierwin
25 Dec 2025
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Both of them were surprised when Dennis picked emergency medicine as his specialty last year, but equally relieved when he matched with PTMC. Calling him a great addition to the team is putting it lightly. He’s good with people on a personal level; warm and caring in a way that some doctors lose over time. Every morning he’s the first one here and one of the last ones to leave at night.
Seeing him struggle even slightly is new.
“Definitely odd… Go home, Jack.” Robby insists, knocking his knuckles against Jack’s shoulder. “I’ll keep tabs on him.”
While doing some charting of his own, he watches Dennis mosey over to one of the free desks and settle slowly into the rolling chair below him. He kicks his left leg out in front of him, balancing his heel against the ground at a strange angle.
The sigh Dennis lets out sounds too rough for Robby's liking.
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For Bingo Square: Cradling Someone in Their Arms.
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25 Dec 2025
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but I'm not a soldier by montgomerey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Dec 2025
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Ilya's used to long winters. He longs for the sun. He finds it.
(Featuring: an Ilya-centric introspection of his depression, husbands-in-therapy, and a LOT trite metaphors)
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Ilya’s life consisted in a series of more: first, from his father, who had wanted more success; then Alexei, who had wanted more money. More sucked him, it drained him dry, it left Ilya a walking carcass of flesh and bone and feet fit enough only to skate hockey, and only because it is the only tool with which he could be filled so he could supply more.
Ilya’s been empty long ago. Life consisted of moments threaded by the need for survival. Food. Water. Hockey for money. Sex. Vodka. He’s pawed at the hole within him, deep in his chest, and wonders if there is still a soul there. Perhaps he’d given it all, just as they’d asked. Perhaps the little he had left was a mercy. There is no enough as far as Ilya was concerned; it was only the greedy chants of more.
Ilya often wonders if his mother wasted away because she had given all of herself. He wonders if he’s taken from her, too.
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25 Dec 2025