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    They lapse back into a comfortable silence. Shane looks at Ilya as he is and thinks about Ilya as he was at seventeen, smoking in the back of a Saskatchewan parking lot. The image is almost unbearably tender for Shane, where his own seventeen year old thrill at seeing Ilya Rozanov meets all the things Shane knows about that lonely boy now.

    Shane thinks: Do you love number 81 more than you love this man?

    "Hey," Ilya says, brushing his knuckles over Shane's cheek. "Whatever I do, I will be there when you come home."

    Ilya decides to retire. Shane is very normal about it.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

    But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

    Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

    Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

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    20 Feb 2026

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    "You want me to hook up with some random guy on one of the rare nights we get to spend together after we flew all the way here on purpose just so I can try to have a different experience?"

    Or: After the cottage, after the confessions, before the trade to Ottawa, Shane and Ilya are adapting to a new version of their relationship, where needs and wants still have to be discussed. They're not great at the whole 'communicating' thing yet, and it all comes to a head when Ilya pushes Shane in the arms of someone else, for what he thinks is the good of everyone involved.

    Based on the conversation mentioned in TLG where Ilya and Shane talked about seeing other people

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Shane is missing Ilya so Ilya drives from Boston to Montreal to be with him

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    15 Feb 2026

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    It wasn’t that Ilya was jealous. It was just that…he sort of was.

    It's finally the off-season, and Ilya cannot wait for a perfectly boring summer at the cottage with his perfectly boring husband.

    Shane, however, has other ideas.

    (AKA Ilya gets jealous of a literal plant.)

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    14 Feb 2026