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Shane doesn’t know when this started. Maybe he was always like this, but things had escalated since he was drafted. Shane was afraid of a lot of things, but of all the things he was afraid of, the one thing he couldn't push away or hide from was himself. Control was the only thing keeping him tethered to this world. Control made him a great hockey player, and helped him nab a Stanley Cup, but control was also eating him alive.
His search led him to Reddit, where all actually helpful answers came from, and he read a word he had never thought about: chastity. He knew academically what that meant, but in relation to him, he had no idea. Then he learned a new set of words: cock cage.
Was he really doing this? It was impulsive, and he didn't even know if he would follow through when it came, but he felt possessed. He was getting hard at the thought, and wasn't that the fucking problem? He needed time back in his day that didn't involve jerking off to Rozanov, and this was certainly a solution.
or, Shane gets a cock cage and learns a lot about himself and his relationship with Ilya
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- Part 1 of The State of Dreaming
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28 Jan 2026
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Shane comes home tired and in need of some serious care from his husband. Ilya is more than happy to give him what he needs.
Just a very fluffy oneshot of them being soft and happy. Light smut and even lighter angst.
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- Part 2 of Hollanov Fics
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14 Jan 2026
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Tubes of Neon Light, Refracted by bluerosebouquet
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Feb 2026
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His entire body felt tense as the door was pushed open. He trained his eyes on the floor, monologuing before he could stop himself,
“Just so you know, my buddies paid for this dance for me and I’m sure you’re very nice and very pretty and good at what you do but I’m actually gay so you can just- Do what you need to do but I don’t want you to be offended because I’m not as into this as you’re probably…usually…used to…”
He trailed away as he looked up, and met the eyes of the very tall, very broad, very handsome man leaning against the doorframe.
They stared at each other, and Shane blinked, struck dumb.
Or, the night of JJ's bachelor party, Shane is forced into a lap dance he very much does not want. Until he does, and everything changes.
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- Part 1 of Tubes 'Verse
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13 Jan 2026
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before something breaks that cannot be fixed by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Jan 2026
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Shane is used to feeling fuzzy with Rozanov. Like he’s floating higher, higher, higher. But this - this isn’t that.
Shane isn’t floating, he’s falling. Sinking down, down, down below, into darkness. It feels like there are waves crashing over his head, cold and sharp like needles against his skin, and when he does manage to breach the surface for a moment, he’s met with thick fog and a starless sky. It feels sort of like a concussion, but not. There’s no pain, just…haziness. Just a gaping, empty feeling, right in the centre of his chest.
(Or, Vegas rewritten.)
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13 Jan 2026
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“I told you I’d make you feel good, didn’t I?” Rozanov murmurs, soft but sure. Shane sluggishly nods his head. He feels fucking amazing.
“Do you want me to make you feel even better?” Rozanov whispers against the shell of his ear, his free hand carding through the strands of hair falling over Shane's eyes. Shane nods again, feeling miles and miles above ground, completely sky high.
“You need to answer me, Hollander. I won’t do anything to you if you can’t say it.” Shane groans, feeling like his voice has retreated somewhere foreign in his body. He can’t grab the words, can’t force them into a proper sentence.
or; ilya keeps his promise of making shane feel good, but at what cost?
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- Part 2 of dom/sub hollonov
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12 Jan 2026