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Shane doesn’t know when this started. Maybe he was always like this, but things had escalated since he was drafted. Shane was afraid of a lot of things, but of all the things he was afraid of, the one thing he couldn't push away or hide from was himself. Control was the only thing keeping him tethered to this world. Control made him a great hockey player, and helped him nab a Stanley Cup, but control was also eating him alive.
His search led him to Reddit, where all actually helpful answers came from, and he read a word he had never thought about: chastity. He knew academically what that meant, but in relation to him, he had no idea. Then he learned a new set of words: cock cage.
Was he really doing this? It was impulsive, and he didn't even know if he would follow through when it came, but he felt possessed. He was getting hard at the thought, and wasn't that the fucking problem? He needed time back in his day that didn't involve jerking off to Rozanov, and this was certainly a solution.
or, Shane gets a cock cage and learns a lot about himself and his relationship with Ilya
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- Part 1 of The State of Dreaming
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28 Jan 2026
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Shane comes home tired and in need of some serious care from his husband. Ilya is more than happy to give him what he needs.
Just a very fluffy oneshot of them being soft and happy. Light smut and even lighter angst.
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- Part 2 of Hollanov Fics
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14 Jan 2026
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Tubes of Neon Light, Refracted by bluerosebouquet
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Feb 2026
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His entire body felt tense as the door was pushed open. He trained his eyes on the floor, monologuing before he could stop himself,
“Just so you know, my buddies paid for this dance for me and I’m sure you’re very nice and very pretty and good at what you do but I’m actually gay so you can just- Do what you need to do but I don’t want you to be offended because I’m not as into this as you’re probably…usually…used to…”
He trailed away as he looked up, and met the eyes of the very tall, very broad, very handsome man leaning against the doorframe.
They stared at each other, and Shane blinked, struck dumb.
Or, the night of JJ's bachelor party, Shane is forced into a lap dance he very much does not want. Until he does, and everything changes.
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- Part 1 of Tubes 'Verse
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- English
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- 5/5
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13 Jan 2026
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before something breaks that cannot be fixed by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Jan 2026
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Shane is used to feeling fuzzy with Rozanov. Like he’s floating higher, higher, higher. But this - this isn’t that.
Shane isn’t floating, he’s falling. Sinking down, down, down below, into darkness. It feels like there are waves crashing over his head, cold and sharp like needles against his skin, and when he does manage to breach the surface for a moment, he’s met with thick fog and a starless sky. It feels sort of like a concussion, but not. There’s no pain, just…haziness. Just a gaping, empty feeling, right in the centre of his chest.
(Or, Vegas rewritten.)
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13 Jan 2026
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“I told you I’d make you feel good, didn’t I?” Rozanov murmurs, soft but sure. Shane sluggishly nods his head. He feels fucking amazing.
“Do you want me to make you feel even better?” Rozanov whispers against the shell of his ear, his free hand carding through the strands of hair falling over Shane's eyes. Shane nods again, feeling miles and miles above ground, completely sky high.
“You need to answer me, Hollander. I won’t do anything to you if you can’t say it.” Shane groans, feeling like his voice has retreated somewhere foreign in his body. He can’t grab the words, can’t force them into a proper sentence.
or; ilya keeps his promise of making shane feel good, but at what cost?
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- Part 2 of dom/sub hollonov
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12 Jan 2026
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Take It Slow, Take It Easy On Me by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Dec 2025
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Shane reveals he can’t get wet, and Ilya—of course—takes it as a challenge.
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12 Jan 2026
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something you can fix by some1_around
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Dec 2025
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Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.
“Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.
And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.
Just once. Just a single nod.
Why did he have to nod?
“Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”
“Of course.”
Of course.
“Was it better?”
“Yes.”
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Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.
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- Part 1 of something you can fix
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12 Jan 2026
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How Will I Know (If He Really Loves Me) by dabforpalermo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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Ilya Rozanov is a natural caretaker. Shane Hollander is a natural clutz who keeps getting into situations where he needs taking care of.
Or: 5 times Ilya took care of Shane, and 1 time the favour was returned.
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- Part 4 of Hollanov
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- 6/6
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12 Jan 2026
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Hayden knows something is wrong the moment Shane lets his coat drop to the floor, in a little pile by the front door, instead of neurotically hanging it up like he always does. How could a hookup with 'Boston Lily' leave him this distraught?
Or; an outsider perspective of episode 4, where Hayden has to pick up the pieces Ilya left of Shane after he storms out of his home in Boston.
01/18/25- EPILOGUE ADDED!
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- Part 8 of Hollanov
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- English
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12 Jan 2026
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back to shore by gingerale_days (y2beans)
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Dec 2025
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"He needed to leave. He needed Ilya.
Shane walked towards the sitting room, making his way to where his shoes were positioned by the door, Ilya will stop him. Ilya will help him. Ilya will make him better."Shane drops after the infamous Vegas Hotel scene. Left to crash and burn alone, who will bring him back to shore?
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12 Jan 2026
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“You still want me to blow you later, yes?” Ilya murmurs a few minutes later, after he reluctantly pulls his fingers from Hollander’s mouth and washes his hands under the tap. His hands fall to either side of Hollander’s thighs where they rest on the counter.
Hollander only whines and nods his head hard enough that it knocks against Ilya’s shoulder, Ilya grabs the back of his neck and pulls him down. Hollander groans thankfully, panting wetly into his shoulder. Ilya doesn’t even care that Hollander is definitely smearing spit all over his tuxedo.
“You need to get through the rest of the night then,”
“But this feels so good.” Hollander slurs against his shoulder.
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or: small diversion from the bathroom scene in episode 2, in which Shane falls a little too hard too fast into subspace, and needs some help from ilyaSeries
- Part 1 of dom/sub hollonov
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12 Jan 2026
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Shane feels wrong. Off. It’s their last night at the hotel and he should be out with his teammates but he can’t move. Can’t think of anything but the keycard on his dresser and the pull to that room three stories up. He and Ilya have fucked plenty this week. That’s not what this is. Shane needs something else.
or: Shane is anxious and dysregulated and yearning and he goes to Ilya’s hotel room to accidentally get non-sexually soft-dommed out of his mind
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12 Jan 2026
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Baby, I’m Yours by dabforpalermo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Dec 2025
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After taking multiple hits and a painful loss, Shane Hollander faces his worst enemy. Not the press, not the injuries- himself.
Or: Ilya soft doms Shane into subspace and makes him feel better after a bad game
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- Part 1 of Hollanov
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12 Jan 2026
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Shane leaves Ilya's apartment, not knowing he's dropped.
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the infamous "we didnt even kiss" alternate ending
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12 Jan 2026
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lazy sunday morning. by yasu1234
Fandoms: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)
29 Sep 2023
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On a tranquil Sunday morning, amidst the soft rays of sunlight, Geto Suguru makes love to you for the very first time.
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- Part 1 of soft suguru collection.
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03 Oct 2023
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Tri Harder by craisinsensation1029
Fandoms: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)
26 Sep 2023
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After an innocent party game, Geto & Gojo make it their mission to fuck you.
that's it.
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03 Oct 2023
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A random encounter is the start of a friendship that turns to something more.
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27 Dec 2022
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𝔐𝔢𝔩𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔥𝔬𝔩𝔦𝔞- deep sadness or gloom; melancholy.
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A story in which two past friends cross paths once again[started 11/14/22]
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27 Dec 2022
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Two-time Olympian Kim Namjoon retires from professional swimming at 25, cites lingering injury skysports.com/more-sports/swimming/57836389Bookmarked by faenamu
17 Jul 2022
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come take it (if you want a piece of me) by babyblue (rhnull)
Fandoms: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS
22 Aug 2018
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Jimin forces Jungkook to make a Tinder, and there's no way that profile of Kim Namjoon is real.
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15 Jul 2021