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Despite their brightness and happy color, yellow carnations have a long history of being the method by which someone rejects the love of another — sending them a bouquet to wordlessly communicate their negative emotions.
Daffodils symbolise rebirth and new beginnings. It’s one of the first flowers to bloom at the end of winter, announcing the beginning of spring and signifying the end of the cold, dark days.
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“I don’t want to leave. I… I want to help, I said.”
And that’s when it hits him. Ezreal’s blushing cheeks, his sheepish look and awkward way of sitting on the edge of the bed. Ezreal knows.
He knows it’s a rut.
As if on instinct, in fear of being tempted and hurting the popstar, Kayn retreats again, further and further away until his back hits the bed’s headboard, his legs open and moving fast as he uses them to push himself away.
Kayn is too worried for Ezreal to notice the popstar’s eyes slowly looking down, following the scale-like pattern from his face to his neck, then a bit down his chest, until his human flesh is back again on his stomach, a trail of dark hair helping Ezreal’s eyes to find their way down… there.
“O-Oh.”, Ezreal coughs, his eyes unable to look anywhere else, “You… You have both… in this form..?”
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“Hm? What’s this?”, Kayn says out loud as he leans down to get the pillow that Ezreal threw, standing in front of Ezreal’s trash can.
Shit shit shit shit–
Ezreal jumps from his bed and runs to try and grab the box that Kayn now has a strong grip on. The rapper’s arm is way too high for Ezreal to take it away but he still tries and jumps around, until Kayn grabs ahold of him too by the waist, pushing Ezreal’s body against him to make him stop.
“G-Give it back!!”
“Why would I?”
“You weirdo– Looking at people’s trash– I said give it back it’s mine!!”
“Yours? But there’s my name on it.”, Kayn states, turning the box around, his arm still raised, “Look, here, it’s written. Is it chocolates?”, he teases with a smug smile, “For Valentine’s?”
Ezreal's prank ends up backfiring on him, leading to rushed confessions and sex. Yay!
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"Just for your info, I'm not wearing any underwear.", Ezreal sighs, closing his eyes and leaning into Kayn's neck.
No underwear.
"Why are you telling me this? I don't even get the surprise?", Kayn chuckles, trying to sound nonchalant but his heart starts pounding in his chest.
The close proximity with the popstar always does a number on him. It's uncomfortable in the best way to be able to feel his warmth and smell his shampoo.
"I'm telling you so depending on what you choose I'll be able to know if you're an idiot or a pervert."
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“General–”, he tries to call.
The palm spreads against his forehead, the skin cooling his fever. He sighs in a simple relief, the visions slowly fading away, leaving him in this silent and dark world of his. He opens his eyes.
Nothing changes.
The hand slides down his face in a caress, thumb pressing gently at each stop; his temples, the corner of his eyes, under his cheekbones, against his lips…
“Moze? Is that you?”, he whispers the question, unsure.
Silence answers. And the touch flees.
Jiaoqiu has nightmares, but Moze is here to take care of him.
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Straight-laced by SleeplessAndObsessed
Fandoms: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game)
21 Nov 2025
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Phainon stands still and silent in the locker room, all thoughts stopped to a halt, while Mydei, unaware, finishes tying up his shoelaces. Phainon’s eyes grow wide and stupid, his mouth agape, all words forgotten, unable to look away. He must be seeing things… Except he’s not. There’s a string of black cloth hugging his best friend’s hip— lingerie, he thinks, his vocabulary reduced to the bare minimum. Mydei is wearing lingerie. Mydei is-
Or: Phainon Is Very Straight
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07 Mar 2026
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You Gave Me a Key (and Called it Home) by strifeless
Fandoms: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game)
04 Mar 2026
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It had never been this quiet. Now, with only one body occupying the space, it felt empty. The absence of others pressed in from all sides, the loneliness heavy and stifling. Phainon set the laundry basket down slowly, and let himself sit on the edge of the bed. The mattress dipped beneath his weight, unfamiliarly soft.
He felt empty in a way he hadn’t been able to process until then. It wasn’t until that moment that he’d let it all hit him in full. He wasn’t just lonely, but severed—cut away from the routine he’d grown into without realizing how deeply he relied on it.
But he knew this was only the beginning. The tour loomed ahead of them, a stretch of unfamiliar cities and similarly empty bedrooms waiting to swallow him whole. Months worth of nights spent curled into the sheets by himself, without Mydei next to him.Or: Breaking up with the love of your life is hard. It's made infinitely harder when instead of moving on, you're obligated by contract to go on tour with him, and find yourself in his bed. Especially when you haven't had a proper conversation in six months.
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05 Mar 2026
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”You’re right that Aglaea assigned me to a new project–”
“See? I told you–”
“Because she assigned everyone to a new project. Including the analysts. It’s some cross department bullshit.”
Mydei’s eyes widened. He scans Cipher’s face for any trace of a lie but is only met with annoyance and irritation. If what she’s saying is true, then that means they’ll have to work closely with the other department.
Phainon’s department.
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01 Mar 2026
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'Mydei?' Phainon mouths silently, cautious. Confused. The expression Mydei is wearing must be a severe one, because Phainon's concern remains even when Mydei pulls back Phainon's chair and makes to climb underneath his desk, kneeling on the ground, before drawing him back in by the hips.
He watches Phainon's cheeks color, his eyes widening and his pupils dilating. Phainon's soft lips part—opening and closing wordlessly a handful of times.
"Keep playing," Mydei instructs, voice low as he reaches for the waistband of Phainon's sweatpants and unceremoniously tugging them down. Not teasing. Not performing. "Don't stop."
Phainon helps Mydei destress the only way he knows how.
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- Part 2 of Streamer!Phainon x CEO!Mydei
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19 Feb 2026
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a dash of honey by katraa for starsneverlanding
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
27 Jan 2026
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“What is that?”
Oh. Oh no.
“What is what?” Kaveh asks, quickly. Far, far too quickly.
“That.” Alhaitham reaches forward, then. He grabs Kaveh’s chin and directs the other man’s gaze towards three hearts that have drifted off to Alhaitham’s right.
“O-oh,” Kaveh chokes out, torn between mortified and exceedingly overwhelmed. He has some explaining to do.
Kaveh temporarily suffers from a strange illness where hearts appear whenever his emotions are at a high. Lucky for him, those hearts seem to have a thing for Alhaitham. Go figure.
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31 Jan 2026