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  1. Public Bookmark 85

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    Shane set his jaw and walked to his stall. He could do this. He’d played through injuries, through food poisoning, through the worst media circus the league had ever seen. A slightly different bench was not going to beat him.
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    Troy didn’t realize he’d stopped breathing until Harris’ hand landed gently on his lower back. “Babe?” The world tilted. The kids’ laughter warped into something sharp and dangerous. His heart hammered so hard he could feel it in his teeth.
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    The Centaurs had won the Cup again and the city had thrown them a parade that still echoed in everyone’s ears. Ilya should have been floating. Instead he felt hollow, like the trophy was someone else’s.
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    The appetizers had just hit the table when her phone rang. Lisa’s face changed the second she saw the hospital number. She stepped away to answer, and Wyatt’s stomach dropped. When she came back two minutes later, her expression was already in doctor mode. “It’s Matty,” she said quietly. “Five years old. Leukemia. He took a bad turn this afternoon. I have to go.”

    4 of the many times Ottawa Centaurs were not just teammates but a family.

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    29 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 17

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    They hadn’t had the diagnosis back then because there was no way Grigori Rozanov had a son with depression. He had a difficult teenager who needed discipline and who could be lazy at times, just like his mother. 

    Attitude like that wasn’t cured with coddling. 

    To go from that to the support Shane seems to show so easily, to be treated kindly when Ilya is not being the best version of himself, is a mental whiplash. It makes the past feel more painful and it makes Ilya want to be better now. With proper support he should be better, right? To be mad at that support feels ungrateful. Sometimes he wonders if support like this could have saved his mother. He wonders if he’d be dead without it.

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    Ilya is having a rough time. Shane tries to make it better. They discover that while talking might sometimes be difficult, it is necessary.

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    27 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 63

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    “Yay!” Ilya giggles and throws his head back, settling back into the pillows. He smiles dreamily at Shane. “I’m glad I didn’t kill myself.”
    Shane freezes and Scott stiffens. His words come out slowly, horrified by what he’s just heard. Maybe it was a fluke or an offhanded dead joke. “What did you say?”

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    Ilya suffers a concussion and while high on pain medication, he accidentally reveals his attempt the previous summer.

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    25 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 3

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    It has never been that quiet before. It simply feels wrong. Something quintessential is missing.

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    25 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 3

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    this is a short story of Ilya and Shane, who have just adopted a daughter. it does not end well, but they find a way to keep living, as always.

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    25 May 2026